I am just sitting her thinking.. I am so blessed and sometimes I just get caught up in the well that is just the way it is that I forget that I am blessed.. I was talking to my kids who called from their dad's earlier and I tell you I had already been thinking about how much I miss them.. My kids are my life and I love them so very much.. I used to never leave my kids for any reason other than a hospital stay or something urgent and then for only a short amount of time, but in the last year they have been gone over the weekends everyother weekend to visit with their dad, but this has been a long stretch of time for us to be apart, they left Christmas Eve night at 10 pm and I have talked to them often, but I know that they are ready to come home to mommy and mommy is ready, but they are not due home till Wednesday although I may get them tomorrow while their dad is at work for a bit.. My 10 year old was crying earlier and she is a real homebody and wants to come home and I just wanted to cry... I love my babies.. I guess my oldest son usually goes to poppas for the weekends and helps on the farm and has since he was a little tyke.. He is a good boy. He will be 15 in August..

I think sometimes as parents we forget to be thankful for these gifts He has given us and to be thankful for all the moments we have with them to love them, nurture them, teach them and all those moments to cuddle with them and all the things mommies do.. I feel like it was just yesterday they were all young little tykes and my oldest will be in high school next year.. He still comes up to his mommy and hugs me and says I love you mommy.. I have told my kids since they were little bitty that I never wanted them to be to old or cool to hug their mom and say I love you because they just never knew how much that would mean to their mommy.. 

I have lots of kids call me mom, but 5 who call me mommy and to me that is my term of enderment from them.. They are wonderful kids and I love them each and I am proud of them each..

I have 5 wonderful step children that are mine too I am mom to them and will not ever be mommy, but that is ok fine with me they have a mommy who loves them and is to be their mommy.. It is up to thier mommy's to be that to them..

Sorry I am being sappy tonight.. I miss my kids.. I have had 3 of my other kids here all week, but I just miss mine.. and talking to them makes it worse on old mommie dearest.. So hold your kids tight, hug them and kiss them.. Let them know you love them and support and respect them. They need you...

These kids are the reason I am a stay at home mommy and love it.. I love being here when they need me, want me, and even when they wish I wasn't sometimes I believe that I am investing in my children's future and that is my talent and gift from God to use at this time.....

Ok I am off for now.. I love you my kids.. God Bless you and Good Night my kiddos..

God Bless,

Mars