Maybe not hair pulling, but only because I CHOOSE to use great restraint and not pull my hair out. 

I had a great day yesterday.   I refuse not to!  I  used 7 gallons of milk on cheese products.  I made cottage cheese using 3 gallons and Gouda using 4.  The cottage has to flavor until after chores.  Oh, forgot I have yogurt making to, so make that 8 gallons, but the yogurt will have to go in the frig this morning.   I will keep everyone posted on the cottage cheese.   It is so fun to see the cheese take shape in the mold.  I have several nice size pieces now.  I can't wait to have the new frig/freezer where I can store more. 

Yesterday it took me half the day to post on here but finally got it posted.  I had it ready to post, and the computer ate it once.   Since I post in spurts, and the early morning spurts are longer than mid day spurts it took a while.   I didn't even get too frustrated at it getting ate.

I really don't see how those of you with one child keep your sanity.  I have three, that is easy.  Yesterday I had one writing sentences, one writing why she made the choices she had and one.... driving me nuts!!!!!!!! He has no clue how to entertain himself.   He is the oldest.  What is so funny is when we got them he had no clue how to interact with them.  How how times have changed!  

T is busy writing sentences about how rude it is to snoop in other peoples belongings, followed by sentences about telling the truth the first time you are ask.   She piddled with them throughout the day, so she isn't through.  She could have been done long ago, but she keeps getting distracted.  

MN decided to do chores her way again yesterday.  It wouldn't be a big deal if it wasn't a power struggle.  It is and I don't play by her rules.  She was busted!   She has lost a bunch of privileges and hasn't decided to stop digging yet.  Her choice.  Once she decides to stop digging then she is going to have to talk serious about the why on what she did, not what she did but why she did it.  She won't like that.  It is painful to look at cycles of choices. She will also have to answer for talking disrespectful to me over it.  For now she is busted to the downstairs bedroom and zero privileges.  We will see what today brings. 

I had planned to go to town today and do the auction, buy some stuff for the camper and just shop.  Celebrate school being done.  But, school for MN and T isn't done.  They had consequences to do yesterday instead.  I guess though it breaks my heart, (NOT!) we will just stay home today.  Maybe I will make another batch of cheese.  I need to make bread too.  My last batch flopped.  

Last night the cows didn't want to come in.  I didn't feel like send out search and rescue so I said oh well!   Their loss!  No feed!   Cheaper for me!   I will bet they are waiting at the gate this morning.   I won't get as much milk.  Calves will be really FULL.   I have one cow that doesn't have a baby.  Usually I put a baby on her of an evening.  So she will be in pain.   Can you tell it really bothers me.  I have 8-10 gallons of milk in the frig.  After using 8, and sending 2 to town this morning.  Maybe I am down to 6 or so.  Adding 3-5 gallons this morning instead of 4-6 will be a nice change.

I guess I will take the whey and cook rice again in it.  I planned on doing that yesterday, but forgot when I got to that stage so dogs got it.  Anyone ever cook brown rice in the slow cooker?  How long does it take?   I may try it.  I hate watching rice or planning on brown rice since it takes so long to cook.  I usually forget I need it until the last moment.   We love rice.  Last time I cooked some it got ate like desert around here.  Add a little honey and butter and kids thought they were getting a treat.  I know strange kids!

Attitude seems much improved today.  Maybe she is ready to look at what she did and the underlying reasons.  For those in the adoption world you will understand when I say this child is recovering from RAD (Reactive Attachment Disorder).    She has come so far.  She seldom goes on "power trips".  When she does she gets the rug jerked out from under her rather abruptly.   I refuse to give her power.  Power for her is me getting mad, or loosing it and yelling or her sneaking something by.   She will tell you she gets very little power from me.  It has been very confusing to her.  This was all she knew.  Slowly she has learned that she can have power from good choices.  She doesn't have to make people mad and manipulate situations to have power.  Then we have a day we revert back.  My guess is when I get to the bottom of this it will have to do with thoughts of us adopting again.  She wants to heal and has worked really hard to heal.  I am very proud of her.  I know that days like this will happen and the fact they happen much less often and with much less spiraling downward are all testimonies to how hard she has worked to change and be a little girl, something she didn't get to be before.

Plans for today???? Not sure yet.  Have more coffee!  From there I will let the Lord lead.  I should do laundry.  I should clean house.  What will I do?   I have no clue yet! 

Everyone have a blessed day!  Go out and bless someone else today!