Just give me Jesus

Blurts, Outbursts, One Liners, Vomit Stories, and Verbal Thoughts

I just don't have it in me to write out an eloquent blog. So this morning, I am going to jot down my heart and mind as it comes to me and revisit it later........

I just don't like people anymore. Well, not all of them. Just most of them. It is so very few and far between that I have encountered someone with integrity and work ethic. That is so frustrating.

Years ago I had a goal. At 40, I could retire. At 40, I had worked 27 years, and thought that was a sufficient amount of work.Well, here it is, 3 years PAST my goal, and not only can I NOT retire, but I now have a SECOND job. Actually, I have 3 jobs. I work part time from April to September at a 3rd location.
How many years will my back, hips, shoulder and elbow be able to throw a tray? I guess we're about to find out. Yeah, I am bitter about this. I am trying so hard not to be. Thanking the Lord for my health, my strength, my ability to work.............but deep in the pit of my heart, I am bitter. I want to stay home, cook, clean, do all that mom / girl stuff. Yeah, I DO do all that stuff now......cook, clean, take care of the finances, make all the phone calls, handle all the problems that arise, home school 3 high schoolers.....oh, and now, work 2 jobs outside the home. Yes, I am married.

My oldest has registered to vote. This election year is sickening. I will hold my nose when I pull my R. As will everyone in my family. It is sickening to see how many people DO NOT remove their hats and face the flag when the National Anthem is played.........sickening. And it's only going to get worse.
Whoever gets in office, I hope the economy rebounds long enough for me to sell my house for what its worth.............

Nightmares.........what's that all about. My sleep is poor enough.

Maybe I will cut my hair, color it blonde, hit the tanning bed and buy a new outfit and take myself out.........oh, that's right, I am broke! HA HA

What is it about the 20 year itch? Why do so many couples get divorced at 20 years? Ok, I can see the 7 year itch. They are still young, in shape, bla bla bla...........but 20 years?? What's the deal with 20 years in a marriage and all the sudden someone wants to bail out?

How do you put on a smile, when you don't have one laying around to attach?

Why is it what you want is almost exactly the opposite of what you get? You want to be a joy, a helper, a pleasure to be around, and what you end up being is quite the opposite... What is that all about?

Days and days go by and I just don't wana.
I don't wana talk to God. I don't wana read His Word. I don't wana talk to anyone. I don't wana get up. I don't wana do anything. I just don't wana.
I am tired, worn out, used up.
I just don't wana.








08:10 - Thursday, September 4, 2008 - comments {2} - post comment


I want to hide!

Have you ever been so over obligated, you just wanted to hide?
You know the old "fight or flight" syndrome?
Where the light at the end of the tunnel is a freight train and you are tied tightly to the tracks?
When you smile, you can feel every inch of your face cracking, because you have had to dig in so deep to muster it up that it hurts?
Where you are really afraid to speak, because you know in your heart it is bitter, and angry, and you fear that it will boil up out of your mouth?
When you sit down, and check yourself, and say "I don't want things to be like this" yet they continue to spin out of control?
Then you have no one IRL that you can confide in. No one that you talk to can provide you with any sort of advice / direction. So you sit and stew..............just not good.

I want to head for the hills of North Carolina. Somewhere about 30-45 min east of Asheville. The foothills ya know. Find a nice spot of land, cute little cabin........in the middle of hundreds of acres.
And just breathe.



07:26 - Monday, August 25, 2008 - comments {4} - post comment


My garden, is in shambles

Posted in OH! THE GARDEN
Spring in Indiana was cold and wet.
It killed my first 100 tomatoes.
It diseased my second round of 100 tomatoes.

Finally, I am getting "some" fruit.
The tops are cracked ((due to a lack of water, then too much, then a lack there of)), and they have spots ((that peel off when I blanch)).
They are small. About 1/2 the size they should be.
And for every 5 ripe tomatoes, 2 are rotten.

Can you recommend a good fungicide that will cover a 36 x 36 area?

My peppers grew weird.
My cucumbers are long and odd shaped.
My onions are about 1/2 the size they should be.
My egg plants are JUST NOW coming on.
My pumpkin vine is dying already.

But my herbs?? They did amazing.
Too bad you can't live off of basil and sage! HA HA

I am so sick about this garden. Sick.
It's heartbreaking to look out the window.

07:18 - Monday, August 25, 2008 - comments {4} - post comment


So, what do you want to do when you grow up?

You hear adults ask little kids this question all the time.
I was asked recently "when you were a kid, what did YOU want to do when you grew up"........
My answer?
I wanted to be a Las Vegas Show Girl.
Really.
With the big feathers on her head and the sequined outfits!
Either that, or a Rockette........

Now, today, at 40+, what I 'want' when 'I grow up'?

I don't want to work anymore.
I don't want to be in debt.
I want to cook, clean, take care of the kids and our house.
I want to spend as much time as needed in the garden.
I want to have free time to give if it's needed.
I want to breathe.

I am too old to be a Las Vegas Show Gal, but.........hopefully, soon, I can achieve my second goal!


07:09 - Monday, August 25, 2008 - comments {2} - post comment


Boltbabe...............Another excellent blog!

I just haven't had much to say in days, but have read some great entries this morning.

"Journey to Simplicity"
has a series of blogs about teaching kids responsibility.
As a mother of teens (and I think these articles are really geared for littles) I would like to share our experience........

From the time the kids could drag a laundry basket behind them, they were taught that they were 1/5 of a family equation.
They were taught that it takes all 5 of us working together, to function.

