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The Saddest Day

I am borrowing my daughter's title for this entry. This past Tuesday was indeed the saddest day in our family. We lost our baby early Tuesday morning. We have shed tears upon tears. It is, without a doubt, the hardest path we have ever taken...we are not through it yet...but we are walking it. The Lord has been our comfort...knowing we have a child awaiting us in Heaven is also a comfort...though we sure would have preferred to have met him or her here first.

My mind keeps racing back to my Aunt Di...my most precious Aunt Di. She had juvenile diabetes and suffered greatly due to that....she suffered miscarriage 6 times, each time carrying the babe a bit longer. Her 7th pregnancy resulted in a still born babe. And yet, she never had a cross word for anyone, always happy and smiling. (despite other awful things she also endured as well....) She was my second Mom. I have missed her since she died in 1995...but I find I am missing her so much more right now. I so want to talk to her about this..how did she go on? How did she handle it with such grace? How did she see others having babies when she could not...and not become bitter? That many times to experience this heartache...what an example she is to me....

We have been so blessed by such an outpouring of love, prayers and meals. I have found so many close to us have experienced the same loss. It is such an encouragement to know they have gone on to have more children. We definitely pray that the Lord would indeed bless us again. But, for now, photos that used to make me smile...of newborn babes...of pregnant Mamas...just bring tears. I am, on my midwife's orders, resting this week. It is hard for me to sit and do nothing...but I must. When I do overdo a bit, my body lets me know it has done too much. And back to the living room I go.

Our children have been incredible, as always. They have picked up the slack and allowed me to do the resting I must. They are sharing my sadness. They are holding me when I cry. They are praying. They are my inspirations. God has surely blessed me abundantly with the most wonderful, thoughtful, loving, capable children.

And my beloved. My rock. My comforter. My protection. He just holds me and lets me cry. He talks to me. He listens to me. He just gives me whatever I need. I can honestly say that I could not get through this without him.

The tears are a flowing now...so I must close and go let it all out. God will be listening to my sobs...and I can already hear His voice comforting me in my sorrow. Rebecca posted a song on her blog that sums up how we are doing...

Your prayers would be appreciated....

Your sad day

{ 05:55, Thursday, February 15, 2007 } { Posted by imspecl }

I'm so very sorry about your news. Of course I'll keep you in my prayers. Lean on God and he will see you through this hard time.
God Bless you and your family!

praying through the valley

{ 06:57, Thursday, February 15, 2007 } { Posted by Hisirishgem }

Praying that you would feel the hands of Jesus carrying you through this valley and that you would be strengthened by the power of our Lord. In Jesus name I pray...AMEN

I haven't been able to conceive and we've been dealing with fertility issues. It is a very hard road but I find strength and comfort in Jesus...I pray you may find it there too.

love and hugs

Rebekah

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{ 07:09, Thursday, February 15, 2007 } { Posted by katenicholl }

I am saddened by your news. Jesus is cradling you in His arms at the moment. Cling on to Him.
Psalm 46:5 "God is within her, she will not fall; God will help her at break of day."

Catherine

love you

{ 07:31, Thursday, February 15, 2007 } { Posted by Cathy }

My dear, sweet Laurie,
~~ I love you my friend....thinking of you every minute and praying. I know your sadness very well, Jon and I have had 5 miscarriages...I am here for you if you ever need to talk. You need your rest...for your body and your mind. Let the Lord take hold of you and comfort you as only He can...that is what helped us the most. You are an amazing person Laurie...and I'm honored to have you as a friend.
Love you,
Cathy

I am so saddened....

{ 07:44, Thursday, February 15, 2007 } { Posted by Anonymous }

I know what you mean...wanting to talk with someone who has been there. I just wanted to let you know you can email anytime if you need to. Please allow the Lord to carry you. Please look into his Word. What helped James and I the most when we lost our little girl was remembering that God is holy and righteous no matter what He chooses in our life. He knows all and knows what's best even when we don't understand it. All things are for His glory. Try to glorify Him at this time. It will help you all. Please allow the Lord to carry you right now. I was so grieved that I had no choice. I HAD to let the Lord carry me...He was my comfort and my shield. This brought James and I closer together. You may find a whole other kind of new love with your husband through your grief. On top of that my son got saved six months later. I think our baby's passing gave him a nudge to desire Jesus in his life. Now we have Joy-Anna...while she cannot take Martha's place, it was a comfort to have a child after the loss. Don't be afraid to talk about your hurt... it will ease your pain.

Love to you and your family,

Susan W. (sandlappersue)
wewatson@pbtcomm.net

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{ 12:03, Thursday, February 15, 2007 } { Posted by HandsNHearts }

you are in our prayers here. It is a special, yet bittersweet blessing, to know that you will see your little one someday in His Kingdom.
Deanna

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{ 01:15, Thursday, February 15, 2007 } { Posted by Brykclan }

Praying for you all. So sorry for your loss.
Love Cathie