The Bigger Half
Monday, July 21, 2008
picture pages, picture pages

... and I never even watched Captian Kangaroo.  Had no idea he was until I was a teenager.

Figure a link to my Flickr photos is better than nothing since I haven't the time at the moment to post them here on the blog.  So here ya go.  With love, from all the little Willies:  http://www.flickr.com/photos/11114310@N04/

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Saturday, July 19, 2008
Whooping cough, free with every purchase

(wrote this Thrusday and forgot to post it!)

Finally getting around to having that yard sale. Sort of a "moving-in" sale. We’ve been here nearly two years and still had things to unpack. Actually, I have boxes of things I packed up when I married Bobby and we moved into our first home that I still hadn’t unpacked... that was nearly nine years ago. Oh boy.  Needless to say I can live without all that and most of it's in the sale.

With this whooping cough deal and all our free time at home we’ve started going through a lot of stuff. Bobby’s the only non-contagious one so he’s in charge and the rest of us run and hide when someone pulls in the drive. This works out wonderful for me because I hate the dealing with people part and am likely to just give everything away.

At our current home the only outbuildings we have are the barn and coop, which we built, and the well pump house, which holds a few outdoor tools like rakes and shovels. No storage. All our need-to-store-out-of-the-way items find their way to the laundry room (Bobby’s tools really, really need their own room!) or to the unfinished attic (someday bedroom), affectionately dubbed the "Spare Oom." A LOT finds it’s way to the Spare Oom. I finally kicked the habit of saving every article of clothing "for the next kid" and wow did that free up some space! Being able to donate to our Community Closet helps a lot, as well as to replenish our wardrobe for free from there when we need to. Last week I went through all the kids current clothes and reduced the number of articles drastically. The two older girls each got to keep 4 short sleeve shirts, 4 long sleeve shirts, a small mix of summer and winter dresses/jumpers, a couple skirts, couple pairs of pants, and a couple pair of "creek shorts." The younger kids keep a little more because they just go through them so much more often, but they each were freed of at least half their wardrobe. That, combined with my own yearly wardrobe thinning, filled about 8 trash bags full!!! What a ridiculous excess we have in America, eh?

So, there are few clothes in our sale because they all went to the Community Closet, but there’s plenty of other junk. Toys... so many toys... about 1/4 of them mine from my childhood. Tons of boxes to go through... old magazines, calendars, cookbooks... (sigh) You know how it is. Anyway, I’m very excited about getting rid of it all. We agreed that most of what doesn’t sell we will attempt to give away (freecycle.org) and the rest burns or goes to the dump!

So that’s what we’re up to today...

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Saturday...
                Everyone's doing about about the same.  I've been able to sleep pretty well with no coughing for four nights now (if I stay semi-propped up at first).  But it tickles a lot through the day.  The 3 older Willies cough and vomit at times during the night as well as the day but it doesn't phase them now (kids are sooo adaptable) and I don't usually have to get up with them at night.  Blue coughed a little yesterday as she was waking from her nap, but no idea yet if it's pertussis or just a regular cough.  Royal still coughs a little.  Bobby's test result came yesterday and it was negative for pertussis.  (shrug)  False negative?  Too early to show up on the test?  Maybe he didn't have it very bad?  Maybe it was just sympathy coughing?  He's just about done with the antibiotics.

We're getting pretty tired of not seeing everyone.  We've got at least two weeks to go before we can socialize again.  Another month if Blue's cough turns into more.  Last night there was a gathering at the Martin's and we honked and waved as we drove by (had an errand in town)... the kids playing ball out front waved and my heart ached to be there!  Bobby's been able to hang out with his friend Jason and has been placing letter boxes and scoping out new places to hike and place letterboxes.  He's been running most of our errands and enjoys the freedom.

A friend also asked about my pregnancy.  Here's my email response:

      Oh yeah... I'm pregnant, aren't I?  =)  There's so much else going on I don't think much about being pregnant.  I'm somewhat conscious of it when I eat and drink (eat small meals, drink tons of water!)... But when you're not running around to doctor's appointments and such and you don't have anyone pampering you (ha ha)... and you're busy with goats and garden and pertussis and yard sales...  you know, what's a little pregnancy?  It's nice, I think, to just have the time fly by without dwelling on it.  I had stop and think last night of how far along I am.  Something around 4 months, I think.  I have it written down, of course.  Starting to show, starting to feel it a little.  I spent so much time on my feet the last two days my back was sore and I was out in the heat a lot and it just drained me.  I drank and drank and drank and still ended up with a headache that felt like dehydration.  I guess it's harder because I'm pregnant... So, I have little reminders like that.  I dread getting big and being out and about and having people pat my house-sized belly and talk about it... I just want it over with already.
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        That's all for now.  Nothing interesting going on, nothing interesting to even write about!  But I thought everyone might like an update.  Maybe I can get some pics up here soon.


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Sunday, July 13, 2008
Cough cough cough

Guess what?  Yup, we're still sick!  Things are going along about the same... maybe the symptoms are worse but we're settling into the routine of endless vomiting and laundry so it's a little better in a sense.  Unfortunately the Momma of the house is getting worse.  It's settling into my chest now and it's terrible at night when I try to sleep.  Once I get to sleep it doesn't wake me, so that's something.   About the same for the kids, I guess.  Within a half hour of putting them to bed we have one or two vomiting (and Farra, though not vomiting, is still up coughing) but once it's over they sleep the night through.  Seth coughs and sputters more during the day than anyone else.  And though we're all up late with this, I don't get to sleep in like the kids do because of the goaties!  (And forget napping.  It takes a couple hours to get to sleep with this tickly throat and by the time that's passed I have to get up!)  Bobby had mercy on me this morning and did chores so I could get an extra couple hours sleep (I begged him).   Chores are remarkably easier now that we've weaned the baby goats.
        Bobby's back to work tomorrow, at least for a day or two.  I'm hoping Kelly will officially lay him off after that so he can collect unemployment until the next out of town job in a few weeks.  Usually, though, he gives him a few odd hours of work here and there.   Praying about it.  The Lord knows.
          Not much else going on.  Bobby wanted to get out today so we did a little letterboxing.  Kept it to short trails to not over-do our bacteria-fighting bods.  The weather is beautiful since the humidity dropped some and it was nice to be out.  Of course, that meant that the house didn't get cleaned and only half my garden got weeded this morning and I got the cauliflower and broccoli in and frozen but didn't harvest any more calendula or get to those green beans...  and the pool we started filling this morning is only half full of water and we still haven't found that leak in it...  But there's always tomorrow, right?  You know, while Bobby's working...
        I sure miss the fellowship.  I miss being in a room full of believers all signing praise, encouraging and admonishing one another...  doing what the body does...  But people are calling and writing email and letting us know we're not forgotten.  Looks like we're out of the loop for at least another month, if Blue doesn't get sick.  Deep breath... (cough cough) we can do this!    ...  With His help alone.

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Thursday, July 10, 2008
Well THAT's discouraging

I spent about an hour last night updating ya'll here on the blog...  only to discover this morning that it it was never posted.  Man....  I hate rewriting.   I think I'll go back to my former method of writing it out in Works and saving it, THEN posting it here.  Sometimes that doesn't go real smoothly in the format department, but at least my material is safe. 

