Friday :Updated

Posted on Friday, March 14, 2008 at 11:00

Today I am so overwhelmed by all the household chores and things that need to get done!!!  There are dishes all over the small counters in my kitchen, laundry piled up in the laundry room, the dusting needs to be done, Noah's toys are strung out all over the living room, the dining room table is covered with tihngs that don't belong there, the sewing area looks like my sewing supplies blew up all over the place, all the sheets in the house ned to be washed, the beds are dishelved and unmade, the bathrooms desperately need cleaned, the kitchen floors needs swept and mopped and I am sure there is more that I just can't think of right now.

Another words, yes we definately LIVE in our house.  Our house is lived in loved in, and no it doesn't always look like a show house!!! LOL  I have gotten way behind this last week....probably more behind than I hae been in AGES!!!  I am kinda depressed about it too.  I am so overwhelmed I just don't know where to start with all this mess!!!  On top of that (and most of the reason for this hot mess), I havev a migraine headache that has lasted 3 days now, a tummy ache that has been here for 24 hours and although seeing my chiropractor earlier this week, I still have some lower back pain as well as some sore ribs! 

Have you ever been here??? Evertime I try to catch up, I seem to get 3 steps behind.   I am thinking about going on strike!  (No, not really)  I am praying for God's strength and direction today, on cleaning this house!!!  I have got to get this place in order.  I manage the household, and if this was any other job, I would have been fired by now!  I am letting down my hubby, my son and our houseguest Sarah by doing this.

I wasn't looking forward to cooking in that awful kitchen last night, so we ended up eating Chinese.  Now don't get me wrong, there is nothing wrong with eating out every ONCE IN A WHILE.  But as one person said, a dirty kitchen doesn't save the family money.  Save money by not eating out by keeping a clean kitchen.  We all know this is true, and yet my kitchen is still a mess!!!!!   Supper was good, but not near as good and satifyign as it would have been if the kitchen was in order and it had been homemade!

Matthew is such a sweet and understanding husband and hasn't said much about it because he knows I am dealing with some emotions going stir crazy.  (My mother died last year on March the 7th.  Her birthday would have been the 18th of March)  I thank God every day for this man he brought me.  He certainly knew what he was doing when he put us together.  Matthew doesn't chew me out or make me feel worthless for not taking care of the house, he just gives me the love and affection needed, and the understanding and healing time and space I need and knows that when this all passes, I will get things in order once again. 

I don't think I really realized how sad and depressed I was feeling about this until I sat down to write this.  One of my coping mechanisms is to eat (and loet me tell you I have been doing really good at that lately.....I have got to stop this!), and the other is to make others laugh and feel goofy.  Making others laugh sounds good right???  I go overboard.  My best friend yesterday told me today I was about to drive her coo coo yesterday, and finally later in the evening, I realized I was telling myself SHUT UP and relax!!!  When when all got home from supper last night, hubby told me I needed to calm down finally.  I was talking to everyone on the tv and telling everyone in the room who should be kicked off survivor, and how easy a particular dish was to make on Top Chef Chicago. LOL  I was talking back to the screen! LOL

So, today I am not hyper or trying to make people laugh.  I just feel like being depressed and going back to bed instead of doing the houseword adn taking care of Noah today.  But I can't let myself do that.  I will start by starting some laundry in the washer and dryer and cleaning off the table in the dining room and see where that leads me.

Gods' Blessings,

Amy Jo

Update:  Matthew knew how sad I was feeling and he came home early today.  He came in and immediately changed Noah's diaper and took him for a walk (after giving me a big hug and a kiss of course).  Afterwards, while Noah was napping, he picked up Noah's toys in the front room and took care of the laundry.  He has the last load in the dryer now!!!  He is good huh??  It is so nice out today, so after Noah got up from his nap and had a snack and helped daddy with the laundry for a few minutes, they went to the park.  I wanted to go, but I stayed home to get some more rest and decided to hop on here to see what all was going on.  I am so blessed with this man!!!  He said he will start on dishes and such when he gets back.  

Sweetie

Posted by momma25js on Friday, March 14, 2008 at 12:10 - Link

first off BIG HUGE HUGGERS!!!!! I love you and I know you miss rere she is a very special person whom was loved by everyone..

