• 2008-Jan-6 - Sunday musings

I am tired this morning.  I still do not sleep well.  I sleep through my alarm...sometimes by the time I wake up, it's been going off for almost 5 minutes!  Then I don't even wake up...I'm only alert enough to apparently hit the snooze button.  I need to figure something out about that. Today is church, and I'm happy about that.  I'm off work until Thursday, so I guess I can have a 'normal' few days.  There are a few places I need to go this week, some mail to manage, and then of course there is housework to do.  I guess today I will try to plan my week a little bit.  I promised B-boy some Monopoly this afternoon too.  My boy is gonna grow up to give Donald Trump a run for his money, I'm thinking.  LOL  Last night, for some reason, he started asking his Dad questions about the impending divorce.  I have no idea what brought it on.  He hadn't said a thing to me about it.  B usually doesn't say a whole lot about what's happened, so I tried to talk to him a little bit to see how he's feeling.  Typical kid, he said "I know it's all my fault, everything was fine until I was born.  Having kids is stressful, another mouth to feed and all that".  HUNH?!  Where he heard something like that, I do not know.  I'm hoping it's just something he heard on tv, and maybe then internalized it.  I told him that it has NOTHING to do with him.  Absolutely NOTHING.  I tried to reassure him and let him know that our family is not 'broken', but just different now.  Even though I myself don't believe a word of that b.s....yes, our family is broken.  But, I wanted to make him feel better...seeing him cry was like a knife in my heart.    I hate that things are like this.  For them, and for me. I see all these people who separated for a time, or never separated but had bad marriages...their marriages worked out because they were willing to work at it a second time.  Why can't that happen to me?  I need to want the plan God has for me...but it's hard when #1. I do not know what it is, and #2. I have to let go of a part of my life that I do not want to let go of.  There are so many things that factor in to all this. as is said at W@H:  *le sigh* On a much happier note, Green Bay plays the Seattle Seachickenshawks next Saturday at 3:30.  I should be able to see most of the game, woohoo!!!!  GO, PACK, GO!!!!  It's a bonus that they will be at Lambeau, too.  I'm hoping they go all the way this year!!!

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• 2008-Jan-6 - Football

Shared by Cathy North

Go Packers!!!! I did watch the game last night between the Redskins and Chickenhawks (oops, I mean Seahawks) though and Holy Cow!! Brett and the Pack better be ready to BRING IT, because the Seahawks are out for blood! GO PACKERS!!!!!!!

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