Well, the gist of it is the pertussis update.  We had two vomit-free nights but last night apparently made up for that.  I've been trying to make our afternoon meal the biggest of the day instead of the evening meal and that's made a huge difference.  Last night, though, I made pizza because my dad was here (he came to install an air conditioner in our bedroom wall - I wrote about how fantastic he is but it's all gone and I can't get it back!  But he's still fantastic) and the kids pigged out.  Oh what a mess...
        Bobby was sent home from work Monday because he was coughing.  We opted for antibiotics for him to shorten the communicability to 5 days (from yesterday, day 1 of antibiotics) so he can get back for work.  Unfortunately, his boss doesn't have anything going on for awhile after this week, maybe even until the next out of town job (in August, I think).  But there's already talk that he might have some odd jobs in the mean time.  The Lord will provide.  He already has in the way of Bobby's out-of-town-job pay raise...  this just means it won't be extra.  It's never extra...  but I'm thankful that there's always enough, always just in time.
         Farra, Atira and Seth are still coughing, Blue still remains unaffected.  I'm coming down with it and the tickly feeling in my scratchy throat kept me up late last night... I'd gone to bed early because I was soooo tired.  But, thanks to Dad, I should be able to get a good nap in my cool bedroom this afternoon!

Bother... there was so much more I'd written... about Bobby's work and his boss, about the herbal remedies we're using, about the baby guineas that hatched the other day, about the stray cat I boldly delivered to my parents' house without permission thinking Mom would like it, knowing how Dad feels about strays in general and cats in particular....(sigh)  Oh well.  Tomorrow's another day.

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Sunday, July 6, 2008
Perserverance...

Atira still has paroxysms (viloent coughing fits w/ whooping) and vomiting most nights.  Last night as I was getting her back to sleep Seth (the older four share a room) coughed quite a bit and you could hear the intensity growing and he started "whooping" a little.  Gagging, too.  I don't know if he vomited or not... everyone's still asleep.  They've been sleeping in late most mornings and I'm so glad they're getting that rest.
       Bobby coughed a bit more than usual yesterday and we're waiting to see if it gets worse (and praying it doesn't) or if it was nothing.
       My foot's nearly all better.  I just have to be careful how I step and not to be on it too much or it gets real sore.  But it's not even black and blue thanks to the comfrey.

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Friday, July 4, 2008
Pertussis update and goaty decisions

Just tell me when you get sick of updates...   :)    Atira had only one fit last night and Bobby was still awake (though I'd been asleep for an hour) and he helped with it and witnessed the violence of it for the first time.  The key seems to be letting her cough through it and then get her calmed down as quickly as possible so she doesn't start again.  She laid down on her bed (propping up does seem to help) and I talked to and prayed with her, rubbing her back, and she fell right to sleep.  Slept peacefully all night.  The most remarkable thing about this all is how normal they are during the day.  They drag a little bit, a little tired, but it's not even as bad as a cold aside from those fits.
        We're thinking of going ahead and catching a fireworks display somewhere tonight, but because of the pertussis we'll have to avoid people and won't get to hang out with our dear friends like we were planning to.  I know the kids would enjoy it (duh) and I'm kinda sick of sitting around myself!  I can hobble around pretty good but that foot does start to throb if I'm on it for long.  I poked around in my garden yesterday and overdid it.  But my plants missed me!
        We called the Martins to come pick up the Brownie goat.  Just can't get used to her milk and although, like I said before, we feed it to the babies and it frees up the tasty milk for us, we decided it was just that much more work.  I really prayed about whether to sell all the goats, sell some... how to not "give up" but still practice wisdom in knowing what I can handle right now.  At first I had my mind made up about what we should do, but as I prayed it became less and less clear and I really wanted to know what Bobby and my older kids thought.  Well Bobby insisted we stick it out and keep Gran and Dessy.  The girls felt stronger than I expected about keeping their two doelings.  We talked about means of management and quickly came to a workable solution.  The biggest blessing for me was realizing that I'm not in this alone.  Most of the time I assume I'm the only one commited to homesteading (though the kids love the animals, of course) and the whole burden is on me.  But this goat discussion taught me that I was wrong.  And boy, sometimes it feels so good to be wrong!   If you know Bobby you're probably amazed that he had an opinion on it at all... he's a very laid back guy that usually takes the "whatever" approach, espeically to "my" projects.  The fact that he holds an opinion on this subject is enough for me!  The rule is:  If he cares at all, we do it his way!
          We're going to sell the two almost 3-month old wethers ("August Leggo Larry" and "Log" - aka, Auggy and Loggy the Lunchmeat brothers) at the swapmeet this weekend (or at least try).  We were going to raise them and butcher them this fall, but I don't see how it's sensible.  If we had an area for them to browse, it'd be different.  But it's not cost effective to be buying hay.   We were given two cable runs that we hooked up for Gran and Dessy which freed up the corkscrew tethers.  We'll put the two doelings on them.  Farra and Atira are commited to tackling this with the knowledge that if it gets to be too much work for Momma, the doelings go.  I think we have a workable plan and I'm feeling very good about it.
        Now, about those chickens we were offered...   
        A friend of a friend lives near a farm that raises chickens for Tyson.  Tyson came to pick up their birds and ended up not taking about 3,000 birds the farm had raised for them.  This friend of a friend saw an opportunity and bought about 2,000 birds at 50 cents a piece.  He's going to get them to butchering size and will sell them for 75 cents each in 2-3 weeks.  My friend wanted to know if I would want any and how many?   Well, I'm the only one she's talked to that has freezer space....  but gosh, look a few posts back to see how my first butchering experience went!  I would have to hire someone and by then I'd be paying about what I'd pay in the store... for the same cage-raised bird!  They're talking about having a big butchering day and my friend and her husband are going to do about 100 birds themselves.  It's tempting...  but I think we're going to pass.   Bobby liked the idea of getting cheap food, but when I asked, "Well, are you willing to help butcher?"  he decided it wasn't such a good deal after all.
        And that's what's going on at the Willie Farm today...


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Thursday, July 3, 2008
A peaceful night

We made it through the night!  'Course, I didn't think we wouldn't... but...  I struggled in a way I never have.  I dreaded bed time and my heart ached so bad when I tucked my little Willies in.  I prayed and prayed for peace and the Word kept going through my mind, "I will lie down and sleep for you, oh Lord, make me dwell in safety."  I knew this applied and that I was trying to be in control of something that was in his hands alone.

Atira had a tiny fit within 20 minutes of lying down and spit up only a little.  She didn't vomit the rest of the night and is still sleeping peacefully.  Thank you, Lord!!!  The others slept pretty well, too.   And, my foot feels better.  Now that it doesn't hurt everywhere, I realize the pain's not in my ankle but more so the top of my foot.  I can stand on it but the actual movement of walking hurts.  I figure another couple days of babying it and I'll be good.
     I was thinking of calling my sister to come over and help today but Bobby surprised me by staying home for that purpose.  He gets up about an hour earlier than me and leaves for work 15-20 minutes before I come down.  Today I came down and saw he'd unloaded and reloaded the dishwasher and it blessed my heart so.  I didn't realize until I reached for the milk pans and "found" them missing that he was still here.  I gimped down the hill to the barn and he had just finished the milking!  The only thing that would have made it better is if I'd known he was doing it so I didn't even have to get out of bed.  :)  But he wanted to surprise me.  Color me surprised.  He milked all the goats last night, too,  while the kids and I instructed him (Granny gets three cups, Dessy and Brownie get four each, don't forget to share with the kittens, etc)  and did the other barn chores.    The goats are a little confused by his way of doing things and Granny expressed her displeasure this morning by trying to sit on him, but I guess they'll get use to it.  He and the goats, both.  :)

I'm so blessed.


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Wednesday, July 2, 2008
Ha ha, very funny, God

You know from my previous posts that I've been struggling to stay on top of things around here.  My mornings begin with a desperate plea to the Father to help me, to give me the strength I need for each day.  My last post I mentioned crying out to Him and his answer to "remember."  Well, I should mention my ackknowledgement that the fact that he's the one that provides for my every need is more of a head knowledge than a heart knowledge... and my tiny wisp of a prayer that he not let me forget not just where I can from, but who I still am without him.  Helpless.  Worthless.   The prayer that you're sometimes afraid to pray out loud because you know it's going to hurt.... but the one you make anyway because you know what's good for you.

