Abundant Blessings Homestead

A really sad day...

Today has been a hard day, emotionally speaking...

To start off, my folks left for warmer climates today. It's always hard when they leave...cause it's so long till they return. Having Granny and Aunt Penny leave yesterday doubled the sadness of their leaving today. There's such a buildup of excitement before the holidays..then such a vacuum taking all the excitement away once it's over.

The second hard part was my mind...I kept thinking how this was the day last year that I did the test and saw two lines saying we were pregnant. What joy we felt! And what sorrow and grief we felt when a month and a half later, we lost that babe. I'm still not to the place where I can talk about it much without getting sad and crying. Will I ever?

To top it off....our milk cow, Gentle, died today. She was sick...no clue what was wrong. We found her two weeks ago lying on her side, unable to get up. The vet came, took blood samples and gave her several shots. We then had to give her more shots for the next 5 days. She was doing better...nowhere near 100%, but able to walk around and eating like a champ. She had gone up on the hill two days ago. Toby went up to check on her yesterday..she was fine. Today, she came down the hill, got to nearly the bottom and fell ( I guess). We found her on her side, dead. She hadn't been gone too long, cause she was not cold yet..and it was 24* out then. We didn't try to process her...we didn't know what was wrong with her and didn't want the meat. She's now waiting for the "truck" to pick her up. What a sad ending to the 2 year chapter of her being our milk cow.

I have been reading Elizabeth Elliot's book, A Path Through Suffering. I bought it to help my sorrow in the loss of our babe, but am finding it covers so much more than that.

We will be heading to church before long. I am looking forward to a great message from a good man of God tonight. I sure need it...today especially. 

so sorry

{ 04:40, Wednesday, January 2, 2008 } { Posted by canadianmom }

Dear sweet Laurie - I am so sorry for your loss.
I am lifting you and your family up in prayers.

God bless,
Cathie

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{ 05:44, Wednesday, January 2, 2008 } { Posted by stitchnchick }

I'm so sorry for your sadness...I do understand the loss of a baby. It's been almost nine years for us. I'll pray that the Lord will give you a little token this evening to let you know just how much He loves you. May He comfort your heart.

Amy

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{ 06:51, Wednesday, January 2, 2008 } { Posted by blessedmomof10 }

So sorry to hear of the loss of your cow and the other sadness in your life at this time.... I know the Lord can carry you thru this time of sadness.......

The book from Elizabeth Elliot sounds very good.... I love her books and learn so much from her ~ I think I will try to pick up a copy myself!

Blessings~
gloria

thinking of you

{ 07:53, Wednesday, January 2, 2008 } { Posted by Cathy }

Laurie,
Praying for you all.
Love you my dear, sweet friend.
Blessings,
Cathy

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{ 08:14, Thursday, January 3, 2008 } { Posted by GrannyG }

Find a quiet spot to pray...God whispers, and the world is loud.
Hugs...

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{ 10:55, Thursday, January 3, 2008 } { Posted by schatzila }

Dear Lord, I ask that you comfort Laurie at this time....you know the grief she is feeling. So please Father help her to feel your arms of love around her and her family. Speak sweetly to her and heal the hurts and sadness in her heart this day....Amen

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{ 08:43, Thursday, January 3, 2008 } { Posted by 2GodBPraise }

I am so sorry to hear that yesterday was such a bad day for you. I hope today has been better. I have had to go through the loss of two children, Matthew and Alethea (they were both stillborn). It's not easy. People deal with grief differently but the common thread amongst grief is the pain of the loss. I said a prayer for you.

May You Feel God's Peace and Find Comfort in Him.
Karen
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{ 01:06, Saturday, January 5, 2008 } { Posted by a1health }

May the Lord give you peace during your trials. I have lost 4 babies from 5-35 weeks and it does in time get easier. Understand that the Lord will not give you more than you can take.
Blessings,
~Farrah
PS I really enjoyed your GodTube video!