We tried the colorful charts, the prizes, the money, the stickers and glitz and glam.
It all lead me back to this:
I was bribing them to be part of the family. I was paying them to perform family duties........that I had to "remind them" to do!!
Not only that, I was teaching them that only X was their job, and I was robbing them of the ability to take the initiative.

Side note / Left field comment.
I am seeing in the generation of kids age 16-30, that they cannot function unless someone is telling them what to do. If it's not written down, or you are telling them what to do........they stand still, or worse, horse around.
They have no idea how to "see that a table is dirty, therefore it needs cleaned up" reguardless if it's in their section or not".
They have little or no idea or concept of team work.
They have little or no idea of work ethic.
They really have no idea of 'service'.
I know every generation says "Kids these days......" but I am here to tell you as someone who works in the service industry........that generation has no manners, no work ethic, no concept of service, no ability to take the initiative they can only function if someone tells them what to do or they work off a list.......they have no ability to free think. And to boot? Don't expect any above and beyond the call of duty type behavior. If they ain't gettin' paid extra, they ain't doin' no extra...........It is sad, and frustrating when you try to hire them to work, you set an appointment for an interview, and of 10 calls, 8 no call no show..........so I will dismount now :-)

I wanted to instill in the children they are part of a family, it takes 5 to make thing function properly, if you see a mess clean it regaurdless if it is yours or not.

I would walk them thru a room and say: Whats wrong in here? We'd take notes, then fan out and work together on getting it cleaned.
Now at 18, 16, 14 they know that before daddy gets home, the house is to be right. They know that before company comes, deeper cleaning is required. They know that before mommy comes home, just have the kitchen clean. When they see something out of place, they put it away.
I don't have to make lists, I don't have charts, and I don't pay them a dime. Taking care of the home we live in is the least we can do for the blessing God has given us.

I have no complaints when it comes to chores / cleanliness of my older teens. A good work ethic was instilled in them at a young age. And it shows today!



08:32 - Sunday, August 24, 2008 - comments {1} - post comment


Keri Mae..........you hit the nail on the head!!

Maybe it's just me.......
But I was at  "A Happy Home"  and whamo.
Like a 2 x 4 this hits me right between the eyes.

"I wanted to say "yes". I want to be liked"

Taking three steps back and applying this to myself and my obligations.........

Why do I do 99% of what I do?
I want to be liked.

I sign up to do this and that for ___________.
I want to be liked.
I run a _______ why?
I want to be liked.
I am working two jobs why?
I want to be liked.
And on and on and on..........
Really.......who am *I* serving? ME. Me and my feelings. Me and my wants and desires. Oh I am doing work for others, but deep down inside, I am serving myself.......who am I kidding!!

I *serve* on this committee or this ministry. Yeah right. I *serve* me.....oh I can sign up, volunteer, and look real compassionate. But guess what? When everyone *sees me* and says *awwww she is so compassionate, she is so _________* then I have received my reward. I got just what I wanted. Recognition for a job well done.
What a selfish sick person I am.
Romans 7:7-25

But what have I done "in secret" to please the Lord?
How have I served Him in "secret" as He has instructed me?????
Secret in the original Greek language?
Means: Hidden
Hidden means, no one sees. No one knows. No one hears.
No applause, no atta girls, no "oh this is so nice".
Nada, zip, zero.

See Matthew 6.
The first line says it all;
"
"Be careful not to do your 'acts of righteousness' before men, to be seen by them. If you do, you will have no reward from your Father in heaven."

Then it goes on and on about how you should not do things for show.Or, so that you "will be liked".............

Thanks Keri. I really needed to see this today.





08:12 - Sunday, August 24, 2008 - comments {2} - post comment


Paragraph by Paragraph: The InTangible August 20th, 2008

Posted in LISTS !
Paragraph One

My Walk.
Walk is a verb.
Right now I am sitting.
Sitting with my back to the Lord.
Oh sure when I want something or need something
I will talk to Him.
But, my 'walk' is not.
It's a sit.
This just has to change.

Paragraph Two

Learn to say no.
And mean it.
I am too over extended.
Too many irons in the fire.
My mind, it is so busy
I do not rest.
Sinner, party of one your table is now available!
This just has to change.

Paragraph Three

Give.


Paragraph Four


Change.
Things just have to change.
I just can't stand
myself
anymore.


08:59 - Wednesday, August 20, 2008 - comments {0} - post comment


Paragraph by Paragraph: The Tangible August 20, 2008

Posted in LISTS !
Paragraph One

My crazy house
I need to plan, once again, room to room.
Start with the ceiling.
Work my way down and get each room done.
When the market rebounds
this house is
up for sale.
Purge
Purge
Purge
Neutralize

Paragraph Two

Prepare for winter.
Winter should be a four letter word
Wntr
I do not look forward to winter.
However, like it or not, it will come.
So I must prepare.
Again. Mr. List

Paragraph Three

Going along with Paragraph Two, I need to plan
out my flower beds so that
when the time comes
I can place my flower bulbs.
Not much I can do now.........I still have flowers
blooming!!
None the less, I do have to plan
Not only for the existing side bed, but to expand
into the front yard.
The lady that appraised our home said if we put in
flower beds, it would increase the value
of the home almost 10,000.00
OK flower beds it is!!

Paragraph Four

My car.
She is dead and I don't know how to fix her.
I cannot buy a new one.
Or a used one for that matter..
I love my car.
I just don't know what to do.
I really want to fix her.
I need to sell my 4-runner.
It just sits.

Paragraph Five


Clothes.
I must buy myself some new clothes.
It's not to 'update' a wardrobe.
it's to have something to wear!!
I have not bought myself clothes in years...
Thank God that my size has not changed.
Or
I would be running around
with only
2 outfits!
Ha






08:30 - Wednesday, August 20, 2008 - comments {0} - post comment


ENTITLEMENT

I am sick sick sick up to my *#($&@ eyeballs with people who have entitlement issues.