I am the one who has been hyper and coocoo trying to make you laugh this am, I guess I should have not wanted to take a shower so I could have kept you on the phone.. I love you and you know I am here I ain't no rere cause there will not ever be another, but I am what you got.. :)

Bit by Bit

Posted by AprilinRI on Friday, March 14, 2008 at 01:06 - Link

Well my dear you certainly made me laugh with how good you're doing at the eating. I hear you on this one! I'm glad you shared today - you're always so upbeat, I would never have known you were feeling down. Now there's nothing wrong with "going slow" sometimes. When you think about it, I'm sure there's times you're going to fast through the house and all your activities that your head would spin!

At the same time, it doesn't do any good to spend time down in the dumps. It can be hard to climb out!
Here is what I do when I feel overwhelmed about a big job: I set my kitchen timer for 5 minutes and work for 5 minutes. Sometimes this is just enough time to scrape last night's dinner into the disposal and run water to soak the pans. Well, later I'll do another 5.

Blessings to you!
April

Boy are We Blessed

Posted by Marseeya on Friday, March 14, 2008 at 11:13 - Link

I am so sorry that you are feeling so down and overwhelmed. Not that it is a great thing but as I read your post, I felt as I were looking at my own house. And I am not dealing with the loss of a loved one. But boy are we blessed! I have a wonderful supportive husband too! My prayers will be with you over the coming days. May the Lord be the healing balm for your soul and the provider of strength to deal with the day to day!
Marcia

your rough time...

Posted by stitchesbyteresa on Friday, March 14, 2008 at 11:38 - Link

I am so sorry you have so much going on right now. From your description, I think we are alot alike. I love to cheer up others, too and I am WAY too hyper when I am around friends/family. I also get down from being sick all the time. I just try not to get around other folks when I am down. I have a feeling you are worrying too much about your house. I hope your migraine has left! When you have a migraine, you really should not be doing anything. You might end up making things worse instead of better if you cognitive ability is anything like mine w/a migraine. I have to just make myself not try so hard when I am not up to a task. It is something you have to literally remind yourself to "let it go"...Lately, I try to actually RELAX, and that is very difficult, but it is sometimes needed, especially when you are physically burdened. Reading helps me relax. I am sorry about your mother and I hope you feel better soon!

BTW, I was also blessed by your update. It does sound like your hubby is trying to help you out. He sounds just great! I was given some good advice recently that I'll share here...in discussing the fact that I cant work and have to be at home and I beat myself up about it and I often cant do my home chores, I was asked "well, does your husband make you feel guilty for these things"...I was surprised by the question and said "no"...she said, well then, why are you letting it bother you? SO it has taken awhile, but I feel I have truly let this go. I remember the verses in the bible about giving these things to the Lord...the actual words "care for nothing..."...relating to worrying...if we give something over to Him, then it is no longer ours to worry over. Does that make sense? That's what encouraged me in letting go of my stressing over things out of my control. I hope it helps you, too.
(((HUGS)))

Hello!

Posted by RachelsReasoning on Saturday, March 15, 2008 at 12:48 - Link

Just wanted to come by and tell you there are some funny pictures of our chickens on my blog, just posted... Maybe they will make you feel better when you see them :)

Hope you feel better soon. :)

Love,
Rachel

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Posted by christianmommaali on Monday, March 17, 2008 at 07:43 - Link

What a MAN!! =] We are so blessed to have been given the husbands we were given. To be quite honest, I was a little sad yesterday as well, personal reasons, and was a bit behind on the housework and laundry, as well as dinner plans! (I had a "girlfriend" day yesterday, and we normally would never do that on Sundays, as that is God's day, and our family day to have to ourselves, but sometimes plans get mixed up, and so all the OTHER plans got mized up...and I got overwhelmed...Derek took over as well. He cleaned the kitchen, the dishes, the laundry, and even vaccuumed my poor neglected floors.

WE HAVE WONDEROUS MEN! Thats for sure!

I am rejoicing with you today my friend.

I hope your migraine has escaped you. Those are NO fun.

Love ya!!!