I figured out this morning (with the help of the internet and an interesting website with sound clips) that my childrens' continual hacking cough is pertussis, or whooping cough.  Atira has had violent coughing and vomiting spells every night for the past week but feels pretty good during the day.  Royal coughed mildly for a couple weeks before that and is over it.  Farra and Seth both cough all day , but don't (yet?) have the violent fits with the whooping noise.   I've been just taking it a day at a time but my heart breaks for my little girl as I rush down the stairs in the middle of the night to her aid, clean her vomit and calm her down.  Every day means cleaning up vomit and doing a load or two of extra laundry.  Getting up with the goats after not-enough sleep is soooo hard.  From what I've read and heard, we could be going through this for a couple months.  This morning I called my dearest friend and asked her to pray for us as I try to weed out unneccessary work in my life (mainly - do we sell some or all of the goats? We'd start again in a year or two after we installed some fencing and finished up our barn) and to remember that I can't do it all even if I tried....  I've been struggling so hard to get things done (I don't have a single clean room in my house and it's driving me nuts) that I'm forgetting the important things... things we enjoy, things that bring peace. Taking time during the day to sing, listen to music, read, draw... whatever... just to do something because we enjoy it, do it together, not in a rush...
         Well, anyway.  I was off the phone with my friend for all of ten minutes... directing the kids to their different cleaning tasks while I headed out to the garden with a bag of compost material...  I called her back, "Guess who just sprained her ankle?"     That last step off our deck is kinda steep and I twisted my foot as I hopped off of it.  I fell to the ground in consuming pain, immediately comensing to cry all my frustrations out of my systems, immediately recognizing the Lord's hand in it.  I was crying and laughing, an odd, disturbing sight (I get it from my mom and grandpa, who have the same strange habit when they reached that breaking point)...   Hobbled inside to find my littlest two screaming and fighting over something...  sat down, propped my foot up and cried some more.  I was in pain, but as for being overwhelmed... seems the Lord knew just what I needed and I felt so loved (sounds weird, I know).  He pushed me past that point where I could possible handle things myself and I felt it incredibly liberating!  i called my friend then and she prayed with and encouraged me.  She's so great.
          Later I called my friend Whitney and she brought over some comfrey ointment she'd made when her brother broke his collar bone.  After the initial propping and icing it felt better but still hurts to get around.  I applied the comfrey and a bandage but otherwise I've been relaxing on the couch enjoying the kids, praying, praising the Lord, bossing the kids around (it's amazing what they can do all on their own when I'm unable, including all the laundry steps, making lunch, tethering goats, changing diapers), taking a nap...    I did tell my family last night how very overwhelmed I was feeling and how I would love just a little break...    {laf}  The Lord is so good.  The worst thing I forsee is having to sleep on the couch instead of upstairs in my comfy bed so I don't have to manuver the stairs in the middle of the night when the kids start vomiting.  Hmm...

A side note...  although, from what I read and hear, there's not much traditional medicine can do to help with whooping cough, we're using herbs to hopefully speed the process along.  The kids are enjoying echinacea/vit C tea blends for an immune boost, mullein tea for the respitory infection and homemade mullein cough drops.  We bought a vaporizer to use in their room at night and put a few drops of euculyptus oil in it.  We're encouraging them to sleep propped up on bean bags as lying down flat seems to irritate the condition.  If anyone has anything else to recommend, I am totally open to hearing it! 


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Monday, June 30, 2008
unwanted advertising

Ah!  I just discovered the ads in my "more on midwives" post... I guess I accidently copied them and pasted them or something but I can't seem to get rid of them.  The edit window won't let me edit.  Sorry!

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Monday, June 30, 2008
Friends, family, letterboxing

Wow.  How great to have my darling dear home again.  His work trip to Ohio went smashingly well.  It took them only 4 days plus a walk-thru on the 5th to install all the do-dads that trim carpeters install in fancy pizza joints.  He left last Sunday and was home Sat night, all bubbling with energy (usually he's very drained).  And he got a $500 raise (he's paid a lump sum per week for out of town work).  He's back to local work tomorrow, which pays well per hour, just doesn't involve that many hours.  But it's work and it's just about the best job he's ever had.

The Saturday before he left we started a new little adventure called letterboxing.  Letterboxing.org has all you need to know, but I'll brief you here.  You need a rubber stamp, ink pad, an ink pen and a log book.  You visit the above website and find directions/clues to letterboxes all over the world (you can start local, like us, and collect stamps as you travel).  You'll probably need a compass but if you stick with the easier ones you won't need real map/compass skills, just knowing your directions (N, S, E,W) and how to count paces (2 steps = 1 pace).  When you find the letterbox, which is often a ziplock bag or tupperware container, it should contain a rubber stamp and a log book.  You stamp your family's stamp into the log book in the LB and stamp theirs into you family's log book.  We write the date and sometimes comments in the LB's log, usually including a brief scripture.  We also discovered a thing called a flea, which is a little hitchhiking stamp in addition to the main stamp.  You stamp it, too, and then carry it with you to another letterbox.

So last Saturday we hunted down two letter boxes with my sister (Vince was working) and the Raddest Family In Town.  To find one we had to hike about 2.5 miles of fairly rough terrain, all over Taum Sauk mountain, the highest point in MO, about 45 minutes from here.  Very neat, but for the most part you don't know you're so high up because you're surrounded by trees and it looks like every other beautiful forest in MO.  But every now and then you break into a glade and have a wonderful view of the surrounding St. Francis mountains.  I drank tons of water and snacked on GORP the whole way and actually did really well energy-wise.  And by Thursday my legs didn't hurt at all.

Bobby was gung-ho to find more letterboxes as soon as he got back so yesterday we gathered the same gang, including Vince this time, and headed back to Iron county, this time to Elephant Rocks State Park.  Ahh, paved trails.  Royal walked that one instead of being back packed and boy did he enjoy that.  After finding the box there we headed to Farmington's Pickle Springs.  Again, rough terrain up and down woodsy mountain country.  Two letterboxes there.  We'd bought Vince the supplies to carve he and Galidee a stamp (a rubber eraser works well) and he worked on that on the trip out there.  Homemade stamps are the coolest!

Bobby is very fired up and ready to place some letterboxes of our own.  He carved out a stamp and got everything ready last night.  I think he and Farra are going today to place it down the road at Amidon Conservation Area - AKA Castor River Shut-ins - AKA "Pink Rocks."  We have a couple other cool places in mind and I'm sure he'll be working on boxes for those this week.

Yesterday was such a blessing.  Well, the whole weekend really.  Just as the sun was setting Friday (yay, Sabbath!)  I discovered a soggy patch of ground outside and after a bit of investigating deduced that the water line into the house had sprung a leak (no!  not on Sabbath!).  The coldness of the water under my toes was a good clue.  It could be nothing but water from the well.  I called Mom and Dad (I have such great parents) and Dad said to turn the pump off for the night, so I did.  Try as you might, you just cannot remember to not flush the toilet....

Saturday we had a regular digging party (my favorite Sabbath activity!).  The Raddest Family In Town came over, Vince and Galidee, the Martin boys, and even my neighbor Angela stopped by and helped.  We had it dug out and found that the leak was at the coupler/reducer several feet away from the house.  Then the pros, my folks, arrived.  Dad assessed the problem and he and Vince ran back to town for parts.  Everyone else visited for awhile then drifted off for lunch and things.  Dad and Vince got our pipe fixed back up and as soon as we can get a bit of sand to put around the pipe we'll fill the hole back in.  They hung out and visited for awhile and it was really a very pleasant afternoon (and I'm not just saying that because I got to show off my garden).  I'm blessed to have such friends and family to come out and help me and I'm very glad the whole repair job didn't cost more than a few dollars!

