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Time...

They say time heals all wounds...and I guess it does to some degree. Like my Honey's leg...time is definitely healing it (along with some doctoring). And my injuries. I am healing (not as fast as I would like...but I am improving).

But, emotional hurts...they take so very long to heal.

Last night, I thought many times about our babe in Heaven. As Sept 1st gets closer, I find myself thinking more and more about him. (or her). I saw some pregnant ladies last night..which reminded me that I had thought the fair this year would be interesting as I would be 37 weeks pregnant. But, no babe. As that day approaches, I keep thinking of what was to have been. I was to be about two weeks from birthing new baby. To experience the awe of giving birth again. To wait to find out if we had a new son or daughter. To see the look of love and adoration on my Honey's face. To see my children love on their new sibling. To welcome a new life into our family.

But, that is not to be. I am left with this hole in my heart. I miss my babe. I want to hold and cuddle him. I want to nurse him. I want to smelll that incredible newborn smell. I want all those wonderful things.

This is where I'm hoping time will heal this wound. That the sting of it will eventually fade. I don't know that it will ever go away. I think it will always be a part of me...for I lost such a huge part of me that day in February when our babe died. The tears seem to flow so easily again. I am so blessed...yet feel so sad sometimes.

Life is filled with challenges....but thankfully, it's also filled with joys. This is my valley right now...I'm ready to be walking back on the peaks again.

So sorry

{ 08:07, Wednesday, August 15, 2007 } { Posted by JustaSEC }

I am sorry about the death of your baby. Our Joshua was stillborn last November and it still hurts so bad sometimes. I don't think it's a hurt that a mother ever completely heals from.

Remembering you in prayers today!

hi friend

{ 05:49, Wednesday, August 15, 2007 } { Posted by Cathy }

Laurie,
~~~ hugs to you my dear, sweet friend ~~~
I am praying for you on this...please know I love ya.
Cathy

Oh Laurie, I'm so sorry

{ 08:17, Thursday, August 16, 2007 } { Posted by mooremama }

Hi, my friend. I am so sorry that you're going thru this right now. I will lift you,Toby and the kids up in prayer. Cling tight to the One who can ease all of our suffering and pain, be it physical or emotional. Let Toby and your children love on you and help you thru this time. You're on my mind and in my heart.

Beth

Sorry Laurie

{ 01:41, Friday, August 17, 2007 } { Posted by Anonymous }

Laurie, I know how sad you are feeling. You will never forget, but it does get better with time. Take care, my friend.
Winona