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kidney doctor appt tomorrow

Good afternoon all. I have a appt with my kidney doctor tomorrow afternoon. I am trying real hard to not be fearful but i will be honest with you all. I am scared... If what i have been told is the facts then i am going to be out on bed rest for some time.. MOney is already getting low from my check from the goverment. The children and i have been living off that, we have been paying bills off that.. eating off that.. with the doctors appt, meds etc the money will not last much longer.

Right now i am just worried about what the doctor is going to tell me.. I am hurting all the time and that does not help anything. I am honestly ready for all this to be over yet at the same time i know that when it is all done with i still have the syst to take care of...

Just keep us in your prayers.

god bless

glenda

Mission Trip

Well the children left for there mission trip to Ohio this am. I am so thrilled for them. I know that it will do them good to be out doing Gods work.. I look forward to hearing from them on all the wonderful work they have done for the Lord when they return. They will be gone until Saturday so i will miss them something... My two youngest children James and Rebecca stayed home to help mom.. With me being sick i just do not have enough life in me to take care of all the animals and everything else.. So they stayed to do those things.. Rebecca's birthday is Wednesday she will be 15 years old.. OH boy where have the years gone to..  I plan on doing something speical with her and her brother for her birthday...

Tuesday i go back to the doctor.. i pray that we can get sceduled everything that needs to be done. I also pray that the infection is cleared up.. So that we can get things in motion to get me back on my feet.

Keep the children in your prayers as they are on there missions trip. Pray that they are able to show the Love of the Lord to lost ones out there and also that they are able to help this church paint and make there building better.

God bless all

glenda

With Answers come waiting...

Ok all. I have the answer to why I feel the way i do.. As i posted on my last post at least now i know what is wrong.  I just wish we could get it all taken care of soon.. But they can not do anything until we get the infection taken care of. I am on meds to clear that up. However I have already been told that i am looking at two rounds of meds before this will be cleared up.. That means come tuesday i will have another week of meds... and we are praying that with that it will clear up the infection.... From there we will take care of the kidney. Once i am healed from that we will then go in and take care of the syst on my overy.. I am going to talk to my doctor about going ahead and just taking the overy.. He said that they are going to have to go in anyway to scarpe it off.. And that there is a chance that it will come back.. Why not just go ahead and take it.. I am not using it anyway...

Right now i am dealing with the pain.. I have pain meds but i am not taking them unless i have to..They just knock me out...  But oh my is the pain something.. I honestly never knew that your kidney and a syst could make one hurt this bad...

If i stand for too long i end up having to hold on to something and oh my does it hurt. It hurts when i cough , when i sneeze.. Or if i move the wrong way... I have to be careful to not dislodge the kidney stone as it will block my passage. He said then we will be in a life threating issue... Right now I am doing really nothing really other than sleeping.. I am just so tired and beat down..

Tomorrow in the am I will be taking my three oldest children to the church to head off on there Mission trip.. They will be gone for a week.. I am thrilled for them yet at the same time i am sad... I wish i would have been able to go. My two youngest children will be staying here with me to help out with the animals since i can not do that right now.. My youngest daughter will be 15 this coming wednesday.. It is hard to believe that she will be that old.. Oh my where have the years gone to...

Well all I am wiped out.. I am going to go and lay down again. I pray that each of you have had a blessed few days. I will update you all again when i get a chance.

God bless

glenda

I HAVE SOME ANSWERS...

Praise the LORD I have some answers..

The doctor just called.. He got part of the test back from the hospital I have a very large sist (?? spelling) on my left overie. But the big one is I have a extremely large stone in my kidney.. HE said that we have got to get the infection under control and from there I will have to go and have it blasted and from that point he said he hopes that will work. He said that with the size of it he could not tell me that it would work.. I have to be careful not to dislodge the stone. He said that there is NO way that I can pass it... There is also a issue with my tummy that we will have to look at on my next appt... put praise the LORD i have a answer of some sort.

glenda

Waiting....

Ok I know that I can be well how can i say this not the best person  to have to wait.. I honeslty understand that... I had the CT done yesturday. I waited last night to see if i would hear from my doctor and nothing.... Then this morning I called his office and the nurse said that he would call me back as soon as he looked over the results again.. And still nothing... I have heard nothing at all... This waiting is starting to get to me... All i want to hear is that all is well.. Well in a way i do.. If I hear that nothing wrong with that test results then there is more test to do and well I really dont want that.. However at the same time I dont want to hear that there is something bad wrong either.. I know i know i can not have it both ways...  I JUST WANT THIS ALL OVER... I am worn out.. I am tired of being stuck with needles, being shot up with other needles, being pulled this way and that way to get the best picture of this or that.. I just want them to find out what is going on and lets deal with it.... I mean we are talking now a month that i have been sick.. A MONTH..... And before that i was sick on and off since really December...