How about this:

I have worked for the same boss for 4 1/2 years.
Every night, at the end of the shift, my boss buys each employee who has worked, dinner.
He created a special button on the computer "employee meal".
It's the WHOLE menu.
He takes off the first 16.00.
So if I get a steak dinner, it only costs me 5.00.

Ok.

My boss gives us dinner each shift we work.
Let's look at the benefits he receives by giving away food.

1. We know what it tastes like so we can better describe it to customers.
2. It is his way of saying 'thank you' to his staff. A way for him to show his appreciation to us. But he receives no "benefit" for this gesture.

Ok........that's it. ONE benefit.

Now, what do we, the employees receive?

1. Free food. Not just any food, but really good food. Food cooked with the most expensive ingredients. Very good food.
2. We are the recipients of our bosses generosity.
3. The ability to taste everything on the menu at a HUGE fraction of the cost.
4. We know that we are appreciated.
5. We can take it to a friend or neighbor who has baby sat for us, or whatever.

OK NOW LETS LOOK AT THIS:

Boss buys us dinner.
You have an employee that starts grumbling that boss should include a salad.
That same employee is totally offended that boss charges .25 (that's right a quarter) for us to get it to go (um because we are using all of his to go boxes that cost money to buy, duh).
This employee begins to "rebel rouse" and grumble about how unfair it is.
She causes friction amongst the other employees.

Do you know why?

SHE has entitlement issues.
SHE thinks she is entitled to whatever her heart desires.

I have a question.

What is wrong with people today? When you do something nice, when you go OUT OF YOUR WAY, to do something nice, when you go out of your way and receive little or NO BENEFIT YOURSELF to do something nice..................why is it that there is always someone RIGHT THERE to push it? Someone who just can't look at a situation and say "wow, thank you for what you have done?"

What is wrong with people?
It's no wonder I don't want to leave my house.
Ge-ma-nee-christmas.

07:55 - Tuesday, August 12, 2008 - comments {5} - post comment


The Indiana State Fair

Posted in GOALS
What am I going to do at the Indiana State Fair???


Milk a cow
Ask a 1,000 questions about cows.
Ask a 1,000 questions about chickens.
Ask a 1,000 questions about my garden. I will come prepared with a piece of fruit, effected leaves, and soil. I will have photos and temp charts. Oh yeah, I am loaded for bear.

I will collect enough information that I will need a back pack to carry it.

I will pet the piggys
I will pet the pony's
I will pet the goats (pu smelly goats!)

I will go fishin' in the pond.
Shoot a bow and arrow
Shoot a 'virtual' shotgun

Eat a ribeye sandwich, corn on the cob, an elephant ear, and anything else that is moving slow enough for me to catch!!

I will take tons and tons and tons of photos.
I am going next week and I simply, cannot wait!!

08:05 - Friday, August 8, 2008 - comments {1} - post comment


Canned yesterday

Posted in OH! THE GARDEN
Drum roll please..............

I canned three, (3), trace, twa, dry, yes, THREE PINTS of tomatoes yesterday.

Why only 3 pints you ask?

Well of the 100 tomato plants in the ground, I only had enough ripe fruit to can 3 pints...........

Those 3 pints are now little jars of gold, that will hold places of honor on the canning shelf in the basement.

I think I will start going to the farmers market and buying tomatoes to can.

I am crying on the inside.

07:59 - Friday, August 8, 2008 - comments {1} - post comment


Are you in to mood to build something??

Posted in THE HOMESTEAD

The Pompeii Oven™: Plans to Build an Italian Brick Oven



Free Brick Barbeque Plans


07:13 - Sunday, August 3, 2008 - comments {1} - post comment


Isaiah 58........

Isaiah 58

True Fasting
 1 "Shout it aloud, do not hold back.
       Raise your voice like a trumpet.
       Declare to my people their rebellion
       and to the house of Jacob their sins.
I am His.

 2 For day after day they seek me out;
       they seem eager to know my ways,
       as if they were a nation that does what is right
       and has not forsaken the commands of its God.
       They ask me for just decisions
       and seem eager for God to come near them.

This is me. "Seems eager" to know His Ways. "Seems eager to come near". The "seems" needs to be turned into an action word.

 3 'Why have we fasted,' they say,
       'and you have not seen it?
       Why have we humbled ourselves,
       and you have not noticed?'
       "Yet on the day of your fasting, you do as you please
       and exploit all your workers.

Oh yeah. Me. "Well Lord, I do xyz and didn't you see"? Like He doesn't SEE everything. Sometimes I am so dumb.

 4 Your fasting ends in quarreling and strife,
       and in striking each other with wicked fists.
       You cannot fast as you do today
       and expect your voice to be heard on high.

I don't know what "quarreling and strife or wicked fists" is but I will tell you my 'fasting' will get the same results. Because its not good.

 5 Is this the kind of fast I have chosen,
       only a day for a man to humble himself?
       Is it only for bowing one's head like a reed
       and for lying on sackcloth and ashes?
       Is that what you call a fast,
       a day acceptable to the LORD ?

For me God is saying "stop putting on a show and get real, knock off all the drama, and LISTEN to me"

 6 "Is not this the kind of fasting I have chosen:
       to loose the chains of injustice
       and untie the cords of the yoke,
       to set the oppressed free
       and break every yoke?

This is a huge verse. I 'fast' for silly stuff (oh it may seem big to me, but compared to verse 6? SILLY STUFF) and He is showing me that He is SO much more...........

