Coastal Reflections

An emotional day

 I drove all the way to the doctor's office this morning for ds2's well-child visit (plus the nurse had told me last week to keep the appointment since they would want to see him again from being sick last week).  My fears from yesterday were confirmed - even though I scheduled the appointment 2 months ago when he was there for his 4-month well-child, they didn't enter it into the system.  Even though we were there already, they couldn't squeeze him in so we have to go back next Monday.  So frustrating!  I'm irked because I had to wake him up to nurse him, get ready, and go.  Poor thing could have gotten some more much needed sleep this morning.  I'm also frustrated with gas prices what they are and I made a wasted trip (20 miles round trip - I realize it could have been worse).

On the way back home, the tears started to flow.  I think the frustration along with thinking about welcoming ds2 into the world six months ago today was all a little too much for me emotionally.  I looked in the mirror at ds1 and the tears started flowing harder.  He wished and prayed for a little brother for so long (he wanted a little brother named David - ds2's name does start with a D, but it's not David).  I started thinking about when we moved to this homestead just a little over 2 years ago and ds1 really started talking about wanting a little brother all the time.  I hated to plant any false expectations into his head so I just told him to pray about it and if the Lord wanted us to have a baby He would make sure it happened.  You see, dh and I did not intend to have any more children.  It's not that we didn't want more, but to keep a long story short I'll just say that my body isn't made for having babies (praise the Lord for modern technology, c-sections, and anesthesia).  I had a very rough pregnancy with ds1 and an even worse delivery.  The surgery and fact that I had to have general anesthesia really shook dh up and he said I would never go through that again.  He was happy with having just one child and that was that.  Fast forward to last year....... Dh came home one evening and said we had to talk.  I was scared to death - I thought he'd lost his job or something.  Turns out he'd been having dreams all week that we had another baby and he felt it was the Lord telling him that's what we were to do.  I hadn't shared with dh, but I'd had a few things happen to me that week as well (too complicated to explain) that I felt was the Lord telling me we were going to have another baby, but I dismissed it.  Never dismiss the Lord speaking to you!  So, six months ago we welcomed miracle #2 into our lives and ds1's prayers were answered.

Hey!

12:42, 2006-Jun-26 .. Posted by MrsBurns

I hate it when I make a wasted trip, so I feel your pain. Don't let it get you too down, though. Our farm is north of Dalton, south of Chatt, about 90 miles from Marietta. I haven't been to that organic farm in Ranger, but we've met the people who own and run it, the Swancy's. They sell here in Atlanta at the two big markets intown. They have a piece of heavy equipment my husband is quite envious of, too!

I think south Georgia property is more affordable than north GA property, and then you'd have the advantage of an earlier and longer growing season. Might be something for your husband to consider.

Hope the rest of your day is good and that little one gets some rest.

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04:42, 2006-Jun-26 .. Posted by Carol

Awe sweetie, I so remember the day your dh had that talk with you and I so remember the day your little miracle was born. What a blessing. I'm sorry your appointment wasn't made properly.
Hugs
~carol