Please pray that the doctor will call soon with some news. I am going to try to go to church tonight. And well it would ease my mind to at least know something before i went...

I have had to fight with the insurance on these medical bills. I know that they are in the business to make money but lord help all of us.. I mean come on how many times does someone have to call and tell them the same information over and over again.... I finally got told tody that they will pay a % of the bill.. I asked how much and she would not tell me.. I then called the hospital and they said when they get the amount the insurance is going to pay she will call me so i can set up monthly payments... Just in the last week so far I have put out over 60.00 just in meds and doctors fees... I am not sure how much longer i am going to be able to do this...

I pray that you all are doing well.

well Green beans are cooking on the stove for the dinner tonight. Have a blessed day and i will update as soon as i know more.

glenda

Doctor appt today...

Well I went to the doctor again today. They gave me my b12 and then sent me to the hospital for blood work, a test on my  urin, and a  ct on my kidneys, gal balder, balder, and tummy.. I have not got the test results back from the ct yet. It will be in the am. However i did get the results back from my blood work. ALL Numbers are down.. They are LOW... And the Urin test came back and I have a infection that came back to high to count....  So i am now on meds for the infection again, on pain pills, on tummy pills, and iron still... We are waiting on the ct result and the doctor said he will go from there.  I am wiped out...  Bless my doctors heart. He called me back to his office while i was at the hospital after i finished the ct to talk to me about my blood work and urin test... I thanked him to listening to me about how i was feeling and not treating me like I was crazy.. He smiled and said there was NO need to thank him.. And that there is something wrong and that we WILL find out what it is and get me back in shape...  For me I have never been one that went to a doctor unless i had to.. So for me to go to the doctor i have to be sick.. I  MEAN SICK.. But i will be honest  with you.. This doctor has given me a new vision of doctors.. HE is wonderful.. He listens to me. HE takes the time to answer my questions. I am so thankful to God for that..

I want to thank all my friends out there for praying for me.. God is working.. He is good.

god bless

glenda

Email..I thought it was wonderful..

I am not sure who wrote this.. But when i read it well honestly all I could think of is i need this on my blog and on my frig...

Hope it blesses you all...

glenda

LIVE YOUR LIFE IN SUCH A WAY THAT WHEN YOUR FEET HIT THE FLOOR IN THE MORNING, SATAN SHUDDERS AND SAYS " OH NO SHE'S AWAKE".

Canning/ Freeing and a question...

Ok well today is going to be a busy day.. I have not slept but maybe two or three hours in two nights.. Satan is really coming up against me again...  I want to get a few things done here around the little homestead.. It is going to take the children to help me.

So far today i have put up a 1/2 bag of okra this morning. I tell you for us to have such a little row of okra it is really producing..  So right now i have enough okra for a nice big meal, a meal of green beans, squash, and peas..That is just in the freezer. In the pantry we have put up plum jam, plum slices, all kinds of jellies, peaches, dill pickles, and mixed greens.. It is little jars quart/ pint size jars here and there that we are putting up but every jar is another jar of food for the winter time.

We still have pickles to put up today.. And I am going to go outside and pick the beans and anything else that needs to be picked. I would like to put up some more plums slices.

question for you all. Have you ever had a pain in your left side.. That hurts like a sharp pain..  I am going to call my doctor and let him know what is going on and see what he says.. Lord take this away from me.

God bless all

glenda

Satan Loves to Steal...

This is something I have had to learn first hand this past year. Not only me but my children. He will if we allow him still our peace, our health, our children, our animals, you name it he will if we allow him  he will still everything away from us...

For me this has been really on my heart these past few weeks.. It all started when I got sick again.. I was at deaths door. I prayed and prayed to God to help me.. He did he sent a wonderful person in my church that was a nurse.. She knew something was not right with me when she looked at me. She then set up a appoitment with a friend who is a doctor. The next day I was in the hospital. All I could do is lay in a  fetal shape and hold on to my bible. I could not hardly even stay awake.. It was one of those times when your mind is going in all directions and yet there is nothing you can do about anything.. I had to trust in the Lord that one i would live and two that my children would be taken care of..  Satan tried to take my health and honeslty he is still trying but I trust in the one who made me.. His word says that by my stripes you are healed.. That ends it.. I am healed... My body might take a little while to find that healing but it was already promised to me... So that makes it so.. PERIOD...

