Our family was together for almost two weeks.  It was the most wonderful time I've enjoyed in a long time.  Hubby was home at night, to play games and help with the evening routine.  The boys all slept in the same room together (DS11 gave up his own room for the fun of being with his brothers at bedtime!) and overall, really got along well and argued very little.  I didn't have to get up and go to work every morning, and the boys didn't have to get hustled off to school.  We spent lots of quality time together, just BEING together! 

What I realized, as vacation approached its end, was that I didn't want to go back to work.  I like my job, but I don't like having to have a job, if that makes sense.  I miss being home and having this be my primary responsibility.  I realized that I didn't want to send the boys back to school.  I wanted them home!  They didn't want to go back, either, but we agreed at the beginning of the year that what we started, we'd finish, for as long as we're in this house or until the school year ends, whichever comes first.  I realized that I am really longing for this change in our lives that we've been seeking for so long now. 

I don't pretend to think that our move to a camp environment will suddenly make everything perfect and our problems will be over.  But I realize more than ever that it's the exact fit for our family in terms of lifestyle.  DH will be doing something he really loves doing, and he will be home at night on a regular basis.  I will be able to stay home with the boys and home school them again.  Yes, I'll have things to help out with at the camp, but so will the boys, so it really becomes a whole-family ministry. 

I have been VERY discouraged lately, to the point of feeling like taking the house off the market for another year and basically just giving up for now.  Then I realized, we're probably very close to something happening, and satan is trying to throw me off track.  Every time I get that cozy feeling about being here and our life as it is (despite wanting that change!....go figure), I am reminded of Brandon Heath's song, "Don't Get Comfortable."  It's been just about a year now since the Lord allowed me to hear that song and really impressed its lyrics on my heart. 

And so we wait....