 7 Is it not to share your food with the hungry
       and to provide the poor wanderer with shelter—
       when you see the naked, to clothe him,
       and not to turn away from your own flesh and blood?

Hmmmmmm wow. No where do I see anything like what the 'world' tells me. No where in this verse does it say...."volunteer for this program, sign up to do this on Sunday, give X amount of money" It says........be ready, spot on. Be ready at any SECOND to give.

 8 Then your light will break forth like the dawn,
       and your healing will quickly appear;
       then your righteousness [a] will go before you,
       and the glory of the LORD will be your rear guard.

I love the word "then"..........

 9 Then you will call, and the LORD will answer;
       you will cry for help, and he will say: Here am I.
       "If you do away with the yoke of oppression,
       with the pointing finger and malicious talk,

 10 and if you spend yourselves in behalf of the hungry
       and satisfy the needs of the oppressed,
       then your light will rise in the darkness,
       and your night will become like the noonday.

God says "ok, PAY ATTENTION........Verses 1-7, and now 8-12 He shows us our reward. It's all written down for me. How simple duh.

 11 The LORD will guide you always;
       he will satisfy your needs in a sun-scorched land
       and will strengthen your frame.
       You will be like a well-watered garden,
       like a spring whose waters never fail.

 12 Your people will rebuild the ancient ruins
       and will raise up the age-old foundations;
       you will be called Repairer of Broken Walls,
       Restorer of Streets with Dwellings.

 13 "If you keep your feet from breaking the Sabbath
       and from doing as you please on my holy day,
       if you call the Sabbath a delight
       and the LORD's holy day honorable,
       and if you honor it by not going your own way
       and not doing as you please or speaking idle words,

 14 then you will find your joy in the LORD,
       and I will cause you to ride on the heights of the land
       and to feast on the inheritance of your father Jacob."
       The mouth of the LORD has spoken.

 

Ok........."IF you keep your feet from breaking Sabbath". That's huge. Understand this.........for 40+ years I have been conditioned, I have chosen, I have lived for Saturdays. I work on Saturdays (big money days) I do big projects on Saturdays. My kids play sports on Saturdays.................I do not honor "THE Sabbath". I do not honor it and the only "delight" in it is for myself. Not to honor or please God. I do what I want, go my own way.........I totally thumb my nose at God, and His Sabbath.......

It's no wonder I am in the condition, I am in.

Footnotes:

  1. Isaiah 58:8 Or your righteous One

07:35 - Friday, July 18, 2008 - comments {1} - post comment


ONE REASON WHY I HOME EDUCATE!!!!

Why Christian Manhood MUST Prevail


There is an alarming rise in effeminacy amongst young men in our nation. And the increase has nothing to do with genetics. The issue is moral, cultural, and, most importantly, theological. The collective social conscience of the meaning of Christian manhood is quickly becoming the stuff of story books. The abandonment of teaching on family orthopraxy from the pulpit, and the exchange of fundamental moral issues for short term political victories by too many Christians who are engaged in culture wars, has created an environment where there is precious little practical difference between the way the church and the world view manhood and womanhood.

The fact is that our boys are confused because their fathers are confused. The gender-blending of the last twenty-five years is reaping an alarming toll on men, and the worst is yet to come.

The answer to the problem of effeminacy in boys and leaderless men is not going into the forest and beating a drum. Nor is the answer found in psychologically driven behavior modification theory.

Christian manhood must prevail. But for it to prevail we need a generation of men and women more concerned with the biblical vision of manhood than the prevailing view presented in the government schools, on MTV, and in too many pulpits across America. And we need men and women willing to stand — sometimes alone — against the wave of androgyny and social confusion.

The good news is that feminism in women and male effeminacy are self-defeating. They cannot be sustained. They are ultimately doomed to destruction. But along the way to their own self-annihilation, they can leave a devastating toll in the lives of our sons and daughters. They can wreak havoc on an entire culture. And this is where things stand now.

History is behind Christian manhood, which is why it must be studied both theologically and historically. In this important message, Why Christian Manhood Must Prevail, I explain the issue and seek to encourage fathers and mothers who aspire to raise their sons to stand against the tide of effeminacy and embrace a vision of noble manhood.

May we about the business of recovering biblical manhood in our time.

www.visionforum.com

12:28 - Tuesday, July 15, 2008 - comments {1} - post comment


40 evidences that we may have left our first love......

I received this email this morning.........

40 Evidences That You May Have

Left Your First Love

1. You can go hours or days without having more than a passing thought of Him.

2. You don’t have a strong desire to spend time with Him.

3. You don’t have a strong hunger for the Word; Bible reading is a “chore” – something to

mark off your “to do” list.

4. Spending time in prayer is a burden/duty rather than a delight.

5. Your worship is formal, dry, lifeless, merely going through the motions.

6. Private prayer and worship are almost non-existent . . . cold and dry.

7. You are more concerned about physical health, well-being, and comfort than about the wellbeing

and condition of your soul.

8. You crave physical food, while having little appetite for spiritual food.

9. You crave human companionship more than a relationship with Christ.

10. You spend more time and effort on your physical appearance than on cultivating inner

spiritual beauty to please Christ.

11. Your heart toward Christ is cold and indifferent; not tender as it once was, not easily moved

by the Word, talk of spiritual things, etc.

12. Christianity is more of a checklist than a relationship with Christ.

13. You measure spirituality (yours/others’) by performance rather than the condition of the

heart.

14. Christianity is defined more what by what you “do” than who you “are” (“doing” vs.

“being”).

