Good evening again everyone. How are ya'll doing? I am doing wonderful.. I want to talk just for a minute about something that is on my mind and heart and I think I might feel better if I can get it out.

You know I know that in the Bible it talks about everything having a season and etc and I understand that, however what I have trouble with is friends who have been friends for a very longtime, friends whom you have come to love and respect. I know that people are going to let us down and hurt us. I know that people most often are not out to hurt us on purpose. I do however think that some people get very caught up in their own thoughts and feelings of how things should be and go and they forget about LIFE.. I feel like the get an idea in their head and  if you do not see eye to eye with them then you are wrong.

Don't get me wrong I have made some big mistakes in my life and especially in the past couple of years. They are my mistakes and I must take the ramifications from these mistakes. I made choices that may not have been the wisest choices for me to make, however some of the choices I made I feel like have saved my life. I do not fear for my life like I used to. I have a husband who wants to stand up and defend me and my honor, who does not tear me down and tear me down and hurt me not just in physical ways, but mentally I was so broken that I thought there was not a light at the end of the tunnel, but because I chose to get out of a situation that was bad for not only me, but my children I have been talked about, judged, treat like a common crimminal, ignored and talked about behind my back. I was wrong to leave. I do not condone divorce, but I feel like in my case it was a life and death situation and I chose life.

I am however struggling with the fact that the ones who were once my near adn dear friends, my mentor the one I looked to for help, love and Godly wisdom are the ones who have let me down who think I am terrible wrong and refuse to forgive me and to at least agree to be nice to one another.. I should have known it was going to happen, but I really thought that the one person who would not let me down DID... I am praying about the situation and I ask that you too pray for the situation. I know we all make mistakes are mine any worse than anyone else's?? i think not. I had to learn a hard lesson and learn to trust and remember that God is the only friend I have who will not turn His back on me and let me down..

Sorry for just ramblin on I have a heavy heart due to this rift in a relationship with a dear friend whom will not even come to me and talk with me about anything would rather act as though I do not exist.. Please pray that God works in this situation..

BTW let me just say GOD BLESS AMY JO.. She has been my best friend for something over 20 years and we know that we might not always agree, but if we need each other we know we know how to get ahold of one another and talk and listen to one another and it is wonderful. Thank you AMYSUELOUJOBURGESSDEMISHTHRASHER I LOVE YOU GIRL............................. Amy Jo went to Kokomo and bought a hobo who was a little weirdo.. OK sorry I was trying to be funny.. I know Amy is thinking you weirdo be quiet already.. Well Amy Jo if you are up and reading this before I call you in the morning you call me.. I will stop and see you on my way to the dr if you want me to...

Good Night and God Bless