Hectic Heaven

Wow!! Its been almost a year...

My 1 year anniversary here at Homesteadblogger will be January 15  I can't beleive I have been blogging that long...but for some reason I was in my archives looking for something and noticed that...I have never kept any kind of a journal that long in my life...

It was also interesting to look back thru the low times, the times I was learning something new, the times when things were going and working well for me...I also noticed I have used the title "Its raining its pouring a couple times"  lol sometimes the subject is the hardest part of the post  lol

I guess DSS has decided he needs to go back to the city...while part of me is glad for me.. but a bigger part of me is very worried about what will happen to him...he was just floating when he lived there before..I am afraid he will fall back into the same patterns he was in before..The group of friends he has down there, while seem to be very nice kids, have very little drive to do anything beyond play...and they have parents that support them in this lifestyle..unfortunatley he was not born to rich parents...I hope it works out for him.....I know his dad is heart broken as I know he had big plans of hunting and fishing together...I am at a loss to know which way to turn because this boy seems to not be able to talk to his dad about this...and I am growing weary of being the go between...I guess his friend is suppose to be here on the 10th or 11th to pick him up.. we will see.. this same friend has been going to come visit since he has been here and each time has backed out a few days before he was to arrive...I am also a little frustrated because he does NOTHING, he got fired  from his job on the 15th or so of Dec. he is making no effort to find another job and the application he tells us he put in I dont believe ever was done....He has no money coming in but he has "habits" he seems to think someone needs to provide for...so we have another close to two weeks..of supporting him...what chores he has been asked to do he barely does or doesnt do it...

I have another thing that is weighing heavy as long as I am venting, so to speak....DH came home last night and told me they had posted a new position for the local high school for a custodian... the money is more then I can make doing anything else...but It will mean working evenings which I dont do well and  I dont know If my body could handle the stress of it.. I have done it as a sub and some days Im wore out for two days after wards... I need to find something,  I woke up at 2 am this morning mulling this over...I have not slept much since then..Im just not sure what way to go here...

Well its time to go clean up another hot spot in this house... If you have stuck with me to here "Bless your heart" and Thanks you.  I find sometimes it helps to write it out and leave it for awhile...and maybe I should do it in private but I kind of look at this blog as my journal.  Ok Im off to do some cleaning then some spinning   Have a super wonderful day.... Thanks...

Edited to add:

Yes Nancy, a comment here and there are helpful and very much appreciated

Untitled Comment

02:23, 2007-Jan-3 .. Posted by kimmie

congrads on your year!!!

praying for you & yours there!

Untitled Comment

04:07, 2007-Jan-3 .. Posted by southernbelle

Happy 1 year HSB anniversary!

Writing is therapeutic I think

04:16, 2007-Jan-3 .. Posted by HSBFrontPorch

And getting a few comments here and there kind of helps too huh?

Happy Blogging Anniversary!
~Nancy