15. Your obedience and service are motivated and fueled by expectations of others or a desire to

impress others, more than by passion for Christ.

16. You are more concerned about what others think and pleasing them, than about what God

knows and pleasing Christ.

17. Your service for Christ and others is motivated by a sense of duty or obligation.

18. You find yourself becoming resentful over the hardships and demands of serving Christ and

others.

19. You can talk with others about kids, marriage, weather, and the news, but struggle to talk

about the Lord and spiritual matters.

20. You have a hard time coming up with something fresh to share in a testimony service at

church or when someone asks, “What’s God been doing in your life?”

21. You are formal, rigid, and up-tight about spiritual things, rather than joyful and winsome.

22. You are critical or harsh toward those who are doctrinally off-base or living in sin.

23. You enjoy secular songs, movies, and books more than songs or reading material that point

you to Christ.

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24. You prefer the company of people who don’t love Christ, to the company and fellowship of

those who do.

25. You are more interested in recreation, entertainment, and having “fun” than in cultivating

intimacy with Christ through worship, prayer, the Word, and Christian fellowship.

26. You display attitudes or are involved in activities that you know are contrary to Scripture, but

you continue in them anyway.

27. You justify “small” areas of disobedience or compromise.

28. You have been drawn back into sin habits that you put off when you were a young believer.

29. “Little” things that used to disturb your conscience, no longer do.

30. You are slow to respond to conviction over sin – or you ignore it altogether.

31. You enjoy certain sins and want to hang onto them. You are unwilling to give them up for

Christ.

32. You are not grieved by sin – it’s no big deal to you.

33. You are consistently allured by certain sins.

34. You are self-righteous--more concerned about sin in others’ lives than in your own.

35. You are more concerned about having the right position than the right disposition.

36. You tend to hold tightly to money and things, rather than being quick to give to meet the

needs of others.

37. You rarely give sacrificially to the Lord’s work.

38. You rarely have a desire or burden to give, when you hear of legitimate financial needs

within the Body, your church, or a ministry.

39. Accumulating and maintaining material “things” consumes more time and effort on your part

than seeking after and cultivating spiritual riches.

40. You have broken relationships with other believers that you are unwilling or have not

attempted to reconcile.

1"To the angel of the church in Ephesus write: 'The words of him who holds the

seven stars in his right hand, who walks among the seven golden lampstands.

2"'I know your works, your toil and your patient endurance, and how you cannot

bear with those who are evil, but have tested those who call themselves apostles

and are not, and found them to be false. 3I know you are enduring patiently and

bearing up for my name’s sake, and you have not grown weary.

4But I have this against you, that you have abandoned the love you had at first.

5Remember therefore from where you have fallen; repent, and do the works you

did at first. If not, I will come to you and remove your lampstand from its place,

unless you repent. . . .

7He who has an ear, let him hear what the Spirit says to the churches. To the one

who conquers I will grant to eat of the tree of life, which is in the paradise of

God.'

Revelation 2:1-7

CHILLING!


08:23 - Tuesday, July 15, 2008 - comments {0} - post comment


Bitterness

At Dictionary.com, this is the English explanation


Dictionary.com Unabridged (v 1.1)
- Cite This Source - Share This bit·ter    Audio Help   [bit-er] Pronunciation Key adjective, -er, -est, noun, verb, adverb –adjective
1. having a harsh, disagreeably acrid taste, like that of aspirin, quinine, wormwood, or aloes.
2. producing one of the four basic taste sensations; not sour, sweet, or salt.
3. hard to bear; grievous; distressful: a bitter sorrow.
4. causing pain; piercing; stinging: a bitter chill.
5. characterized by intense antagonism or hostility: bitter hatred.
6. hard to admit or accept: a bitter lesson.
7. resentful or cynical: bitter words.
–noun
8. that which is bitter; bitterness: Learn to take the bitter with the sweet.
9. British. a very dry ale having a strong taste of hops.
–verb (used with object)
10. to make bitter: herbs employed to bitter vermouth.
–adverb
11. extremely; very; exceedingly: a bitter cold night.


MAR is the root in Hebrew that means "bitter".
Exodus 15:22-24
22 Then Moses led Israel from the Red Sea and they went into the Desert of Shur. For three days they traveled in the desert without finding water. 23 When they came to Marah, they could not drink its water because it was bitter. (That is why the place is called Marah. [a] ) 24 So the people grumbled against Moses, saying, "What are we to drink?"

Footnotes:

Exodus 15:23 Marah means bitter



Now for the Greek!!

Pikros:
it is the word that defines 'taste'

Pikraino: in an active voice, "to be bitter" "to embitter, irritate, or to make bitter. In a passive voice: to be made bitter.

Pikria: Metaphorically: condition of extreme wickedness, "gal of bitterness' or 'bitter gal'. evil speaking. hatred. root of bitterness produces bitter fruit.

Pikros: (long o) bitterly is used of the poignant grief of Peter's weeping for his denial of Christ, Matthew 26:75


07:58 - Saturday, July 12, 2008 - comments {0} - post comment


Judge?

GLEANINGS FROM THE GREEK NEW TESTAMENT

by Dr. Philip Bryan

Wordplay: Judgment and Condemnation

A Common Literary Device

"Wordplay" or "punning" is a favorite literary device utilized in the Old and New Testaments, especially in Paul's letters. English often cannot communicate the force of a passage by means of wordplay in corresponding English words. Sometimes the most familiar English version even gives a false impression of the meaning. For example, because of wordplay and changes in English usage since the 17th Century, the English words "judgment" and "condemnation" (or "damnation") often are interpreted in certain passages to mean something other than what the author intended, and at the same time something of the subtle "flavor" is lost. A typical example appears in 1 Cor. 11:29, which some have interpreted to teach that "eating unworthily" at the Lord's Supper will send a person to Hell: "For he that eateth and drinketh unworthily, eateth and drinketh damnation to himself, not discerning the Lord's body." To the contrary, Paul in this passage states that God judges a believer for eating and drinking unworthily so that he will not be condemned! Paul is very careful in his usage of the words translated "judgment" and "condemnation."

