Today I am down, It kinda hard lately, I have been suffering from depression for many years now, They are thinking I might be Bi-poler, I have too go see the Docture this month too see how all the test went, I really hate being depressed alot of the time, But I cant seem to get out of it, At time's I feel like a real bad mom, I feel at time's I dont spend enough time with my son's, Dh tell's me all the time I am a great mom and that there is no way I could spend more time with them becuse I am with them every wakeing moment, I felt so guilty the other night becuse I went for a ride with a friend, Dh was like it's OK, They were allready in bed and you were only gone a hour and a half. But still I felt like I was a bad mom, I'm allready on 2 kinds of Anti-depressents and they really dont seem like the help all that much, I cry way too much at time's I feel, It can be so hard at time, Im sorry if I seem like I am winning, Im not trying too.

Anyway's it's been a nice cool day today only 17 out and compared too the last few day's this weather is so nice!! Jack seems too not be feeling great today, I think his teeth are bugging him, He has one that's only half way threw so I think it might be that one, When that one is fully in he will have 4 teeth, I rember when Jarred was this age he allreay had 8 teeth, But all baby's grow diffrent, Jack also needs a hair cut bad, But he wount still still too long, I might try myself just too give his bang's a cut, With Jarred were lucky he likes too keep his head shaved so that makes it abit more easy, Jack is just too young yet too shave his head, Jarred was 2 when we frist shaved his head....He's gonna be 3 this thursday and Jack's gonna be 1 next week.

Well I better go Dh is gonna need some help out of the shower shortly.

Blessings too all

~Ruth