The sun is thinking about coming up.  Right now God is painting a picture in pinks and purples.   I love sunrises!   My window doesn't face East, but South.  I can just see a little of the sunrise when it is bathed in mulicolored clouds like this morning.  

God got me up extra early this morning.  My dh didn't turn his alarm off correctly at 5, so in 7 minutes while he was in the shower and couldn't hear it ..beep beep beep.   I do such a good job of turning it off when this happens.  Some times he has to reprogram it!   I just start pushing buttons and switches.  Finally it hushes.  Of course by then I am wide awake.  I tried to snuggle back down but it was no use.   I did get to do my quite time totally without children helping me be quite though.

I had a lot to talk to God about.  Last night we found out W. said no to being adopted by us.   He wants contact with us, but isn't comfortable moving to Texas.  I'm not sure if this is God shutting the door, or not.   Our prayer has been if it isn't what God wants He will shut the door.   This young man is saying he loved our family, loved the animals, but was uncomfortable with the idea of homeschooling, and living so far out in the country.  Yet, he would like to keep in contact with us.   I will talk to the adoption worker today.  See what her take is.  I don't feel that it was handled well on his end.  His case worker called him on the phone and got his answer.  To me this was important enough that he deserved a face to face meeting.  A meeting where they talked about options and ideas and what saying yes meant and what saying no means.  The chances of someone else wanting to adopt a 14 yo boy are slim and each year get slimmer.   No matter how good the kid is!   That is a cold hard truth that breaks my heart!.   I really think his case worker thought he would say yes.   That is why she didn't give it the attention she needed to.  That and being way over worked!   Oh well, not my call! 

A part of me wants to continue to hope.  A part of me feels we have wasted 4 months in our adoption search.   Is that the flesh part?   I will start looking again and driving adoption workers crazy.   I am the squeaky wheel!  You would think we would have adoption workers beating down our door.  We want the hardest to place age kids.  13+.  Yet we have to be very picky about which children because of younger kids in the home and animals.   I do know the right child is out there.  Just finding him/her.  

Today my plans are to accomplish stuff around here.  I need to do some house work.  I need to finish my laundry.  My DIL beat me to the washer yesterday so I didn't get it done.   I woke up with a stuffy head.  I am hoping it goes away.  I don't want to be taking more cold as I am just starting to feel better from the last one. 

Hope everyone has a blessed day!