Basic Meanings

Three variations for judgment (and their cognates) are regularly employed by Paul in the New Testament: (1) krino, (2) diakrino, and (3) katakrino. The basic word krino includes primarily the ideas of "separating," "judging," and "reaching a decision." Sometimes this "judgment" may be a form of "condemnation," but that is not the basic meaning. Clearly related to krino is the word diakrino, with the ideas of "separating," "differentiating," "judging correctly," "discerning," etc. This word emphasizes proper judgment. The third pertinent form, katakrino, carries the related ideas of "condemning," "punishing," "damning," etc. Clearly, all of the ideas are closely related, both in Greek and English. Detailed analyses of these words are contained in the standard Greek lexicons.

Comparison and Contrast

In a number of New Testament passages, Paul uses two or more of these words (or their cognates) to compare and contrast different ideas and shades of meaning. See Rom. 2:1, 5:16, 18 for usage of krino and katakrino. Rom. 14:23 includes diakrino and katakrino. Analysis of 1 Cor. 11:27-34 gives some of the most fruitful benefits when distinction is maintained between all three words.

Analysis of 1 Cor. 11:27-34

These controversial verses in Paul's discussion of the Lord's Supper may be translated and interpreted as follows:

"(27) The result is: whoever should eat the bread or drink the cup of the Lord unworthily, will be guilty of the body and the blood of the Lord."

Unworthy behavior at the Lord's Table is a serious matter because of what the elements represent -- the Lord's body and blood.

"(28) But let a man prove himself [or, show himself approved?], and so let him eat of the bread [or loaf] and let him drink of the cup; (29) for the one who eats and drinks eats and drinks judgment [krima, a cognate of krino] to [or for] himself, when he does not discern [diakrino] the body."

Failure to "discern the body" (i.e., the church; see v. 31) brings God's judgment (not damnation on that person (a believer, see v. 31).

"(30) Therefore, many among you are weak and feeble, and a number are sleeping."

God's judgment ("therefore") is illustrated by the fact that many of the Corinthians are "weak and feeble" (physically sick?) And not a few are "sleeping" (i.e., they are physically dead?).

"(31) But if we had discerned [diakrino] ourselves, we would not have been judged [krino]; (32) but when are judged [krino] by the Lord, we are chastened lest we should be condemned [katakrino] with the world."

So, if we discern (diakrino; judge correctly) ourselves (the body) we will not be judged (krino) by the Lord. He will judge (krino) His people when they need it (e.g., when they do not "discern the body"), but He does not condemn or damn (katakrino) them. It is "the world" that will be condemned (katakrino)!

"(33) The result is: my brethren, when you come together [or, assemble] in order to eat [the Lord's Supper], wait for one another. (34) If anyone should be hungry, let him eat at home, lest you should come together [or, assemble] for judgment [krima]. And the remaining things I will arrange whenever I come."

Proper discernment (judgment) of the Lord's body (the church) is evidenced by waiting for one another at the Table. Since the purpose of assembling is not because of hunger, observance of the ordinance will bring God's judgment (krima) if the participants eat and drink in an unworthy manner by not regarding one another. These verses probably explain why the Corinthian supper was not the Lord's Supper (v. 20). It was their own supper!

09:10 - Friday, July 11, 2008 - comments {0} - post comment


What a great article........and MHO of it.

I saw this article at Hidden Creek Homstead....and baby, it hit a nerve with me!!


Are Rising Prices Scaring You?
by Jill Cooper
Living on a Dime

We are getting e-mails and it has been all over the news - "What do we do? They are rationing rice!!" Um, they did that because Chinese restaurants were coming in and buying bags and bags at a time because it was cheap. Duh.

I haven't decided if I should just laugh or start tearing my hair out. First everyone panicked over the price of gas... then it was the price of apples, then milk and now rice. What I find so amusing about the whole thing is a lot of those same people who are in a panic are still using their gas to go to the movies, to go on vacations, to travel for sports activities, to go shopping and to go most any place they want to go.They panic because they were brainwashed to panic. HELLO anyone who reads the newspaper daily, watches tv daily, or listens to the radio has been brainwashed with the message of 'recession' FOR MONTHS. If you tell a person a lie every day for months on end, eventually, they believe it. People are in a tizzy because they listened to lies...........

So many people complain about the price of gas when it costs $4.00 a gallon but don't bat an eye when going to Starbucks to pay $4.00 for one cup (8 oz. or 1/8 of a gallon) of coffee that they could have made at home for pennies. Despite all the fuss, most Americans have not substantially changed their lives because of gas prices. NOT only have they NOT changed their lifestyles.......but they STILL would rather hug a tree than to dig for our own oil. Stuuuuuupid. They whine about gas, but are more than willing to let the Middle East dictate how much we pay. Poor blind souls.

Then there is another whole group who complain about how they "aren't like other people". They don't spend a penny on anything and they still have nothing and, because their lot in life is so miserable, they have a right to be afraid of what is happening in the world and in their lives. They have a "What about me?" attitude all of the time.WELL GUESS WHERE THEY LEARNED THAT??? Hmmmmmmmm schools teach "what about me"......TV programs are all about ME. Magazines, ME, self help books (even christian ones) ME. The media in general ME ME ME ME ME. Walk into any place where people congregate. School, work, church.........everyone is too worried about what everyone ELSE is doing, dressing like, driving, living in.........Um, Scripture says: Mind your own business!!