We picked Bobby up later that night, stayed up way too late, and, like I said, went letterboxing the next day.  After LBing we all BBQ'd at Gal & Vince's house.  How nice to hike all day knowing someone else was going to cook dinner!  Anyway...  it was just one of those days when you're so vividly aware how much the Lord has blessed you, just by looking at the people around you.  Not just what good relationships you have, how much you enjoy each other's company, but each individual person and where they've come from, what God is doing in their lives.  I needed it so much... I had a really rough week spiritually. When I would cry out to the Lord and open his Word all I could see was the word "remember" jumping off the page... "Remember what I brought you out of..."   Boy, dwelling on that will cure spiritual apathy quickly and surely.   Last night as we all sat visiting we talked a little about things from the past and it wasn't really deep and spiritual or anything but it served a beautiful confirmation for me.  God has really brought Bobby and I a long, long way and I have much to be thankful for. 


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Friday, June 27, 2008
Opponents of Midwives Launch Smear Campaign

FOR IMMEDIATE RELEASE:  Thursday, June 26, 2008

Opponents of Midwives Launch Smear Campaign

In a Desperate Attempt, Play the ‘Abortion Card’

JEFFERSON CITY, MO (June 26, 2008)—Just hours after the Missouri Supreme Court ruling that declares Missouri families now have legal access to professional midwives to help deliver babies in the state, the coalition of physician groups that tried to fight the law in question have launched a misinformation campaign seemingly designed to cast doubt among citizens, and based on false claims that the new law will permit Certified Professional Midwives (CPMs) to perform abortions.

“To suggest that CPMs are trained to do abortions—or that they would even want to—is beyond the pale. CPMs are all about delivering babies—abortion is not within their scope of practice. Abortions are performed by obstetricians, not by midwives,” said Mary Ueland, Grassroots Coordinator for Friends of Missouri Midwives (FOMM). “But considering that the Missouri physicians association told their own members last year that this legislation would allow bricklayers and crane operators to deliver babies, I’m not surprised at this new attempt to distort the truth.”

Certified Nurse-Midwives (CNMs), who are licensed and regulated in all 50 states, are trained to deliver babies in the hospital and to provide family planning and well-woman care. Certified Professional Midwives (CPMs), by contrast, limit their scope of practice to the management and care of healthy women experiencing normal pregnancies. They also undergo specialized training to qualify as experts in the provision of out-of-hospital maternity care.

“This interpretation is incorrect and obviously so,” stated Susan Jenkins, Legal Counsel for the National Birth Policy Coalition and a member of the legal team for the Friends of Missouri Midwives. “The new law clearly references the federal Medicaid statutes to define the scope of practice for which CPMs are certified and, as everyone knows, the federal Medicaid program does not cover abortion, except under rare circumstances as defined by the Hyde Amendment. More importantly, CPMs are not certified to provide abortions by their certifying body, the North American Registry of Midwives, and this statute is directly linked to CPMs certified scope of practice. The basic certification of CNMs does not include abortion either.”

In a 5 to 2 ruling Tuesday, the Missouri Supreme Court upheld a law that legalizes Certified Professional Midwives (CPMs) who practice in the state. The Court determined that the physician groups that brought the suit to overturn the law lacked standing because their only interest in the case was economic. The decision makes legal Certified Professional Midwives (CPMs) and removes the threat of prosecution to professional midwives who assist families who choose out-of-hospital birth. State and national birth and midwives advocates hailed the ruling as a triumphant and historic moment in Missouri ’s history and evidence of a tipping point at hand on the national scale.

The Court’s summary is posted online. With this ruling, Missouri joins the majority of other states where Certified Professional Midwives are legal. There are only nine remaining states where they are prohibited. Twenty-four states license CPMs.

Missouri is a priority of The Big Push for Midwives Campaign <http://www.TheBigPu shforMidwives. org>, a nationally coordinated campaign to advocate for regulation and licensure of Certified Professional Midwives (CPMs) in all 50 states, the District of Columbia and Puerto Rico, and to push back against the attempts of the American Medical Association Scope of Practice Partnership to deny American families access to legal midwifery care. The Big Push for Midwives Campaign is the first initiative of the National Birth Policy Coalition (NBPC). Through our work, we are building a new model of U.S. maternity care delivery at the local and regional levels. At the heart of this new model is the Midwives Model of Care, which is based on the fact that pregnancy and birth are normal life processes.

Media inquiries about the Missouri Supreme Court case should be directed to Mary Ueland at (417) 543-4258, grassroots@friendso fmomidwives. org. Media inquiries about The Big Push for Midwives Campaign should be directed to Steff Hedenkamp at (816) 506-4630, RedQuill@kc. rr.com.

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Friends of Missouri Midwives www.friendsofMOmidw ives.org

Missouri Midwives Association  www.missourimidwive sassociation. org

Show-Me Freedom in Healthcare  www.showmefreedompa c.org

Free the Midwives  www.freethemidwives .org

The Big Push for Midwives  www.TheBigPushforMi dwives.org

 

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Friday, June 27, 2008
More on midwives

Here's some articles regarding the reinstating of the midwifery law.  I particularly like the first one. 

Midwives Brace for Future Battle - Post Dispatch
http://www.stltoday.com/stltoday/news/stories.nsf/missouristatenews/story/C5A49E98DA26855E8625747400114F67?OpenDocument

Legalization of Midwifery...a technicality that began with a tuck
http://learfield.typepad.com/missourinet/2008/06/legalization-of.html

Door Opens for Midwifery - Columbia Tribune
http://www.columbiatribune.com/2008/Jun/20080625News001.asp

 

The part that thrills me to no end (you know, aside from being able to have a mdiwife help deliver my baby at home!) is this (from the St. Louis Post Dispatch):

"On Tuesday, non-nurse midwives won their long-running battle to deliver babies without fear of prosecution as the Missouri Supreme Court tossed out a lawsuit filed by doctors' groups.

The suit had claimed that a midwives measure passed last year was unconstitutional because it covered too many subjects. The court said the doctors lacked legal standing to challenge the law."

The big dogs that came against us are these:
The Missouri State Medical Association
The Missouri Association of Osteopathic Physicians and Surgeons
Missouri Academy of Family Physicians
St. Louis Metropolitan Medical Society 

    That's a formidable list.  That's a lot of money and power right there, especially compared to our little grassroots groups (Missouri Midwives Associan, Friends of Missouri Midwives, etc).  But the judge decided they "lacked legal standing to challenge the law."   Their case (frightening, some of the things they were going to build their case on, including a former judgement involving Planned Parenthood about how they're basically in charge of their patients) was never even considered because they had no reason to be there.  I like the way the court opinion put it (see link "we won!!" post): 

"The plaintiff associations have no standing to bring this challenge. Before passing judgment on the constitutional validity of a statute, this Court must determine whether the plaintiffs have standing to bring the constitutional challenge. Standing requires the party seeking relief to have some legally protectable interest in the litigation so as to be affected directly and adversely by its outcome. For an association of individuals to have standing, the association members must have standing to bring their claims individually."

In a nutshell,  "Go.  Run along now.  This has nothing to do with you."

The real issue, what this really means for these doctor's groups, in my humble opinion, is a loss of many thousands of dollars a year as women decide to have their babies at home.  I read somewhere (sorry, I hate being so vague as to a source, but it's one of those general things that you have little reason to doubt) that the number one reason for a women to be admitted to a hospital is childbirth.   What did your last hospital birth cost you?  No small chunk of change, is it?  Anyway, they can't very well stand up in court and whine, "But we'll lose so much monnnney...."

