Yesterday, I had a horrible day. It all started with waking up. Yes, as unusual as it sounds, I woke up angry and have no clue why. I wasn't angry at anyone in my house, and I wasn't angry with anyone about anything , really... I just woke in an angry mood. In all my life I can't remember this ever happening before. It is weird.

   So I was pretty much angry for the rest of the day. Everything everyone did ticked me off. I tried not to take my angrer out on anyone. When I saw I was i removed myself from the situation. Afterall, it wasn't their fault I was in a bad mood.

   The more I started thinking about this last night, the more I started to realize that I am just overwhlemed. I have had someone at my house everyday for the last 3 1/2 weeks. I have a strict schedule I try to keep my kids on and it has been thrown out the window. The couple doesn't leave till about 9 at night or 9:30 and by this time I am usually getting myself into bed. But it is all out the window.

   I try to be supportive. I try to lend my ear. I try to help where I can... but I need some space. I know this may sound horrible and I feel so guilty just writing this but... I'm tired of hearing about everyone elses problems... I'm tired of trying to solve everyone else's problems.

   I have my own problems. I have put my problems on hold just for everyone else, but I can't do it any longer. We are suppose to move in 10 months. I have to figure out the whole money situation and how I am going o get our belongings to Alaska. I need to start focusing on packing up the rest of my house and getting rid of junk. I need to focus on planning our school. I need to focus on my family and house... am I being selfish? I feel I am having a hard time here.

   I do believe this is why I woke up angry. Today I feel better. I just have a headache. I feel horrible saying all of that... I should be more Christian and do what Jesus would do. My problems aren't nearly as bad as everyone else's... I just wish I could step back and relax for a moment.