The Bible says that God does not give us the spirit of fear but of power and love and a sound mind. Even if you aren't a Christian, I want you to really think about those words because they apply to human nature in general.FEAR is from satan. Fear is a tool of the devil. Fear is a destroyer...........it is a tool of manipulators. Women who are beaten by their dh......fear is his greatest weapon against her. Children who are molested........fear is the greatest weapon used against them. Jesus said:John 14:27 Peace I leave with you; My Peace I give you. I do not give to you as the world gives. Do not let your hearts be troubled and do not be afraid. He told us in advance what to expect.........if we would pick up the Bible instead of the newspaper, People magazine, or turn on the tube, we'd know this!!

We are living in a world that is crazed with fear and because of that we have lost power over ourselves, our lives and our circumstances. Because of that fear we have very little love for anyone. When you love someone or something your main thoughts are focused on that person or thing that you love. What do you think about all the time? --Your spouse, your children, joyful things and happy things or do you focus on yourself and on how these terrible prices are going to affect you?It is the love of money that has driven us mad. We fear if we lack it, we can not buy. So many equate 'buying things' and "showing love". We think "oh my kid has to have an amazing b-day party, or an amazing b-day gift, or I have to take them on a vacation, or they have to have these clothes" Or ________ you fill in the blank.

Do you know how powerless you become when you give way to fear? When you're constantly afraid, you can't function properly at work which leads to not getting a pay raise or worse yet, getting fired. You can't get your mind off of that which you fear and it filters into every area of your life.AMEN AMEN AMEN. Have your child take your photo at different times of the day (when you don't expect it) or photograph your spouse. A face, doesn't lie. Fear drains you of life. It sucks you dry........and your face shows it. Your voice shows it. Your actions reveal it........

You become short and angry with your family when they try to talk to you, ask you something or want to spend time with you because they are interrupting your focus on your fear. "How am I going to get some rice (or gas, or milk or apples)", "If there's a shortage of rice now, I'm sure that is going to lead to a shortage on ALL food", "If there is a shortage of food, that will mean I can't go on vacation this summer or buy that new car." As my daughter says "oh ye of little faith". That is what fear is. We are getting caught with our pants down. Spend Spend Spend debt debt debt. Now we are called to pay the piper, and our pockets are a little short............I am reaping what I have sown. Again, this is all in the Word.......

You say but that's silly and doesn't even make sense. No it doesn't and that is where the sound mind comes in. Where there is fear there is total loss of rational reasoning or what I call "common sense".

When someone isn't of sound mind (not using common sense), they think there is going to be a shortage on rice and they panic. They tell everyone they know. The word spreads and then everyone panics and runs out to hoard rice. All that fear has a snowball effect which then creates a shortage of rice where there wasn't one.Guess what? Satan played us like a fiddle. We are so.........sheep BAAAAAA BAAAAAAAAA. Because woman are not home, minding their own business (as Scripture COMMANDS) and out being busy bodies, this is how this kind of insanity starts! It's one thing to be informed. Its another to be hysterical. I guess if we pulled our spines out of the closet and came along side the "siren" and corrected them and tried to train them.......or call sin a sin.........but no, we must consider the "feeling" or the "diversity" of it all. Gag. Another one of satans tricks.

If people had not given over to fear and had been of sound mind (using common sense) they would have thought, "No big deal, we'll have pasta instead or just do without rice for now." They would go about their daily business without giving it another thought and focus on more important things like how to be a kinder more loving spouse or parent.OR (now here's a concept) INVESTIGATE what the REAL reason is. Was there something that happened that caused the rice production to be less? Are Chinese restaurant owners buying it all up? Was their a disease that ate up the crop? Floods? Typhoons? What? Actually take the time to investigate truth!!!! Learn for yourself. Don't rely on others to "tell you what truth is".........That's how Hitler deceived a nation!

When people aren't consumed with fear they can think more rationally, which helps them make wiser and more practical decisions. When fear is gone they have peace and joy and patience and most of all they are more loving.When fear is REPLACED with the Peace that only Jesus Christ can give, then AND ONLY THEN, we will have peace, joy, patience, and love.

Think about it. How much of your life is ruled by fear? If you filter back through most negative emotions, most of them begin with fear of something. Do you buy things you can't afford because you are afraid of what people will think of you? Do you spend more on gifts for your friends and your children's friends because you fear that people won't love you?AMEN again. It's sickening, and maddening that I allow satan to manipulate me. I was breathless yesterday when I paid bills and then had to fill up the tank. Then I remembered.......um, (A) the mess I am in, I caused (B) Trust in the Lord with ALL my heart....(C) I chose not to do the evil ones bidding. I chose to have Faith in Christ! (d) BUT their are consequences to sin.......and this discomfort? Guess what.....I should be thankful that is ALL I am feeling.

Take a serious look at the things you obsess about. Do you obsess about them because of some kind of fear? I don't know how to tactfully and gently say this but lately I have seen quiet (and sometimes loud) fear in a new thing called "becoming green and saving the environment". This is really just another form of fear. When people become obsessed and overcome, it is usually out of fear and not out of rational thinking.CASE AND POINT: She says "tactfully and gently" Um, no, the word I would use is Idolatry. Call it what it is!!! Stop namby pambying around!!!!! So many books tell us how bad WE ARE for 'hurting mother earth'.(Last time I checked, we were Created in HIS Image?)  Um, could someone point out in Scripture where the Lord commands us to LOVE the earth? I think it's Love the Lord, Your God,and Love your neighbor as your self............I see nothing about the earth.