Let me also say that I understand many people, including, supposedly, these doctors, have an issue with the safety of homebirth.  Anyone who's done their research and/or met with a midwife is confident that the risk factors are low and that they're in good hands.  (And should unforseen complications occur, all the more reason to have a legally recognized, well-trained midwife who can be there with you in the hospital, working with the doctor).  But I propose that it's my constitutional right to decide for myself what is safe for myself and my baby.  Although I believe homebirth with a midwife is the safest, most agreeable option,  I believe the issue here is FREEDOM.

It won't be long before freedom itself is deemed unconstitutional.


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Thursday, June 26, 2008
Life on the farm

 

One day I asked my friend Mark Freeman, an older cattleman, "How’s life on the farm?" anticipating he would pick up on my reference to John Denver’s tune. "Kinda laid back," was his answer as he gave me a big hug. Then, "You know," says he, "Merry and I are convinced that that young man never set foot on a farm." {laf} Spoken like a true farmer. I love Mark and Merry to pieces.

Well, the van thing didn’t go as I’d hoped. He wouldn’t trade. I was sorely disappointed but am consoling myself with the thought that when things don’t go my way it usually means God has something better for us. If we don’t end up with something else we will customize our van by ripping out the roomy back seats and installing a 4 person bench and a 3 person bench. Whatever. We have a bit of time. On to other things.

When did I post about ordering the herbs? I received both orders in the mail Saturday. Wow! That was fast! I’ve been drinking almost a half gallon of Mama’s Red Raspberry Brew a day. The kids helped me encapsulate some alfalfa and the dandelion we dried ourselves and I take a capsule of each 3x a day. Between that and getting back in the hang of power snacking (a carb w/ protein every 2-3 hours) I seem to be doing better. Nearing the end of the first trimester helps. =) Having accomplished some major jobs that were weighing me down helps. Air conditioning helps. =D

I’d better go in order of things I mentioned last time...

Chickens
We’ve kept our 15 hens and 2 roosters (McMurray Hatchery’s "Rainbow Layers") in a 20’x 20’ fenced area off the coop since we got them. Someday we’ll have two or three pens like this to alternate, but you know how "someday" goes. Well, I was chewing on the idea of letting them out to free range. I’m a "pros & cons" kind of person, so...

Pros:
less bugs
I love watching chickens in the yard
better eggs
happier chickens
much smaller feed bill

Cons:
the roosters (a white and a red leghorn) are downright mean
will the hens continue to lay in the coop or run off and hide their eggs?
will they stray into the road and suffer gruesome deaths like most of our guineas?
will they be eaten alive by stray dogs?
will my barefoot children constantly be stepping in chicken doo?

Well, we decided to try it. I found a sure method of keeping the roosters from attacking my children. It involves a hatchet and some bloodshed, but it works great and the results are also edible. Allow me to rabbit trail... This was the very first meat we’ve raised ourselves. Bobby’s roadkill deer in March was pretty cool (and the best roadkill I’ve ever had, so tender and flavorful), but to actually raise it from a babe for the dinner table feels really, really good. We’ve done veggies for awhile, eggs for awhile, goat milk this year, and now meat.  We had chicken and dumplings (more of a cool weather dish, so we turned on the AC) and it was fantastic. You homesteaders know what I’m talking about and that’s why you do what you do. There is nothing like sitting down to a meal and looking at dishes full of things you produced right in your own backyard. To think that’s the way life was for most people not too long ago! I wonder if it will ever be something I take for granted? How long before we face the fact that if we want to eat we have to produce it ourselves? Or at least produce something worth trading with so-n-so down the road for what he produced. Well, I just thank the Lord for this abundant life, for loved ones to share it with, for a wonderful husband who’s willing to work at this with me... even though he left town when he heard we were going to butcher chickens...

I’ve gotten more than my fair share out of that city boy. When I hinted he help with the butchering his words were something like, "I told you before we moved to the country that there were certain things I wouldn’t do when we got there. I’ve built a chicken coop, built a barn, put up fencing, hauled goats, bottle fed goats... I’m not butchering your chickens."

So, with my handy dandy Encyclopedia of Country Living (a must!!!) and some other articles from the internet (Encycl. of CL didn’t cover how to skin a chicken - I might have taken this to mean it’s a no-brainer - ha ha), I set about the dirty deed Sunday afternoon. I tell ya, the first 25-30 minutes are the hardest. After that, it’s a breeze! Yeah... ‘cause after tackling the messy carcass with a knife that I couldn’t get sharp enough (shame on this homesteader - I still haven’t a single good knife) I decided to call the Martins (good neighbors and friends) and beg them to send over one of the boys (or at least a sharp knife!). I told Mrs. Martin when she answered the phone, "Uh... I started something I can’t finish." She was very sympathetic and sent 16yr old Joseph down. After quickly finishing up the 1st bird he showed me how to do it start-to-finish on the next. Apparently he learned how to do this from my crazy mountain-man pen-pal in OR and was so good at one point he could do it in 5 minutes. Color me impressed. I think I’ll see about hiring him next time I decide I want to eat some of our pets.

The hens are happy as can be in the yard and I love watching them. They continue to lay in the coop (if they should decide they like other areas better, I’d leave them penned up until after noon, when all the laying is finished) and Murphy (the Great Pyr mix) keeps an eye on things, keeping strays away and such. So far there’s not much mess and I’m still hoping they stay away from the road.

Cats
This is new for me. I like cats, but cannot bear the smells they produce. We have never and will never have a house cat. But I told the kids a long time ago that when we moved to the country and had a barn, we would have barn cats. The day has come. Introducing James and Helen Herriot (after the author and his wife - named by my two eldest):


(the girls would not budge from this position despite swarming flies because the kittens were asleep)

Turns out all you have to do is ask around at your local feed store and you can bring home thousands of kittens... :) We opted for two. I would have preferred two males because they’re much cheaper to have fixed (which we will do the moment they are old enough - which will probably be too late), but the lady didn’t know how to sex them so we ended up with one of each. I never would have thought cats would round out barn life so well. They fit perfectly into our little farm. They hang out around the milk stand and were spoiled quickly by a dish of fresh milk at every milking. My kids are thrilled, Blue especially (her pet chicken - the one that got out every day no matter what we did - just isn’t as special now that all the hens are out).


Goats
One night, as I was milking, I started doing some calculations. Gran has been producing about 24oz and Dessy about 34oz at each milking (bare minimum)- we milk twice a day. That’s a total of 116oz, not quite a gallon (128oz) a day between the two of them. The babies should be getting a combined total of 160oz each day - 20oz each, twice a day. We’ve been supplementing with our drinking milk which sometimes is whole cow milk from the store and sometimes fresh goat milk from the Martins. The Martins learned of this and were good enough to give us, free of charge, as much "baby" milk as we want (they have a goat or two that produces off-tasting milk
). But the calculations continued (me! who claims never to have liked math)...

Gran and Dessy both give delicious milk. They have great shaped udders and are easy milkers. Gran will probably give even less milk next year, assuming we breed her this fall. Dessy will give more, but won’t reach "prime" for a 2-3 more years. We’re keeping the two doelings and will breed them next fall. So, next year we won’t be ahead any in milk, and the year after that we probably won’t have Gran, Dessy will hopefully be giving a good amount and we’ll have two first fresheners. Hmm. I got to thinking (someone make it stop!)... maybe we should pick up a doe that’s in or near the end of her prime, something that produces a goodly amount of milk. I talked it over with Bobby and he thought it a reasonable idea (just don’t ask him to butcher her, right?). I talked with the Martins first and they offered us Brownie, a beautiful Toggenburg giving almost a gallon a day. Good deal. We brought her home Tuesday (I was just getting things ready for Brownie when my sister happened to show up with a truck - it was meant to be). I think she’s the most beautiful goat I’ve ever seen.

Don’t you?

