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Saturday

Posted on Sat 8 Apr 2006 at 02:42

Well, I sit her giving an update, on my couch with my heating pad. Oh my monthly cycles, just knock me out. I have been taking Pastulla that is helping but still. Yuck. My hubby took calvin with him on a side job, because he knew I was crabby and not feeling well.

I sit and ponder why? The Lord has not chosen to bless us with anymore babies. It is going on two years. I know to some that seems like and eternity.(myself included) but to some I know thats just a drop in the bucket. I know the Lord has a plan, but man sometimes I wish I knew what that plan was.

So dh and I last night were having another one of our deep conversations. We were talking about our church. I am not fond of it. My hubby likes it enough for us to stay. My hubby and I are both christians who belive in the savior and the bible, but man oh man we are two total oppisites otherwise. I am an old fashion, by the bible, very conservitive chrisitan. I could live with the amish and be fine. My dh on the other hand is just a main stream christian. I just call him my liberal christian. Sometimes I think why oh why Lord did you make us so oppisite. It causes me so much grief sometimes. I am ready to leave my church have been for a long long time, but have to stay there because hubby likes it. Oh well.

Enough of my ramblings. Have a great weekend.

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Posted on Sat 8 Apr 2006 at 03:50 by murieldelecourt

Poor Casondra, I sympathize so much with you.
I also fight with this problem, I already have been blessed with 3 children but my youngest just turned 5 last week. We have been praying for more than 3 years, and nothing yet. I'm 37 yet and I'm not sure I will have another baby, I also had an early miscarriage last year...
You are much younger than me, may be you should ask your doctor, sometimes it's just a simple problem very easy to solve.
I keep you in my prayers
God bless you
Muriel

Monday

Posted on Mon 10 Apr 2006 at 08:03 by Cathy

Casondra,
I hope you are feeling better. I know it's so hard to understand the Lord's timing on things. I know He does have a plan for you. Thinking of you and talk soon on the "Homestead".
Blessing my friend,
Cathy

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Posted on Tue 11 Apr 2006 at 07:35 by HillmanAcres

Hi Casondra- please honey, don't get discouraged by your husband's "liberal" Christianity. It may seem that way to you, but God uses men like that if they are allowed to grow. I used to lament that my husband wasn't a stronger Christian. Now I realize that he was just an immature one. It has taken years, but the Holy Spirit is knocking on his heart now and I am seeing a man of God emerge.

I hope you are feeling better soon- I have been crabby also this week- we must be in the same cycle :)

Leah

Others Like You

Posted on Wed 12 Apr 2006 at 09:57 by runnelsrhapsody

Just wanted to let you know there are others of us in the same boat, just miles away. We've been trying for 18 months for our second child as well and are asking the WHY question of the Lord. Like you, we greatly enjoy our first child and delight in the joys of parenting, so we wonder why the Lord chooses to withhold His blessings sometimes. But we have to rest and trust His heart when we can't see His hand moving on our behalf. Blessings to you!