Well I married my husband "for better or for worse,"  but then "the Orkin Man" came along...

I am very much into health.  You know herbs, nutrition, good environment and all that.  I was a vegetarian for 19.5 years thinking that was the way to be healthy.  I am now a recovering vegetarian and am learning how to prepare and eat healthy (when I can) meat.  We still eat tons of vegetables but have severely reduced and altered our grain type carbs. 

I believe in organics although find eating all organic to be outside of our pocketbook's range right now.  As soon as we can get our little farm up and going, we will be able to eat a lot more organically again.  In Pennsylvania, we belonged to a CSA and just delighted in the box of fresh organic vegies each week.  We also had a garden there and ate a lot more organic food.  We had a fresh supply of organic, raw milk and were in the process of switching most of our household chemicals to more healthful options.

Since the big move to Washington we have not yet become fully connected and found affordable sources of the most healthy foods etc.  I am working on it.  We have found the Weston A. Price Foundation Chapter Leaders and they are a Grade A Certified Raw Milk Dairy.  They are even willing to barter!  And we are finding quite a few organic options in the grocery stores.  Even the food bank which we have been able to utelize here often has organic past dates produce! 

Since my recent miscarriage, I have been a bit more concerned about health and the environmental toxins.  We talked about trying again in the next few months to get pregnant, even though the miscariage was from a pregnancy that was very unplanned, we would lke to add one or two more pieces of heavenly chaos to our family.  Then, what should dear hubby do, but apply for a job that would pay acceptably for our needs, and that fits his work style very nicely.  BUT, does not fit our/my lifestyle philosophies at all.  (It's kind of like when I worked at McDonalds as a Vegetarian.)  He applied to become the Orkin Man. 

Well, the idea of him being employed really appealed to both of us.  The driving all over North Idaho part really appealed to him.  The driving around with his own route to service, part really fits his style.  (He doesn't prefer a sit at a desk all day kind of job.)  The financial compensation isn't fabulous, but it will certainly help us start getting back on our feet.  BUT, the spraying chemicals (pesticides at that) all over himself (accidentally of course), and in and out of people's homes really doesn't appeal to either of us. 

So now I'm scared to even think about getting pregnant and he's nervous about it.  It will probably be "fine" but ....

He comes home everyday and thoughtfully bags his clothing at the door, hops in the shower and is taking all the precautions he can to not contaminate any of us, but there's always that nagging hmmmm.... 

Life is full of inconsistencies, unknowns, hardships and joys.  We can control many things but there are many things we have to just sit back and let go of.  I'm not there yet with this one, I keep hoping and praying he'll be offered a better job.  But I will stick it out "for better or for worse."  It would be better to have harmful effects from a physical ailment here on earth than harmful effects from a discontented heart through eternity.