Friday, April 4, 2008
Really struggling today...
If you've ever read very far back on my blog, you'll see that last August we were quite surprised to learn that we were expecting a new little one. Our surprise and joy turned to sorrow mid month when we found out that it was an ectopic pregnancy and we spent the night in the hospital on our 12 yr old daughters birthday to get a methotrexate shot to dissolve the pregnancy. It was a horribly painful experience and I thought and almost wished, that I was dying at one point.
I guess I just really assumed that we'd be blessed again before the due date of that precious little one arrived, but that day is Sunday, and we have no new blessing to announce.
My heart is broken...Im sad and confused and feeling a little alone. I muttered at the cow today when she knocked me down because I'd rather be in the house nursing a new baby than out there milking a cow... though please dont get me wrong, I LOVE my cows and I am so grateful to have them!
I guess Im just trying to make some sort of sense out of it all in my head and I don't understand what the purpose of that loss was.... I've not seen yet how God will use that event in my life to further His kingdom or to build something in me. Where is the 'good' that is worked out in all things?
Anyway, if you've read this far, I do appreciate your prayers... for healing, for comfort and even for a new blessing if God would allow it.
Thanks 
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Friday, April 4, 2008 - Untitled Comment
 Posted by OklahomaSweetPea06
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I am sorry to hear about the loss in pregnancy, and I am sure your motherly instincts are true to the core, Tamara over at TrainingHearts.com is a wonderful person to talk to in regards to the loss of a child(no matter the length of pregnancy) and I am sure she will uplift you with kind words of encouragment. Try and have a good day and remember the Lord watches over you always, He knows the pain you are feeling, and He is there for you.
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Friday, April 4, 2008 - I'll pray for you!!
 Posted by meadow
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I know how hard it is to lose a baby this way and I'm so sorry. My daughter's first pregnancy was tubal, and that was after a struggle with infertility. It was heartbreaking. We had jumped for joy and screamed and cried when she was finally expecting. At first they told her she had miscarried which was hard enough, but then to find out the baby was indeed alive but in the tube that was ready to burst, it was even harder. I won't go into why, as I know you already have been there. I still grieve for that baby. It's so hard to lose a baby no matter how it happens. We love them from the moment we know they "are". Lifting you up in prayer today!
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Sunday, April 6, 2008 - Untitled Comment
 Posted by CaraDD
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Oh Jennifer, I'm so sorry. I pray you make it through the day and enjoy your beautiful family, knowing your little one is waiting for you in Heaven.
Cara
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