God gave me a question last night.  I have pondered it ever since.  "What do you want from Me?"  Hummm.......  What do I want from God?   Think about it some.  I mean really think.  What do we want from God?  I want a relationship.  What is a relationship?  I looked it up in the dictionary.  Relationship: an emotional or other connection between people: the relationship between teachers and students. This is what I want with God an emotional connection.  He is the teacher I am the student.   At the same time I want a deeper relationship than what we think of as a teacher and student.  Maybe that relationship is more of the parent/child relationship.  He is our heavenly Father.  We are His children.  As I allow my thoughts to go in this direction I think of the relationship I had with my mom.  She was a very special lady. I miss her every day.  Our relationship at times was stressed, but as we both grew and matured, OK I matured, we developed an awesome relationship.    I know I can have an even deeper relationship with God.  I just have to want it and strive toward it.  

The other word that comes to mind and it is an offshoot of relationship is fellowship.  Fellowship:friendly relationship; companionship: the fellowship of father and son.   When I search my heart for what fellowship is I come back again to my mom.    Each afternoon she opened her door to friends and family.  We all gathered at her kitchen table.  We drank POTS of coffee and what ever food there was to have.  Snacks, left overs, or just coffee and conversation.  Everyone was welcome, all ages.  The babies set in the adults laps, they soon learned who drank coffee with sugar and who didn't.  :)   As they grew they would go play and come back for more adult time.  We visited and shared and cried and laughed daily. Some days one or two people would show up about 4 pm.  Some days she would have 20 people crowded around her kitchen table.  We came not for what she could do for us, but for fellowship, companionship, relationship.  This is what I see God wanting from me.  To come and just hang out with Him.  To not come only in need, but to come for the fellowship.  To come because it is where you want to be, who you want to spend time with.  I want to set at God's kitchen table!!!!!!!!!!!!  I want to spend time just being with Him.  I want more than my hand out for what He can do for me, in my life.  I want to just hang out with Him, and the others that are gathered at His kitchen table. 

Now my question for God is, "How do I achieve this?  How do I find the level of fellowship that surrounded my mom's kitchen table with You?" 

As I ponder this here are the answers that come to mind.  

Talking to God not once a day but throughout the day.  Think of Him as your friend you want to share with.  Where you would pick up the phone and call your friend, lift up your heart to heaven and share with God.  

As I fellowship with others that are like minded I am fellowshipping with God.  He dwells in the hearts of those that seek Him. 

When I open my heart to others and spread God's love I again am drawn near to Him. 

I guess that is my deep ramblings for today.  If anyone has any more ideas on ways to spend time at God's kitchen table or other commits that would help me grow please leave them.