So I am quickly learning that the plans that the Lord has for our life is not necessarily the plans I have laid for our path. I think I have always known this, but I am finding out more and more what that really means and in all of it He allows ALL THINGS to work together for good for those who are called according to HIS purposes (paraphrased).
We went to check out the house I spoke of previously and it was a wonderful prospect, it would have been TONS of work to make it liveable, but the property and the house were so charming. We or should I say HE has other plans for us....
Tuesday, February 5th, 2008- The official dibanding of my husband's company- it is to be no more. This is shocking, heartbreaking, and most of all confusing as the creation of this company was fully based on directions from the Lord. My husband and his brother and father opened their construction company about 4 years ago- on faith from a word spoken from the Lord. My husband worked as project manager, my father-in-law is an architect and was the design portion of the company, and my brother-in-law handled the sales and customer service portion of the business. They we so blessed the first few years of their venture, with supernatural circumstances and constant divine appointments, it was very clear that this was the Lord's plan for our family.
Then, about a year ago, things began to go south on us, the housing market has been a factor in the demise of our company, but the days and weeks of prayer and fasting have not brought about the results that we believed they might. I do know that the Lord answers prayer in three ways, YES, NO or NOT AT THIS TIME.... this resolution of the company has to be a resounding NO or at least NOT AT THIS TIME!!! I do know that the Lord gives and the Lord takes away, and in all things we have to say- BLESSED BE HIS NAME!!!
So where does that leave us now... we currently have not recieved a paycheck in far too many weeks, we have expended ALL of our savings, we are now almost negative $2,000 in our personal checking account, and we are HUNDREDS OF THOUSANDS of dollars in debt as a company as well as holding over 2.5 million dollars in housing inventory. The integrity of my husband and his brother and father is so far beyond what I see from most people living in our times- they refuse to file bankruptsy- they are personally contacting every vendor, every person they owe money to and explaining our situation with the intent to pay back all monies owed as soon as we are able. I do know that some of the vendors may not allow this and might force us to file bankruptsy, however we will do everything in our power to not let that happen.
My sweet husband is working so hard to finish the houses they currently have under construction while also trying to find a job that will bring some stability to our family's financial situation. We have just gotten word that we are losing our home and we are making plans to move in with my mother. My mother allowing this is a blessing, however it will be a challenge in so many ways as my mom is not a christian, in fact she is a very liberal feminist who does not agree in any way with the way we live or raise our family. I am believing that maybe through this trial and our response to it she will see a little more about the goodness of the Lord and His mercy and grace that flows through our life.
Please pray for us if you think of us, I am sure this is not going to be an easy road ahead, there are so many things that could make me fearful and heartbroken, but I believe that the Lord still has a plan for us and for our life. I know that HE knows how hard this is on my sweet husband and He will provide him with the grace to get through this feeling, as he should, as the wonderful husband, father and provider that he is. I know that HE knows how hard this is on my little ones and that he is pouring His love and mercy on them- allowing them to thrive and prosper in this trying time. And I know HE knows how hard this is for me- to see my family suffering, to see my house fall away, to have to once again submit to my mother as head of her household, and I KNOW that HE has enough faith in me to believe that I can be a wonderful wife and mother in this time that could be so devestating to my family.
I am planning on updating often to keep a record of the goodness of God through our journey. I had no idea that this year was going to start this way- and I have no idea how it will end, but the journey in between, with all it's hills and valleys, will be one which I will want to look back on for years to come.
Blessings to you all!!
08:13 - Friday, February 8, 2008 -
