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Mwangi , meds and a whole lot of tears
Posted on Thursday, July 20, 2006 at 04:26 - Post Comment
First of all thanks for the entries from Andrew and Kathy, how special was that?!!!!! I've had a sinus infection this week so my life has revolved around my face ( anybody who has had one knows what I mean) Anyway i finally went to the Dr for meds but that was only after I had a meltdown. You see , I hit my head (long story) so now my whole head was killing me and I just started to sob. All the emotion I've been holding in came out. There are sooo many people in our lives who's lives are seemingly hanging by a thread that I just felt overwhelmed by them . I know it is not my job to fix them but in a way i finally allowed my self to mourn for their troubles. plus I've been thinking about the fun crazy summer we had in CT. It was kind of a release to let it out, so i walked into the hospital sobbing. I'm sure it was the first time those African ever saw a white lady crying like that. None seems to cry around here. in fact my neighbor saw Levi crying and told me not to let him cry in front of the neighbor boys again!! So I have my meds now.... As for John Muchiri, and Beth and Mwangi's worming.... Because the food is so unprocessed it has a lot of eggs and bacteria? worms in it. So the hatch out in their stomachs and eat the food in their stomachs. I asked john if he saw anything in his poop and he said YES!!! Mind you this is a 12 year African boy and a 40 year old white lady talking!!! Their stomachs have shrunk about 6 inches!!!!! So now their food is being absorbed by them not their worms. Mwangi was very annoyed by me last Sunday ( he's 8). He hated me touching him(I mean touching like , apat on the back, touching his hand etc, just to clarify) john and Beth don't mind, in fact they like it. but not Mwangi so I am forcing myself not to touch him. Mind you this boy is soft as butter and black as the night so this is a challenge for me!!!! Bruce says he looks like a frog but he is one cute frog!!!! but I understand because I'm probably so ugly and scary to him. Anyway, it was a good visit and i'm so glad they are apart of our lives....... After they left 2 of my students (both orphans being raised my their aunts) came over to ride our bikes. I made Crescent cry (he's 12 so you knowit was bad!!!). I tell you that in case i sound like Mother theresa over here, yes I made an orphan cry!! i know, i'm a beast!!!! but I wiped his tears , mind you with a little fear because he might be HIV + and yes I know you can't catch it that way but you still worry. I also has an affection for this boy because although his auntie and uncle love him he still feels like an outsider. he refuses to call the little girls he lives with his sisters. he is not a bad boy at all but my heart aches for this boy who feels so alone. The other boy who came is Eliud also an orphan and he is sooo insecure. he is smart and good looking but he won't even look up when he talks to you. Oh the pain this disease has caused, and for sex, to me its not worth it........ my kids are on break from school and they are having fun just relaxing and playing.....
Hi, Ellen!
Posted by teapots66 on Thursday, July 20, 2006 at 07:15 - Link
Hi, Ellen, I'll read your post tomorrow to Amy at work, who asked about the worms. I understand your sinus problem, I have had problems over the past year that have made me cry, too - the latest is I HAVE TO HAVE A TOOTH OUT! See what happens when you hit 40? It broke off and it now hurts, not just the tooth but the teeth around it and my ear -!!!!!!Anyway, wish you were here for tea, but you know I feel more & more certain you are where God wants you to be as I read how your days go. I just have to get over still missing you - and I have to keep dreaming about a band trip to Kenya. Please pray for our house deal, the architect didn't show, and we're due to close on the sale of our home in three weeks. I'm moving to my mom's whether work has begun or not. Most of our stuff will be in storage.... Pray also for Amy (Brooke's mom). She is not settled, although for now she is still with my brother. Gotta close for now, sending my love, as always, and have a cuppa tea & know you are loved & remembered. Hope your head feels better - Chris P.S. Some church family news: The Fitts family is seriously thinking of moving to NC to be closer to their son/brother. She also is having a tumor removed soon, luckily it tested benign -
BIG Hug!
Posted by Anonymous on Thursday, July 20, 2006 at 03:19 - Link
Hello my friend!! Loving you! I KNOW how deeply you feel things & how you want to be able to fix things or at least be a part of the fixing. I can only imagine the emotional roller coaster you ride. I think it was a good thing for you to cry & let that all out. I also think that God has given you the gift of compassion & (like Chris) I know you are where God needs you to be! Missing you like crazy, though! :)
You missed out on a crazy thunder storm with LOTS of hail!! Now, aren't you glad that you are there, not here?
Praying for you today----Jennifer
i wish you could come swin
Posted by sharps on Thursday, July 20, 2006 at 05:46 - Link
Hey ellen, It\'s nice to hear about your work there and it would be wonderful to see you again and have you come swim. I thought it was interesting about the no crying thing. Why is that. It must be a cultural thing. Did anyone explain it to you? I find cultural differences facinating. Like the whole thing about the boy not looking at you. When I was going for my master\'s, I learned that in the hispanic culture that is actually a sign of respect with children/ adult relationships. Many non hispanics take it as a disrespect and say\"look at me when I talk to you!\" Any way I woul love to hear more about the cultural diffrences there and feel free to add my blog to your freinds list. Sharps. Till later.....connie
I am so bad....
Posted by Ken Boyden on Thursday, July 20, 2006 at 10:35 - Link
I confess. I have been bad when it comes to my buds in Kenya. Here's my list of bad:
1. Haven't emailed them much.
2. Haven't send them all the CFC DVDs yet. I owe them 3 teen services and a ladies banquet.
3. Haven't kept them up to date on stuff.
4. Haven't prayed for them enough. I hear Ellen was crying the other day. Bad.
5. Haven't told them that I was thinking of them for each of the hundreds of times I think of them when we are having fun doing something that we used to do with them.
Five things on my list of bad is enough. I promise to be better. I have stuff for them. I will send it soon. I hope they have a DVD player. They are all a huge inspiration to me and many.
Bad Ken
You're not Alone Ken
Posted by herbsarecool1 on Monday, July 24, 2006 at 04:48 - Link
I feel the same way Ken, w/out all of the band stuff mixed in. I am just thrilled that we can STOP being BAD!
I HIGHLY doubt that the local folks think that you are ugly Ellen. You are a very cool Mother Teresa...and I did read that book that you gave me about her....talk about not looking at someone out of respect....I wouldn't feel fit to look at her shoes.
About Arianne....
Posted by herbsarecool1 on Monday, July 24, 2006 at 04:50 - Link
I will forward this blog to her so that she can read it...she's been mega busy working on Sally's farm, etc.
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