Thank you all for your words of comfort. They are so special to me. Tim finally told daughters about what was happening with their grandma. They took it so very hard and it was so heartbreaking to hear them cry.

i spoke with the hospice nurse on the phone yesterday and I asked her how long my mother has but she said she didn't know. It depends "on the Man upstairs" She did say that when the time is near they will contact us. So part of me is thinking that maybe she won't die soon but I know I have to be realistic. She's not eating much or anything at all because she can't swallow well. She's not in any pain the hospice nurse said. I wonder how they come up with that? How do they know that she isn't in any pain? They don't feel what she's feeling and maybe she can't communicate that the pain is  worse than birthing a 12 pound baby!

Then there's this nagging question that keeps running through my mind. What will it be like for her to die? What exactly is going to happen during this process?

When I found out Mama's cancer had returned I had hoped that she wouldn't suffer like she is now and that she would just go to sleep one night and not wake up. I know these are probably horrible thoughts but it's hard to see someone who was up and about in September and participating in life all of a sudden be be leaving us now?

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Posted by Mistypearl

Hello Regina.
I am so sorry to hear of the illness that has struck your family. It is so very hard to walk through something like this. My own father passed away several years ago, and he was sick for quite some time before he went to be with the Lord. I can not say I know exactly how you feel, but I can say I know that it is so painful to lose someone we love. I will pray for your mom, and for you. That the Lord will comfort you, and that she will be pain-free.
My thoughts and prayers are with you and your family.

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