I'm not having a very good week with regards to the house and moving.  Satan is trying to steal my joy and peace and I don't feel very strong right now.  I've been praying for the Lord to restore the peace I found at my retreat.  It's funny, too, one of the gals did a song from Steven Curtis Chapman called "The Mountain," about those great mountaintop experiences we have - but we can't stay there and need to take what we've learned and bring it down into the valleys.  I'm in a deep, dark valley right now.  The retreat was my mountaintop!  I just keep wondering why, WHY, do these things have to be so long and drawn-out for me?  I understand learning from the waiting, and everything having a purpose, but EVERY time I go through something???  It's getting old.  I'm oh so tired.  I'm mentally and emotionally exhausted.  A year ago I was struggling with the camp search.  Now I don't even really care where we end up, just as long as we get closure to all this soon!  I can't even make any plans for 2008 because I have NO idea where we'll be!  I feel like my entire life is on hold.