I haven't really shared that much "personal" information on this blog - ironic, because that's what a blog really is - but I'm somewhat a personal person. I usually like to know with whom I'm sharing before I start.
But I'm making an exception today and coveting your prayers.
I'm in pain. Don't mean to be a whiner, but it's really starting to wear on me. My left hip started hurting - only occasionally at first - about 15 months ago. I went to an OB at the suggestion of my homebirth midwife, since I had delivered our daughter just three months prior. He gave me Advil and sent me along with the unspoken message of "if you had used a REAL doctor, this wouldn't have happend." I was annoyed. But worse, I was hurting. And Advil didn't help.
I coped with the pain through the summer and fall, and when we moved to Indiana, now 9 months of hurting later, the pain was often and often severe. I went back to a doctor, who ordered a series of blood tests, searching for a hormonal cause. They all came back negative. He offered to put me on high dose birth control pills, which I refused on moral and physical grounds, but moreover, on the grounds of "simply bad medicine" -- since when is "hey, ya never know, it might help!" a reason to prescribe something with such awful potential side effects, nevermind its abortifacient properties?
I began herbal treatments, which also availed no relief.
What was wrong with me???
Finally, last week, simply unable to walk, I begged for another appointment and, got the on-call doctor. That was a blessing - she immediately ordered a series of x-rays and some blood work. They believe that I am in the early stages of avascular necrosis. For some unknown reason, the ball of my hip joint is simply dying and collapsing. This causes severe pain and often cannot be stopped....except by a total hip replacement.
I saw a specialist yesterday and have a full MRI on Thursday morning to confirm this prognosis...or to see if it is spinal trouble instead of- or in addition to - the hip pain. They took spinal x-rays yesterday, and the doctor beileves there may be trouble there, also.
But there is more cause for my prayer request than this. They have told me that these conditions are extremely rare for a healthy person under thirty (which I am) - and so they are testing for a number of affecting conditions, including lupus and cancer. My first thoughts are of my children, that I would be here and healthy as they grow, and that the Lord would see fit to bless us with more. It is already difficult to keep my home, and chase my energetic 18 month old sweetie.I don't want to run a marathon...I just want to be normal again.
My God is the God Most High. He can heal me if He chooses, and if He does not, I will seek His strength as I walk the path He has laid for me.
"I know that you can do all things;
no plan of yours can be thwarted.
You asked, 'Who is this that obscures my counsel without knowledge?'
Surely I spoke of things I did not understand,
things too wonderful for me to know.
"You said, 'Listen now, and I will speak;
I will question you,
and you shall answer me.'
My ears had heard of you
but now my eyes have seen you.
Therefore I despise myself
and repent in dust and ashes."
Job 42:2-6
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Posted by TChannel4 God Bless,
Tammy
Edited by TChannel4 on April 18, 2006 at 5:04 PM
Posted by SatyBeth I know you probably have tons of people advising you what to do, but I thought I would share this with you. I had Lyme's Disease for several years, and by the time they found what it was I had severe arthritis and disentegrated joints in my mid-teens.
One thing, and one thing only, has helped me not just with the pain, but has actually sent my joints almost back to normal. A grape-seed extract called OPC's (the name is too complicated to spell here..), it has supposedly been used with great effect on diabetics with dying nerves, people with disappearing joints and things like that. I don't remember all the details of how it works, but it was the turning point for me. If you want more information, I'm sure I can find some. I know there are a million "remedies" out there and they all have someone they worked for. But it can't hurt ot let you know.
Edited by SatyBeth on April 18, 2006 at 5:05 PM
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Posted by gardengate2 Posted by Anonymous Blessings and prayers,
Sharon Farino
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Posted by Renee It was so nice to see that you had updated you blog.
I will keep you in my prayers about your hip. God is such a Big God and he can heal this if it is his will. He gives us trial's to make us stronger. He never gives us more than we can handle. I pray that God gives you grace during this time. I pray that you feel God's love wrapped around you giving you all the love he has for you and your family.
I will be praying for you MRI on Thursday. Just stay in Gods wonderful word.
Love and prayer's,
Renee
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Posted by YPAmy5 Psalm 27:1
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Posted by Toddlerseverywhere Bless you,
Tracy
Posted by Anonymous We have a friend in his 40s who we think was diagnosed with avascular necrosis - in a knee. His bone was dying due to lack of blood flow. He has controlled the problem by eating cayenne pepper and raw milk. The cayenne pepper especially seemed to help. At one point he was on crutches and had a handicap parking permit. Might be worth a try. You are probably getting lots of conflicting advice, so I hesitate to make any suggestions.
In the final analysis only God heals. So we will pray.
Jim V