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Difficult Task- Making a proposed schedule a reality!
{ 03:46, Wednesday, October 31, 2007 }
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   I feel like I am a prisoner of my own mind right now. I have all these grand ideas about the prefect homeschool, homestead, family life...and I'm really questioning how much I really want it. What keeps me from accomplishing my goals. Are my expectations too great? Am I too selfish...I know that having the life I want here will require me to truly lay my life down. Do I really want what I say I want. If I want it, I would expect that I would be behaving my way to success. Right now I feel as though I am sitting here watching my days pass me by. I shudder to imagine the consequences my children are experiencing- knowing that I am not giving them my best each day. YUK. Of course many details of where I am at are missing from this scattered expression. I think the silver lining is going to be that for the first time in a long while I am driven to my knees knowing that I can not do...well, much of anything when God's hands aren't in my plans. We can carry on quite successfully on our own...relying on our own ability and "power"(...ha...ha, what power) FOR A SHORT TIME...but inevitably things will fall apart. You would think I would learn after a few rounds of this behavior...but no, I keep falling on my face...which is where I need to be right now. I have no interest in folding one basket of laundry, baking one loaf of bread, teaching one day of seat work...without God's stamp of approval on it. SO- it is time to stop being busy, stop all of the noise of life that is preventing me from hearing what the Father of the universe has planned for my day. My schedules will fail every time so Lord, please light my path and show me what is important and what is not! Amen. { Post a Comment } { Last Page } { Page 1 of 28 } { Next Page } |
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