Worship the CreatOR not the creatED.

I'm not saying you shouldn't try to save the environment if you think that it needs saving. I'm simply saying don't let things that stem from fear of something control your life in such a way that you lose all of your life's joy and your capacity for reasonable and rational thinking.We cannot save it.Those ridiculous programs at school and church on how "kids can save the earth" are just teaching the babies how to be Idolaters!!!!  THE EARTH is doomed to a fiery end. Read Matthew 23-25, and Revelation. Anyone who thinks that (a) man has ruined the earth AND (b) man can save the earth, worships a different god. God Created it, God will Judge it, God will destroy it. And there is NOTHING man can do to 'speed that up' or 'slow that down'.

AND anyone who thinks they can........is blinded by satan, an idolater and worships man and earth, not God almighty.

Jill Cooper and Tawra Kellam are frugal living experts and the editors of Living on a Dime.

As a single mother of two, Jill Cooper started her own home business without any capital and paid off $35,000 debt in 5 years on $1,000 a month income. Tawra and her husband paid off $20,000 debt in 5 years on $22,000 a year income. They have helped thousands of people all over the world to save money and get out of debt.

07:36 - Friday, July 11, 2008 - comments {4} - post comment


Let me rave on about my local extension!

Posted in OH! THE GARDEN
So I have this horrid problem with my tomatoes. I have blogged here, and whined there about it.

Well I emailed my local extension.
I sent him photos.

This man hunted and searched for an answer. Contacted Purdue, and spoke to two experts. Showed them my photos..........
Really really went the extra mile. Any time I emailed, he was emailing me back within 24 hours. Every single time.

I have never had to contact my local extension. But I am so glad I did.
I know someone here recommend that I contact the extension.......thank you. That is the best advice ever~!!!!



08:25 - Thursday, July 10, 2008 - comments {2} - post comment


ALL of life's answers are in the book of Proverbs.......really!!

Again, I am reading this book.......... and I am compelled to seek out Scriptures......to support or refute what I have read. Funny, I keep coming back to 'sin'. That is the root. Emotions are just a symptom of sin. Sickness is the outward manifestation (not all cases :-) of sins mutilation of the body.

 

Proverbs 2

Moral Benefits of Wisdom
 1 My son, if you accept my words
       and store up my commands within you
,

 2 turning your ear to wisdom
       and applying your heart to understanding,

 3 and if you call out for insight
       and cry aloud for understanding,

 4 and if you look for it as for silver
       and search for it as for hidden treasure,

Look at that word "if".Wisdom, Understanding. Ok, where do I find it. THE WORD, ok, I have 3 Bibles in the house (maybe more) Verse 5. Look for it like it's TREASURE. Have you ever looked for treasure? I have........God says "IF", If I do these things..............

 5 then you will understand the fear of the LORD
       and find the knowledge of God.

 6 For the LORD gives wisdom,
       and from his mouth come knowledge and understanding.

 7 He holds victory in store for the upright,
       he is a shield to those whose walk is blameless,

 8 for he guards the course of the just
       and protects the way of his faithful ones.

 9 Then you will understand what is right and just
       and fair—every good path.

 10 For wisdom will enter your heart,
       and knowledge will be pleasant to your soul.

 11 Discretion will protect you,
       and understanding will guard you.

OK IF I do the first part, my part, the seeking part THEN.....THEN.......THEN.......not the other way around. I must seek, THEN I will understand, and know. THEN He will give me wisdom. THEN He will be my shield. THEN He will guard, protect me. THEN I will understand, have wisdom, and knowledge. ONLY THEN, after I do the "if's". Only then.............

 12 Wisdom will save you from the ways of wicked men,
       from men whose words are perverse,

 13 who leave the straight paths
       to walk in dark ways,

 14 who delight in doing wrong
       and rejoice in the perverseness of evil,

 15 whose paths are crooked
       and who are devious in their ways.

 16 It will save you also from the adulteress,
       from the wayward wife with her seductive words,

 17 who has left the partner of her youth
       and ignored the covenant she made before God. 

 18 For her house leads down to death
       and her paths to the spirits of the dead.

 19 None who go to her return
       or attain the paths of life.

 20 Thus you will walk in the ways of good men
       and keep to the paths of the righteous.

 21 For the upright will live in the land,
       and the blameless will remain in it;

 22 but the wicked will be cut off from the land,
       and the unfaithful will be torn from it.

Sin in verses 12-22. Peversion, walking in darkness, delight in sin, rejoice in evil, crooked paths, devious ways, adultery.

Delights in sin (gossip, slander,attracting the attention of other men,)

Rejoices in Evil (watching a movie or TV program Jesus would never watch and getting excited when the "bad guy gets his".) Reading People magazine and getting your emotions all stirred up there. Slandering a neighbor....

Crooked paths, devious ways? Manipulation in the form of pouting, tempertantrums, silent treatment, using your body to get what you want, Putting thoughts into others heads to get them to think the way you think. Lying.

 

All of these 'sins' can make me sick.

Sleeplessness, headaches, acid reflux, indigestion, irritable bowel, ulcers, unexplained aches and pains, blurred vision, panic attacks.And more!

Any of these 'symptoms' can lead to greater problems, cancer, high blood pressure, heart attack. It's like leaving an infection untreated. It starts off small, but could grow so much that you can loose a whole leg, or your life.

Sin, is the infection.

I have to rid myself of the sin......then the symptoms will go too!!

 


08:04 - Thursday, July 3, 2008 - comments {1} - post comment


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