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He knowsI long for simplification- for easy things--- for a time not so distant when a man’s word and a handshake was his bond.Sigh- I continue to get the run-around with the debt counseling agency. I am not sure if they are worried about losing me as a customer (and the money) or that I may tarnish their “good name”- more probably a combination of both, but trying to terminate the contract continues to be difficult. We have only two creditors left with them. I feel like we are thiiiiiisssss cllllooooossseeee to the finish line and someone is stomping and holding down my shoe lace—like those cartoons where the character is running in place- going nowhere yet expending a lot of energy. I realize I have expended a lot of energy on this—the deep worry has crept in again and has affected by days as well as my nights. I again have exhaust myself in order to fall asleep at night and my days have been filled with those nagging bits of worry and apprehension that float just beneath the surface- not always seen but always on the edge and felt in small biting ways. I know I am close to that spot once again—where I was back in January—where worry creeps in and begins to affect my days, my attitude, my ways. I stomp it back, recognizing the feelings yet they creep through like ooze. A black, stinking ooze. And yet—I know I won’t sink—the ooze won’t touch me. I admit it—I am weak. I AM WEAK. But HE IS STRONG. God can use my weaknesses to bring about His glory. I am never ever going to make it through this on my own. I have nothing- He is everything. I feel I am once again at a place where God will make it perfectly clear that He is in charge and He is seeing us through—that it will be obvious that we didn’t do this- but that God did. I have been in deep prayer about this- I don’t want to go with “my gut feeling” as I want to go in the direction God leads. Today, knowing I was once again calling the debt counseling agency my heart rate picked up- my heart felt like it would beat right out of my chest and I had to stop. I stopped dialing the phone, put it down and went right into prayer. God does NOT want me to feel this way. God doesn’t want my heart racing from worry and misery nor does He want me to be filled with such apprehension. I know this. Reality check time—I prayed- I prayed for peace and calm, that God would speak through me and guide my words and that most of all, more than anything that only God’s will would be done. His will and His will alone. Of course when I finally did call I got voice mail. God knows. Leave a Comment { Last Page } { Page 94 of 1432 } { Next Page } |
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