Starfish Dreams

Grateful today

Saturday, 6 October 2007

Do you know, God is good? We have lived through so many months of hell, truly, that it has been hard for me to see His hand in our lives. I have always known He is there, have continued to pray, to fast, to go to church, but the day-to-day struggles have been so enormous. Truth is, we're still in 'em – but something is changing in me. I wonder if it might be permanent? I would sure love that – and so would my family. . .

I am grateful that this sweet baby has joined our home. As tired as I am, I don't begrudge our time together in the middle of the night. It is a sweet, tender time, especially now that she is getting happier – she smiles, she coos and ever-so-rarely, she laughs. I adore her sweet self – and am very aware that our time with her is limited. It makes each minute, each day SO precious, because we just don't know. She may “stick around” as long as Lizzie – 17 years – but chances are good she won't stay that long. We adopted her knowing this, but it hurts my heart so much to think of her leaving us. Because of that, I think, I am all the more grateful for ALL the time I have with her, even in the middle of the night...

DH is likely getting laid off in about a week and a half.  He is interviewing this coming week with a company that has offices here AND just outside Kansas City. I could hardly sleep at all last night, after I found that out. It feels like one of the final pieces of the puzzle – I can finally see possible fulfillment of the promised blessings of “better than you can imagine” and “blessed beyond what you can imagine”. We SO need to get to Missouri and to “our” land. We live in an area infected with “affluenza” - we need to remove ourselves from that sickness. Our children's lives need to be more blessed by hard work. We need to be as self-sufficient and self-sustaining as possible. And we need to do it now. 

I am grateful today - praise be to God. :)

God is good!

19:31, Tuesday, October 9, 2007 .. Posted by blessedmomof10

Holly ~

I am relieved to hear that your dd will be able to live with family... I hope that this brings her to the road of healing..... I know you have gone to h-e-l-l and back this year........ remember dear that the trials we have are more precious than gold ~ for they refine us and bring us exactly where the Lord can begin to work with us! Oh, how difficult that is to walk thru!
I hope that you begin to see some of those "promise blessings" .... especially the part about missouri...... you know we are hoping & praying you will soon be our neighbors! :)

Blessings,
gloria