Sugar Bend Farm

Beautiful start

I was awake by 5:00 this morning.  Got up to see Andrew off to work.  He only had to go in for a couple of hours, so that isn't to bad.  It is the first Sat he has had to work since changing jobs, so I guess I can't complain.  But there are so many things that need to get done around here and he only has Sat's to do them.  The weather over the last few weekends haven't been agreeable so that is leaving a lot of work to do right here at the beginning of spring.  The pasture still hasn't been completely fenced.  The garden spot needs to be tilled and prepared for planting.  The barn needs to be built in the pasture area so we can get Megan the horse she has wanted for so many years.  The yard is going to need mowing in the next week before it starts to get out of hand...so many things to do, this is just a partical list.  But the weather just won't cooperate.  But today...this morning I see the beginnings of a potentially good day.  The weather is cool, about 35 degrees, but it is suppose to get into the 50's today, and sunshine!! Oh the wonderful sunshine!  I have missed you so! 

The baby goats are doing well.  They are so cute to watch.  They jump off the ground with all fours and look like they are trying to see who can jump the highest.  I am not sure if that is a way to strengthen their legs or what?  These are our first kids that we have had born to one of our goats.  We have bought a couple of kids, but they were weened from mom when we got them.  So we are having a time with these girls.  Megan is so thrilled about them.  She goes out often to see them and see to them.  She is doing so well, and enjoys the farm chores.  Even cleaning out the old hay in the goat house and replacing it with fresh hay.  She is the little worker!  I just wish that Lauren would take more interest in the farm.  She has no interest in it at all.  Of course she is almost 17 and has other interest that include shopping for clothes, dressing well, and going places with her friends.  I guess I can't fault her for it, we raised her that way.  We always wanted to have the homestead lifestyle, but because of our moving around with Andrew's job, were unable to do that.  But now that we are settled we are starting to live the dream that we have always held.  But I suppose in the process our oldest child didn't get the dream that we held so dear.  She only saw the travel, the shopping and living the "fast" life.  Going, going, going...buying, buying, and buying for enertainment.  So I suppose I can't expect more from her than that.  I just hope that in time she will realize that those things won't fill your soul like the connection with home and God's creations can.  She is very mature for her age and sees a lot about life and has listen to me more than I realized when I was talking and trying to instill wisdom that took trial and error for me to learn.  She has seen my mistakes and has learned from some of them.  But she is still her own person and will need to learn somethings on her own.  Although I wish I could save my children from making mistakes and having to deal with the aftermath and pain involved with those mistakes.  I know that each person has to blaze their own trail and will face unpleasent things in life.  I suppose all I can do is just to be her to offer consolence when they need it and support and assistance when they ask.  I am just now starting the process of learning to let go a little bit and allow her to be her own person.  She isn't just my "little" girl she is becoming a young woman.  And she will need room to open up into the life that will be her own one day.  But I am trying to be the stable force that is waiting here with open arms for her to run back to when things are to much to handle and to scary for her.  It is a difficult process for both of us.  The learning to let go and be accessable at the same time.  I have faith in her, I feel I have raised her right and given her the tools she will need to face the world before her.  I know I have made mistakes, everyone does,  but I feel secure in the fact that she has gotten the important things that she needs to become a wonderful woman.  I know she is young and full of ideals and dreams, I don't want to take that from her.  But I also see the reality of things and the probability of things and try to offer the practical wisdom without squashing her dreams. 

Well, the beautiful morning is slipping away as I sit here on this computer.  Also, Noah is waking and stretching and will be wanting to have a bottle soon, so I will end this here and bid each of you a wonderful day ahead.