She’s relatively well behaved and loves attention. Okay, now the Martins are wondering if they gave me the right goat. :) She was their only horned goat and bullied the rest of the herd. Gran tried to show her who was boss right away and they went at it for a little while, but Brownie is significantly bigger and couldn’t have cared less about Gran once Gran stopped attacking her. It was pretty funny to see such a little goat being so bossy. By well-behaved I mean she goes into the pen without a fight when you want her in the pen, on and off the milkstand with ease, and is easily led through the yard. She cried the first night but settled into the routine immediately after that.

Well... then I got thinking (see how out of control this is?) that the feed-to-milk ratio with Gran isn’t really worth the money and if we’re getting enough from Brownie maybe we’d sell Gran at the next swapmeet (July 5th). It’d be no big deal to keep her if I had a pasture fenced in, but tethering three goats is not something I’ll be able to keep up long. We did add a run for Brownie and that’s so much easier than the corkscrew stakes (hard to drive into dry summer ground but apparently not hard to pull up because every day I have to chase goats around at least once or twice - good thing my garden’s fenced in, eh?).

But now we’re not sure we’ll keep Brownie. Turns out we’re not real fond of her milk. It’s not "goaty" tasting (that taste similar to how a buck smells), it just has a different kind of taste that would take some getting used to. I know Bobby won’t like it and my older kids turn up their noses. Such a shame, because she gives so much of it! For now we feed it to the babies (who’ll be weaned in a couple weeks) and it frees up Gran and Dessy’s milk. I’ll talk to the Martins this weekend about whether they prefer I keep her for a couple weeks until our babies are weaned, or have her back now and we’ll take their goaty-tasting milk by the gallon for our babies. What a blessing to have such great folks as neighbors.

After the babies are weaned... (this was about 2 weeks ago - can't believe how much they've grown since then!)  ...we’ll just have to see if Gran and Dessy’s milk is enough for us. We can always get the occasional gallon from the Martin’s and keep our eyes out for a good deal on another doe.

Must...stop...thinking....


Garden

I suppose I have to concede that summer is upon us. I much prefer all the other months, but will accept summer as my garden loves it so. And cold well water is never so refreshing as in the summer.

The garden a few weeks ago:

The garden last week:



Decided to grow at least one Blue Berry in the garden this year:
Probably won't eat her, though.

Staking my tomatoes was one of those chores that I was getting bummed out about because it needed to be done (should have been done when I put in the ‘maters) and I just couldn’t muster up the time and energy needed to do it. I wish it were as easy as buying stakes, rebar, cages or whatever (ideally, I’d make 4’ tall cages out of 6’ stakes and 4’x4’ sections of fencing), but we just couldn’t afford to buy anything. I was faced with the free, but labor intensive, method of harvesting saplings (they’re never as straight as they look, are they?). I spent the morning hiking through the woods with a bowsaw cutting down mostly hickory and cedar and having the kids drag them into the yard. I lopped the branches, sawed them down to size, hacked a point onto them with a hatchet and drove them into the garden soil with a hammer (see, my energy level is up). I needed 24 for my 48 plants. I used one at each end of a row of four and ran strips of an old sheet between the two, weaving the plants between them. So far, so good. I started right after breakfast and finished up just before dark. My ‘maters are Siletz, an heirloom (open pollinated) variety. Early dwarf bush type. I can’t wait to see if they’re any good. If they are, I’ll save seed for next year. If not, I’ll try something else. I decided to let them grow crazy this year instead of pinching off the side growth like I’ve always done. We’ll see how that works.....

Now we’re pretty much down to maintenance. Weeding, watering, redirecting rowdy squash plants, hand-picking pests. Here’s my pest control team:


I pay them a penny a pest (and 2 per Japanese beetle, of which we’ve had only a couple). The cabbage worms are the absolute worst! I will invest, somehow, in row covers next year. I still have plenty of broccoli and cauliflower coming on, and I’m going to start some seeds this week for my fall crop (I hear the bugs aren’t as bad in the fall).

I absolutely love having flowers throughout the garden (I love flowers but haven’t bothered much with flower gardening figuring if I was going to invest that kind of time it would have to produce food) and will make a point to start lots more of them and start earlier next year. My zinnias are starting to open, marigolds are doing great, cosmos will be blooming soon. The asters and nasturtiums are slow (I think they require more water) but coming along. I also want to do more herbs but can’t seem to get my act together. I’ve learned this about myself - I can’t direct sow anything amongst my existing crops. I just don’t keep them watered enough. So, next year I’ll start as much as possible inside and transplant later. I had also wanted to plant perennial flowers (mostly by seed) and herbs all along the perimeter of the garden. We tilled once and never got back to it. I’ve given up the hope of growing things there this year and will concentrate on preparing the site with the no-till/lasagna gardening method.

Which brings me to this... Don’tcha love taking annoying trash and making it useful? The paths in my garden are about 3’ wide. That’s also how big a 50# feed bag is when you cut it open. I’ve taken my whole stack of used feed bags (the only thing I can’t use is the dogfood bags because they’re glossy inside and out), cut them open and laid them in my paths and spread straw on them. Simple, but I’m quite tickled with myself. (Maybe thinking isn’t all bad....) Now I’ll cut them in half and use them to start preparing the bed around the garden. I hope to be able to produce enough compost that I won’t have to buy any more of that weed-infested stuff I got this year. Very dark and fertile, but wow there was so much of that one weed. Here’s a picture of it:

What is it?  Mark Freeman calls it a cockle-bur.  It has a thorn at every leaf joint.

Midwifery

For those who don’t know, we’ve had 4 out of our 5 babies at home. The one hospital birth (Willie3) was enough to make us want to have the rest at home even if we couldn’t get a midwife. Which is what we did with Willie5. Now, I actually don’t know what this law being in effect means for me. I don’t know if there are midwives in my area that will now come out of the woodwork and start practicing. I’m just praying and talking around. If I knew of hospitals around me that had practicing midwives or anything, I would check it out. When we lived in Ozark we met a doctor in AR who used to be a midwife and had an absolutely wonderful practice and even the hospital she delivered at was very small and laid back. She was two hours from us then, at least 6 hrs now (Amy Jo, we live halfway between St.Louis and Poplar Bluff, in little ol’ Fredericktown). Up till now Certified Nurse Midwives were the only legal option in our state but mostly practiced in hospitals and our state’s one birth center. They could only do home births if they had a physician who would "cover" them. There is apparently only one physician willing to do this and has two midwives working under him. This is the midwife we went through for 3 of ours, and we used the covering physician with our hospital birth. (I have heard of a physician in St. Louis that will do home deliveries, but that’s a little far away for me at this point.) The new law legalizes a different kind of midwife (Certified Professional Midwife, I think) which, from what I understand, requires basically the same rigorous midwife training, without the nursing degree and without the requirement of a covering physician.

Enough for one day....

Enough for a month...


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Wednesday, June 25, 2008
WE WON!!!!!!!!!

After falling just short of getting our midwivery bill passed this legeslative session, turns out that the Missouri Supreme Court just ruled in our favor to keep the law that was passed last year, legalizing midwifes in Missouri. 
You can see the opinon and summary here  .
        I'm dizzy with excitement and crying tears of joy!  This means I will probably be able to have a midwife this pregnancy and you don't know how much that means to me!!!  Well, some of you do... (Thanks for commenting, Sarajeen.)    I've been really chewing on this and praying about it...  I can't bring myself to get prenatal care with an OBGYN.  It's like signing up for stress.  I was thinking about calling all the OBGYNs withing 40 miles and ask how they felt about legalizing midwives...  If one were in support I would consider receiving care from him/her.  :)
        Anyway, more later.  I'm late for morning chores.  All kinds of stuff going on....   I've butchered chickens, brought home a new goat, Bobby's working out of town, my kids bless me to no end... and today we're going to go talk to a guy about trading our van and some cash for his 15 passenger van - the same one we've been looking at.  He said no when we first asked but I've really been praying and believe we should try again, really make an appeal.  Say a prayer for us!

