When I started this fast, I almost felt like I was kicking and screaming inside. I had gotten comfortable with watching a movie here and there. I felt settled. But I knew I wasn't accomplishing enough. Can you hear the voice of the Lord, seriously, when you are focused on entertainment to get you through a 'tough day?"  Even though it didn't seem like much, and, surely, I wasn't watching the actual television programs, talk shows or what have you. (horrors!!). But even something seemingly innocent had a tendency to take my time away. My mind had been silenced, or pacified, so that I could not think intelligently.  Now, just a few days into the fast, I have a feeling of abhorrence for any movie or show! I don't even want a TV set anywhere near me.

    I just finished reading a brief biography of the famous Dr. John R. Rice, author and founder of the Sword of the Lord. Oh, what great things for God he has accomplished!!! What an inspiration!! His entire life, every moment, was dedicated to that old saying "What would the Lord have me to do...." And I am shuddering..... Why? Because I feel oppressed and somewhat trapped by my circumstances. How do you live an entirely godly, holy life, when you HAVE to be mingling with the world???? I want to hide out in my house for a time, with my precious family, and focus on that which is heavenly and see what comes of it...... May it be so.........