What a week!   I see God moving in my family in many ways.  Some ways are quite painful, others are so wonderful you just want to stop and stay right there, even though He says keep moving. 

The painful part is one of my children has reached a level of safety where she can cry out about abuse that was unknown from her bio home.  This is quite painful, not just for her, but for me.  The therapist ask her yesterday why she decided to tell.  In her so mature voice, (she's 10), she explained, "I ask myself why I still feel yucky inside.  Then I remembered."  So she came forth and told.  Not as simple or easy as that, but with tears and struggling to find the right words.  God IS healing her from her life of abuse!  It is just painful to get all those heart splinters out.  Heart splinters at our house are memories that need to be looked and talked about or they fester and cause long term pain and ruin relationships.  Please keep all the kids in prayer as they have to face and revisit and tell this to strangers, (CPS).  

Another area that I see God working is in this adoption.  Yesterday I was feeling rather down.  Most of those on my adoption board that have adopted older boys had horror stories to share, all these reason why not to adopt.   I have had one person on there tell me she feels it will work.  That's not even on the board but off.  I was feeling very confused and sad.  I ask myself "Doesn't anyone have a good adoption story about a teen boy?"   When I got in the truck to start to town I had it on the Christian Radio Station.  The show on was Family Life Today.  Guess what they were talking about?  Yep adoption!  not only Adoption but adopting two older boys!   You can go to Family Life today and hear the whole message.  There are 3 parts.  http://www.familylife.com/fltoday/default.asp?id=9571&past=1  Have you ever had a God moment when you KNOW He is showing you something?  He is THERE?   I felt/had not even sure the right word, goosebumps/tingling all over.  As I listened I cried! The tears just ran down my face.  I so wanted to pull over to the side of the road and just soak it up.  I didn't I just soaked it up and listened and praised Him for answering my prayer. My prayer that wasn't even a true prayer just a cry for some one to have a positive experience adopting an older boy.   After I got home one of the women on my board that had been very negative about us adopting an older child had left me a message that was also much more positive.  Will we adopt W?  That's still in God's hands.  He is in charge.  Our prayer is He will close the door if W. isn't the right child.  We will be sad but know that God's will was done.  Doesn't mean I can't still pray for him either!   Our goal and struggle is to be obedient and follow God.  Does anyone here have any positive stories of adopting older boys? 

On the farm front things are going well.  The goats seem to be doing better at being mamas.  The ones in the barn are being weeded out.  Those that are to weak or had something wrong are dying, which sounds sad, but is the way of nature.  I refuse to count them as it is always changing.  We have between 20-30.