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Thursday, June 19, 2008
What I’ve been up to...

Feeling tired most of the time. Very low on energy and having a hard time getting just the basics done. I’m not taking prenatal vitamins because of their tendency to add to my kidney stone problem, so I planned to take bunches of herbs. Well, my friend at the health food store was suppose to order me some herbs and things a month ago and still hadn’t gotten around to it when I called her yesterday. I’ll find it in my heart to forgive her but I really need to be taking them ASAP! I think it would make a huge difference in my energy and blood sugar levels. So, I ordered everything online (bulkherbstore.com). I bought gel caps and a capsule filler rig so I can encapsulate the dandelion I dried (just too bitter for me), also some alfalfa powder I have. I also ordered two pounds of Mama’s Pregnancy Tea, which I absolutely love and drink every pregnancy, which has red raspberry leaves, alfalfa, nettle and peppermint. I can’t wait to see what a difference it makes!

I’ve never been much of a routine person, especially if that routine involved getting up before 8am, so I’m struggling a little with my new goat-oriented life... Here’s what my day looks like lately:

6:30 or 6:45- wake up

7:00 - morning chores:
       Gran gets on the milkstand first and we don’t battle like we did in the beginning. She eats at a regular pace (don’t have to put straw in her feed to slow her down now), I milk at a regular pace. She finishes up while I put fresh water in her pen, give some milk to our two adopted kittens and feed the dogs. Granny goes back in the pen and Dessy comes out. Dessy is turning out to be quite an ornery thing and likes to toss her head around and jab you with her horns when you grab her collar, which you have to because she won’t go where she’s suppose to, you have to drag her. Milking her for awhile was pretty tough as she wouldn’t let down, but after the first couple weeks she milks just fine. She’s a terribly slow eater and hasn’t eaten much by the time I’m done milking.  Funny that Gran is the easy one now.  I feed the chickens and hike across the yard to give the baby goats some grain. Then Dessy and her still-half-full feed dish go in her pen and I carry the milk to the house, strain it and fill the kid bottles. I wake up one or two of my children (Blue is always eager to help and it’s been a sweet time spent with her in the mornings) to help feed the kids and that doesn’t take very long.

7:30 - we rinse the kid bottles and start our own breakfast. I’m so tired that we’ve been having a lot of cereal in spite of the bounty of farm fresh eggs. A couple hours later I’ll make some eggs for myself for the protein boost. Sometimes we have eggs for lunch and we usually eat a large, late breakfast on Sabbath. We sell the extras to Bobby’s coworkers.

8:30 breakfast clean-up, dishwasher emptied, laundry started, then start weeding and/or watering the garden.

10:00 snack, back to laundry, about twice a week we bake (bread and cookies for Bobby’s coworkers, bread and cookies for us) and I usually start that midmorning.

This brings us quickly to lunch around noon. After lunch we feed the baby goats a little more grain, cut some brush for them to munch, give them fresh water. Then we put Gran and Dess on leases and lead them to their tethers (10-12’ chains on a corkscrew type stake). We move the tethers if need be, get them fresh water and check on them every couple hours until evening chores. They frequently spill their water buckets and tangle themselves in brush and it’s quite the job for me at this point (the kids help some). I thank God the weather has cooled off to something more reasonable because hiking up the hill to tend the goats in 90°+ temps, and high humidity, was getting very, very old. I was considering getting rid of all the goats until we could get at least an acre fenced in and THEN get goats. Did I say was? It still sounds like a mighty good plan.... Bobby is so encouraging and helpful, though. He wants to stick it out.

I try take a little time after this to let the little Willies drag me around the yard and show me all the flowers and nest and things they’ve discovered during the day. If I have any energy left I might sweep the house or tackle some other odd job (hand washing the odd dishes that don’t make it to the dishwasher, etc).

1:30 or 2:00  I put the two littlest Willies down for naps and the older three are on their own with strict instructions to be quiet while I lay down for 1 1/2 or 2 hours. I’m so blessed that I can trust them enough to do this. Some days I wake up to find they spent their time drawing me pictures or picking me flowers. I know I won’t need naps as desperately as I do during this time of my pregnancy, but I still feel a little guilty. Some days it’s all I can do to make it from morning to nap time and in a zombie state I tackle only the diaper changes and goat care, maybe overseeing the kid’s other chores.

When I wake up from my nap around 3:30 or 4 I usually feel dreadfully queasy. Sometimes Bobby’s home by then. Royal and Blue wake up and we all just sit on the couch and read or talk and snack until I feel I can get around. Then the goats are checked on, dinner started, laundry put away (sometimes the clean laundry piles up for days awaiting this attention).

6:45 or 7:00 Some children stay inside to help clean up the dinner mess (Daddy supervises) while others help me with evening chores. We un-tether the goats, feed and milk them, make sure everyone has water, collect eggs, bring the milk to the house, prepare the bottles, feed the kids... and then it’s nearly bed time! By this time my energy is actually up a little and I clean up the kitchen or tackle something else begging my attention. The kids go to bed around 9 after a story (currently a chapter of James Herriot), try as I might to wind down and get them in bed by 8:30. Something always seems to keep me up until 10 or so. Then we get up and do it all over again! Even Sabbath doesn’t vary much because the hardest part is the animals and that routine doesn’t change. When I can afford hay I can get away with not tethering them for a day and that is a much needed break. But at least all the other things are done for the week, like laundry and house cleaning. The best thing about Sabbath is that there’s nothing pressing. Don’t have to do this or that or run here or there...
       
Sundays are usually our biggest work day because, well, it’s the first day of "six days you shall work" and Bobby’s home. We try to get as much done while he’s home. Slowly but surely we’re getting a small area fenced in (just off the barn) for the goats. Slowly we’re getting the barn sided. Slowly we’re getting it all done... Anyway, because it’s our work day, we often don’t get away for fellowship. I really really miss our meetings. Last Sunday we worked in the morning and broke away for the afternoon to fellowship a little. It was hot and I wasn’t feeling well. But I missed everyone and wanted to go more than anyone else. Consequently I missed my nap and the goats didn’t get tethered out and we were all three pretty cranky by evening. I bailed on the special evening meeting (which are my favorites) so I could get home and rest. Like I said, I can’t wait to see the difference the herbs make. I’m trying to not complain and be discouraged... just keep reminding myself, "This too shall pass." In the meantime I’m encouraged when I get anything done at all! Turns out it doesn’t take a whole lot of energy to weed a garden... it’s just tedious. So it’s a job well suited to me these days. Speaking of... I better get to it. The composted cow manure soil mix I spent $125 for a dumptruck load of was loaded with (what a farmer friend calls) cocklebur seeds and they are the the new bane of my existence. I have a good compost pile going now and the chickens and goats are helping with that so I should be set from here on out but oy... what a mess....


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Saturday, June 14, 2008
Allow me to boast on a friend for a moment...

You know, there’s something about knowing someone for a long, long time... History counts for a lot.
        I have a sweet friend who I’ve known for about... um... (How long has it been, Trish? You’re better with the dates than I.) I guess she started hanging out with my sister within a year or two of our moving to MO in 1990. I "stole" her from my sister not many years after that, we were already like sisters... We went through all the ugly teen years together and came to know the Lord together near the end of those years. We’ve married and started families and though we each have gone our seperate ways and are now many miles apart we still are a significant part of each others lives. I can’t believe she puts up with me trying to "mother" her all the time... :)  She’s so sweet.
         She also happens to be a wonderful artist. I’ve always been her biggest fan and have kept many of her drawings and paintings (and pottery, come to think of it) over the years, including those from the days when she was obsessed with Disney characters, particularly the Little Mermaid and the Lion King. I won’t embarass her by sharing those here, but, yesterday I received a lovely blessing from her in the mail and I do want to share it.  First... Early in ‘99, as I struggled with the pain of growing up and leaving childhood behind, I requested a drawing from her... It came out just how I wanted and I still have it. Just unpacked it a few weeks ago.  Here’s a photo of it:

This was what I received in the mail yesterday:

This was written on the back

"There was a picutre of a girl blowing dandelion seeds away showing youth being abandoned.  What wasn't known then is seen now that a plan and purpose was in place for a family growing up in love with so many hard choices along the way.  What a blessing it is to see the differnce abandoning made."

