It is starting to warm up.  It was 35 now it is 38.  I have 45 minutes before I have to brave the cold cold world.    My day is starting "off" as I didn't get the cow separated from her calf last night.  I had problems in the goat pen, problems with my 2 legged kids and didn't get out to do babies in the barn and milk until after dark.  Cows had given up on me and left.  I didn't have the energy to go find them. So I will be short of milk.  Not for the babies and for us but for a friend that wanted some on Friday.  Such is life!  

My 21 yo ask me last night if I needed anything.  I said a clone.  He said he wanted one so he could stay home and the clone go to work.  I wanted one so I could clean house, check goats, feed babies, teach school, milk cows, work in the garden, sew and spend quality time with my kids.  Hummmm maybe I need several clones.  The bottom line is not all of this gets done.... ever!   Some gets done every day.  Some when life is slow. 

I decided yesterday that my little one isn't ready for Switched on Schoolhouse.  She just has way to much time playing with the mouse and not using her brain.  She was using blocks to build 4+6.  I printed out 100 addition facts and 100 subtraction facts.  Gave her an hour to do them in.  She finished way before then.  Anyone want to guess how many facts she missed out of 200 problems?   4!!!! 7+4 four times!  I just ask her it and she said it as fast as I ask.  I had her go outside and do jumping jacks to the tune of 7 + 4= 11 for a few jumps.  I am printing her off school work today.  I will be praying and deciding what school work to use with her in the next few days.

Yesterday was an interesting day in the goat pen!   I had several new babies.  One big boer nanny kidded nice kids, they wouldn't stand up.  She was pawing them to death.  I finally had the kids go get them.  She followed so I had them take her to the barn and bring the kids to the house.  They sucked a bottle well so I fed them twice.  It was 4 hours before they stood up.  I took them to her in the barn when we did chores.  She still loved them and both nursed well.   I had another nanny that was HUGE kid. We had been watching and taking bets on how many.  I think she had one.  If she had more she walked away from them.  She had big teats so she couldn't feed that one.  To the barn she came.  This is a 200 lb goat!  I think I fed about 5 littles on her last night.   Maybe she can feed baby for me.  She wasn't crazy or wild just BIG.  I found a halter this morning for her.  That will make life easier for me.

Today my plans are just to get the basics done.  Not a lot of extra going on.  I am still trying to figure where the week has gone.  It is Wed. already!   If everyone helps with chores and does their part then it shouldn't be a bad day in the barn.  We have several new babies to give shots to.  Kids LOVE that.  They get to catch the new babies and see what sex they are and how pretty they are.  For some reason they are all pretty. 

No news on W.  I don't like waiting.  I don't even know if he wants this to go fwd yet!  I hope to know that Monday.  I have struggled with lots of negative stuff on my adoption board from some and positive from a few.   I guess my frustration is that I have talked about adopting older for a year.  Then when it starts looking like it is happening I am getting a lot of negative stuff.  I do know there are risk. I am not going into this with dark rose colored glasses, maybe lightly colored.   I also know I serve a God bigger than problems.  He has put adopting an older child on our heart.  We have prayed and looked for a year.  Before we did the train ride we prayed and ask God to show us the child if the child was on the train.  Only kid that really caught our attention was this jr. gang-banger-want-to-be.    If God brings this to pass He will see us through.   I have peace about this then I get on the adoption board and worry.  I know worry isn't from God.  I know fear isn't from God.  I pray about this and all I hear is "Trust Me."  I have to let go and trust!  Dh is very on board with W.  More from God that I need to stop the worry.  If my dh is on board I need to support him and trust him also.  Yesterday I was questioning kids in depth about W.  They liked him.  They don't see the issues the Foster mom talked about.   One of the ladies on the adoption board did peg the foster home.  I hadn't thought of it.  She said it is a warehouse.    I told dh that and he said yep, he already new that.  I know some foster families can have large numbers of kids and care for them and guide them and help them grow and heal.  I don't see that in talking to her.  I so want to give her the benefit of the doubt.  I had issues before W ever came that the adoption worker planted.  Guess in part I do have rose colored glasses.  I want foster families to be in it to help the kids not see how many they can stack in their and collect money on.   Makes me sad! and MAD!  I will get off my soap box about foster care now.   There are some awesome families out there.  I just don't seem to experience it first hand. 

Chore time!  Temp seems to be stuck on 38.  Guess I better go find some socks to wear this morning.