When i got home from the hospital I was worried about bills.. Again God showed me that he had it all under control to just trust him.. Money was there.. From friends, From people i did not even know.. People who do not want me or any one to know who they are... It has been taken care of.. Food has been taken care.. Everything that Satan would bring to my mind that well how are you going to do this.. Or YOU will never be able to do this.. And you know what he is right. I CAN NEVER.. But God can.. And honestly he has bigger shoulders than i do.. He can hold a whole lot more than i can.. So I have learned to just give it to him.. HE already knows  the out come anyway... He sees the big picture i see the small picture of today... So with that Satan LOST AGAIN...

Then as I was healing as God had promised our animals started dieing for no reason.. NONE.. They would be fine one minute and died the next..  I mean with in a few hours.. Everything from ducks, chickens, rabbits, and then finally the little kittens that were brought to us. We all even me had got so close to those kittens. All but one was doing great. WE were feeding them , takeing great care of them.. And one by one they died.. We had even got them meds from the store.. Everything one could do.. Our hearts were broken.. Again Satan was stealig our joy, something that we all loved.. With each of those animals it was like a piece of our dreams were dieing.. Then it hit me agian it is satan.. He is doing his best to steal our joy, our little homestead. Anything to make us think that God is not for us... So we say it and we went up agaist him..  So Satan LOST AGAIN..

As that was ending then came up my SS #... How in the world did someone like this man get my number.. After going to the layor I have done all  i can do at this point. I will go to the ss office on monday and see about getting a new ss number. Until then i have to just trust in the LORD with this one.. Again Satan tried to steal my peace.. HE LOST AGAIN...

Then last night.. I was not feeling well. I was hurting and well could not sleep all  night. I hurt from my head to my feet. Plus on top of it all my kidneys were hurting again.. And i feel as if i am trying to get a head cold again.. NO GOD SAID THAT BY HIS HIS STRIPES WE (I) am healed.. That is his promise... SATAN WILL NOT WIN.... HE WILL NOT TAKE MY HEALTH.. PERIOD... I have five people in this house that needs me.. I have a life that God wants me to live and I have much yet to do for God in this life.. So sorry SATAN YOU WILL NOT TAKE MY HEALTH.. So i am standing right now with you all to say.. I AM speaking my healing.. I know that God has other plans for me and it does not have anything to do with me being sick..  I am going to be healed and this sickness that Satan keeps putting on me will go away. period.

So Satan does still work here on this earth, He still does his best to steal our peace, our health, our families, our children, our animals, our property, anything that he can to make us not trust in our heavenly father..  It is up to us to stand and say NO I WILL NOT BELIEVE WHAT HE IS SAYING. HE IS A LIER..  I WILL BELIEVE WHAT MY HEAVENLY FATHER SAYS. HE WANTS HIS CHILDREN TO HAVE A LIFE OF PLENTY, A LIFE OF GOODNESS, A LIFE OF HEALTH.. 

God bless

glenda

Theft of socical sercuity number...

Oh boy ok Lord I know you will work this all out but oh boy... Ok all. I got a call today from my youth pastor at church. He asked if i could come to the church that they needed to speak to me.. So at 2 I was off to the church. I get there and long and behold my pastor calls me into his office and lets me know that they did a back ground check on me for working with the youth. They do this to everyone.. Anyway when i filled out the papers i thought no big deal. I mean i have never even had a speeding ticket.. WRONG... Up pops a man in florida that has drug convictions... HE IS USING MY SS#....  so now i have had to call ss office, and all the other people on the list to let them know what is going on. I am going to a layor tomorrow, I have got to go to the police dept tomorrrow and file a report...

OK GOD.. THIS IS ME SPEAKING... PLEASE  I KNOW YOU DO NOT GIVE ANYONE ANYMORE THAN THEY CAN HANDLE BUT COULD YOU PLEASE NOT TRUST ME SO MUCH.... I AM HONESTLY AT MY BREAKING POINT.......

But on the good point. If i would not have done what i felt the lord leading me to do and that was to teach these little girls.. WHO knows what this person could have done to me.... PRAISE GOD  FOR HIS PROTECTION ON THIS....

God bless all

glenda