I cried. I was overwhelmed. I feel so blessed. Thank you, Trisha!!  For thinking of me, for drawing just for me, and for reminding me of the difference Christ has made in my life... I needed that reminder desperately today.  You are so dear to me. I’m so glad you’re putting your hand to paper again, practicing your God-given gifts. 

(View my Flickr page for full sized images and visit Trisha's blog and say hi.)


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Thursday, June 12, 2008
Everybody's favorite... "out of the mouths of babes"

One day last week my 3yr old told me, as I was resting on the couch waiting for the queasiness to pass, that I looked like a farm.   "A what?"  says I.   "A farm," says she, clear as day.  I still have no idea what she meant but it neither sounded like a compliment or an insult, just an observation.  I'm sure it's the strangest thing I've ever been called.

I was shopping earlier this week with all the little Willies in tow (as usual).  As I was selecting some ground beef, Blue was following Atira along the display of meat in the freezer, listening as Atira read the names.  They came to a huge hunk of meat with a sticker reading "Pork Loin."  Atira thoughtfully read aloud, "Lion..."   Blue commented, "I don't like lion meat."  "Me either," says Atira and they casually moved on.    I was still laughing when the fella that heads the meat dept. walked out of the back.  He got quite a kick out of it, too.

This morning Seth informed me, "Blue peed in my undies.'   Figure that one out.
       Apparently he had let her borrow a pair of his undies when she couldn't find any of her own and later had this accident in them.  Mystery solved.




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Thursday, June 12, 2008
A decision

Although none of us likes being harassed... I figure if I'm going to be harassed, at least I should have a clue as to who is responsible.  So, I've restricted the ability to post comments to registered users only.  I was hesitant to do this because I have several friends and extented family that visit my blog... But I figure they all have my email address and if they want to say something they can contact me that way. 

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Thursday, June 12, 2008
The heart behind the commets...

My last fews posts seem to have stirred some hearts... some wonderful and encouraging, some rather bitter and discouraging.

In my very last post I suggested something much deeper is going on when people attack you or look down on you because you have "so many" children.  Have any of you chewed on this?  Another unpleasant anonymus comment to that post gives us a clue to what's really going on in the hearts of these people.  He/she (I'm guessing "she") refers to mothers as "baby-making machines."  Don't you think that alone speaks volumes???  Here we have a glimpse of a decieved heart... a sadly warped perspective of family, mothering in particular.  Seems the larger my family grows, the more of this I run into.
       I'd be willing to bet (you know, if I were the gambling type) that all of my nasty commenters so far are mothers of only a couple young children and very discontent with their position.  I beg you, nasty commenters, next time remain anonymus if you must, but do tell us how many children you have and whether or not you stay at home with them.  Oh, also, what you'd rather be doing.


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Saturday, June 7, 2008
Large families, food stamps, and deductive reasoning

I'm back.  Sorry for the confusion.  We'll get things back to normal here shortly.

In the meantime...
       I wish I could share with ya'll the exact words of an anonymus comment I received yesterday morning in response to my post about expecting our 6th baby.  Alas, it's gone as with everything else I'd had posted.  The gist of it was, "people like you make me sick.  You say the Lord is providing for you but you're on food stamps which means it's my tax dollars feeding your ridiculosly large family.  Get on birth control."  I don't remember word for word (it was a good bit longer) as I was more than a little shocked, having never had anything so absoulutely cruel said to me in my life.
        A couple things stood out, though.  I've been chewing on this since I read it and I believe I know who the Commenter is and would, for a moment, like to address her.
       The first and most obvious clue to your identity is your knowing that my family receives food stamps.  This means that you know my family personally, apart from my blog.  Secondly, I believe you claim to be a Christian by your use of "The Lord" and not "Your God", that narrows it down further.  Also, you're the only person that I know that would (even claiming Christ) deliberately seek to hurt me (and know where to find my blog), particularly in regards to child-rearing and family.  You never responded to my email sharing the pregnancy news with you, though I know you read it.  You would have been hurt maybe by my sharing my heart about the law and so maybe you felt justified in hurting me back (though why on this topic and not that, I don't know), but I suspect you were angry and bitter way before that.  Well, I want you to know that I forgive you.  I'm very, very sorry you feel the way you do - about me and my family and about yourself and your children.  I pray for you daily and truly do love you, even if we butt heads sometimes.  You are still welcome in my home and welcome to share our food (as you have many times without issue).

Now, as for my thoughts about foodstamps....
        I long to be off food stamps.  I hate relying on the govenment for food (or anything).  My family is working very hard toward this end by praying fervrently, getting out of debt, living frugally, and establishing a homestead where we can raise most of our own food.  In the meantime, food stamps are the way the Lord has provided.  It's our tax dollars, too!  You and I would still have to pay the same amount of taxes toward welfare no matter how many children I have or whether or not I receive assistance.  I should also mention there is absolutely no crime in receiving food stamps.  It's not like I'm lying or stealing.  This is the provision made for families in our country who have a hard time scraping by.  My family is not one of those lazy folks that sit around and lives off the government with no intent to change.  We work hard and don't complain.
      That said, I hate the system (not a complaint - a fact).   It's rotten to the core and has taken an independent nation and created a dependent nation out of it (not without the help of the people, of course!).  If it weren't so corrupt we'd all be able to provide plenty of food for our own families AND enough for the widows and orphans and other needy peoples.  Welfare is a church issue, not a government issue.  The government lacks the two crucial elements for proper welfare - discernment and compassion.  Shame on the church for giving it up!  When I was first in a position of need, when Bobby and I were seperated for awhile in '03, I turned to my church body for help and they looked at me in horror and told me to go get on food stamps.  We've been receiving food stamps ever since.  We have never liked it and like I said, have been working our way off it.  Much more difficult with the price of everything rising.  Here's some of the steps we're taking:
     Constant prayer for wisdom and provision - for us and our nation
     Getting out of debt (including a commitment to never borrow again)
     Living frugally in a hundred other ways ("Use it up, wear it out, make it do or do without" is our new household motto)
     Raising chickens for eggs and, soon, meat
     Raising goats for milk and meat (buy a place with outbuildings and fencing if at all possible!  Knowing what I know now, having had to start from scratch, I would have given up a lot in the way of people housing to have critter housing and fencing)
      Not owning any animals that don't earn their keep
      Gardening & putting food by, including starting my plants from seeds and saving my own seeds for the purpose of a) perserving varieties that the government can't touch and b) saving money
      Learning to buy and cook frugally for a time when our food provision isn't so abundant

        I should note that we're raising our children to be hard workers and dependent on the Lord and hopefully they will not make some of the ignorant mistakes we did and won't need to turn to such a faulty system.  At any rate, they'll grow and learn to trust the Lord and will be an asset to society and not a liability- shouldn't we have a couple dozen kids, then?
         Ya know, I think there's something much deeper going on when someone thinks you're having too many kids.  I don't think it's about what you can afford... most of the time it doesn't affect anyone else anyway.  It's not about food or shelter, not about clothes or toys, not about college or cars....  Hopefully it's not about not having enough love and attention...  So what is it?  What is it really that makes some people just look down at you when you have more than your 2.5 and a dog?


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