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     The meeting about the farm didn’t go as I had envisioned but I know that God is in charge. We have only begun to talk about the farm and the sale etc. We now know that the couple do desire for us to purchase the farm. They have only begun to discuss this with us- they have no set date that they want to sell it but when they are ready- they want it to be us.  We started to talk price but were interrupted by the couple’s daughter (it seems she’s not quite ready for them to sell the farm . . . . .). The assessor’s report has put a very high value on the farmstead- one that is completely out of our range.  There is a lot that must be done to the farm- heating, insulating, new windows and much more. We only began to talk with them about it.
     It is a step forward. I guess it just wasn’t the *leap* I was envisioning. I believe God is teaching me much right now about waiting on him and his timing and to rest in my dear husband’s confidence. Yes, DH, remains ever confident that this farm is what God wants for us and that God will make a way. I trust this too, but still do have my faltering moments. I am very aware of the state of our finances and sometimes the reality of that draws me away from my awareness that God will do as He pleases with our little and make it much, much more. It is not for me to question why God is dangling this carrot in front of us (I admit I struggle with feeling that way) but to rest in the assurance of Jeremiah 29:11- that He has plans for me and my family- plans for our future, good plans, plans for us to prosper. I must continue to rest in that.
     Too often I feel like I should suffer the consequences of my actions. I know God has forgiven me for the sin of bad stewardship but I feel like I must suffer, and suffer some more, the financial consequences of that sin. I am reminded that though we are forgiven sometimes there are retributions to be paid- more lessons to be learned. I do say though, that God has shown me many, many wonderful blessings in the midst of our financial *pinch* that I would, otherwise, have missed out on if I wasn’t pinching pennies and stretching dollars ‘til George screams. Can God bless us with this farm even though we cannot afford it? Certainly- He is the God of miracles! Do we deserve the farm? No, by no means, no- but neither do we deserve heaven but I am assured by my Savior, Jesus, that He has a place for me there.

     So though I may have my moments of waffling, I am resting in the assurances God gives me in His Word- and the assurances He gives to my dearest husband. I know too, that learning to lean and trust on my husband completely, is part of the lesson I am to learn. Do not think that I have ever questioned my husband’s judgment (how can I when he had the impeccable taste to choose me? LOL) but I have never yet, in 12 years of marriage, been in this situation where I see my husband so secure and content and I am not experiencing the same.

I am reminded of Proverbs 3:5-6:

Trust in the Lord, with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding. In all your ways acknowledge him and he will make straight your paths.

     I must trust in the Lord and in my husband also, I cannot lean on my own understanding (I just can’t wrap my mind around it all anyway!) but must lean on God’s understanding and in my husband’s also. My job: to acknowledge Him and the leadership of the husband He has given me. God will do the rest.
     What assurance! What I desire most is to be in the center of God’s will and right now, I guess, His will is for me to wait and rest in His assurance and also in that of my dear husband. God may not be *speaking* to me, but He doesn’t need to- He is *speaking* to my husband and that is quite significant to me.

     At this time I continue to pray and meditate on His Word. He has given me such a strong desire and overwhelming pull to this farm for a reason and I must rest in that. Until such time- I have plenty to keep me busy right here in this lovely home he is blessing us with right now. Ah, I am so thankful and blown away by God’s incredible rich goodness to me and mine. Toilets may leak and siding may peel, doors may stick and fascia fall off, the number of bedrooms may be less than the number of occupants and I may have to run outside to *reset* the circuit breaker every other morning- but
                  Be It Ever So Humble- 
              There’s No Place Like Home.

Yeah you're back!

3:24 PM, 2006-Jul-25 .. Posted by Darcy

I've been watching the new blogs posted and looking for you! God has really placed you and "your" farm in my heart so I love hearing the updates. Wish I could join you for one of your scones and get ALL the details! I wouldn't say something you already know about God's timing being perfect, I'd just help you dream.
Darcy

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3:44 PM, 2006-Jul-25 .. Posted by Carol

I've been reading each post too so I can read your update. Rest assured, God knows exactly what you need and what you might need to learn yet. We waited 3 years for our homestead before God led us to the one we are now in. I had many lessons to learn too before we came here. Although 3 years was very long for us, when I look back now I wouldn't have had it any other way. Don't give up on your dream, it will come when you least expect it.
~carol

Thanks so much

4:07 PM, 2006-Jul-25 .. Posted by YPAmy5

Oh, thank you so much for your encouragement. You ladies bless my heart and bring tears to my eyes. Isn't it wonderful that though we are far apart geographically we have still, thru God's blessing, made such touching friendships here?! Blogging is fun in of it's self, but the friendships and "heart" friends I am making here have made such a HUGE impact on me.
God gave ya'll to me right when I needed the boost!
Amy W

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2:34 AM, 2006-Jul-26 .. Posted by sunnyflowers

Hi Amy,
Glad to see you back! I'm sorry the anticipation of buying the farm is stressing you. I'll be praying for you that the Lord's peace will overcome you.
Thank you once again for your wonderful comments about the Queen. I agree with you completely. It is a shame that so many people just play the game, don't take it seriously. I guess I'm not sure which is worse, not really knowing the Lord and acting like you do, *or* knowing the Lord and acting like you don't. I guess we are all just works in progress. And some people will get it, and some people won't. I think about the Queen of Sheba and the pagan environment she grew up in. I imagine that it was pretty hard for her to admit that what she saw in Solomon was the work of God. To admit that would be to admit that she believed lies her entire life. How many people do you know like that? That even when they know the truth, won't fess up or change, because <gasp> they would have to admit that they were wrong!! And not only had the Queen been wrong, but she had been leading the country of Sheba in a wrong way. What courage it must have taken her to admit to even one person, that she was wrong. I contrast her to Jezebel, who I'm studying this week. Well...I'll get more into her when I post her block. :-) But I do understand what you are saying, and hypocrasy being one of my all time biggest pet peeves, I can totally relate to your feelings about the church goers who say it but don't live it.

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12:33 PM, 2006-Jul-26 .. Posted by Hisirishgem

Praise God! It was so comforting to read this today. We too are waiting patiently. Patiently for a homestead, patiently for a child to call our own. I pray that He would speak boldly to the both of us and direct us as He works to bless our lives and set our feet on firm foundation in Jesus name I pray...AMEN