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Weary Tonight...

It's been one of "those" days.... one of those I'm-REALLY-not-a-very-good-mommy days.  At first, I felt frustrated because I had to micro-manage my three tornadoes all day, then I let loose all my frustrations in a few sessions of angry words.  That led to first of all glazed-over "here we go again" looks then tears from my oldest.  I just have to sigh after days like this and then pray (AGAIN!) for wisdom and patience to deal with each situation.

My oldest (7 years old) daughter is a puzzle to me.  She's very... spacey and doesn't seem to realize there is a world around her.  She's smart, and does very well with school.  But she does such crazy things, I sometimes worry about her.  "I didn't mean to" comes from her mouth dozens of times a day.  I try to patiently tell her, "Yes, I know... but you need to try to mean NOT to."  She's like a little bit of vinegar poured on baking soda... she does that to a room.  She enters and the energy level goes up instantly.  She seems to have little impulse control.  Does things without thinking.  She is very social, but isn't aware of almost walking into people.  Opens oven doors into her sister, standing right next to her and then says she didn't see her.  Dumps a dirty plate of crumbs into the sink, but didn't "realize" there was a strainer full of noodles there. 

For her own safety, I feel like I have to get through to her that she has to be AWARE of what is going on around her, and yet... I wonder if it's something she somehow can't help on her own when the scolding and frustration only seems to make her more upset.  Maybe I'm expecting too much from my oldest child, a common mistake I know.  But I look forward to giving her more responsibility as she can handle it (and she does too), and when she seems to be at the same ability level in that area as her 5 year old sister, I wonder why that is.   I want to treat her as the older child, but often, I know it's "safer" to let the 5 year old do a task! 

Ahhh... I do know it will be ok.  Tomorrow is another day. 

~Michelle

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09:03, Friday, January 18, 2008 .. Posted by blessedmomof10

Thank goodness tomorrow is "fresh" with no mistakes!! My favorite line from Anne of Green Gables..... we all have tough days michelle! You are truly not alone! :) Thank goodness little kids are sooooo forgiving! And I too have a child who has little impulse control..... drives me batty!!! :)

Blessings~~
gloria