Thunderwolf Ranch

All most 2 weeks and Dogs

Sunday night will be two weeks sence my daughter/dog hope went home to the Lord.  I have been a mess and still am!  I have such a hard time sleeping.  Hope always slept with me, now she is not there.  Her ashes have come back and they are under my pillow.   I have not been eating well, as it is hard to eat.  I look for her everywhere , then cry because she is not there.  Last night my body had enough, I crashed at 7:30 pm and woke up at 10:am then I crashed again at 1pm to 3:30pm.  I have gone down 2 sizes in jeans.  I am just so lost with out her. 

Shayna our middle daughter is looking for a new home for her wolf.  That is hard because they pick a person and that is it.  When she moved out she was going to be moving the wolf with her. But the people she lives with are afraid of him.   So the wolf has been here and hard because he fights with the other males.  Shayna does not have enough time to put into him.

With Hope gone to the Lord and the Wolf moving soon we will be done to 5 dogs. We also have freckles at almost 17 years old will be here as long as the Lord lets her be.

We have 3 breeding goldens for our service dog company, and 1 half wolf. We will be adding a small house dog in a few weeks to months.

Prayer needed 2 deaths

Our family is in need of prayer.   The 1st one is for me.  My daughter Hope passed away last night.  For those of you who no me , Hope is my dog.  I have had Hope for 11 years and 3 months.  She is/was the one who saved my life many times, she would warn me before I had an allergic reaction.  Hope is the dog in the picture on my page.  This is very hard for me as to me she was a daughter, best friend and so much more. Hope slept in my arms at night or on my feet, she was always with me.  I need prayer to help me with her passing.  This hurts so bad.  Hope was born in my hands and died in my hands.   I can't believe she is gone.

The second one is for my daughters boyfriend. His oldest sister passed on Saturday at the age of 31 in a car accident.  What is very had about her passing is she has two babies boys age 6 and 10 years old.  The boys lost their dad in a car accident 2.5 years ago.  They have no parents left.  The family is having a hrad time with their loss. As we all are.  Please keep us all in your prayers.

Blessing's Mj

Happy News,a new grandblessing

Our oldest daughter Deej stopped by today on her way to a friends wedding to see us.  What a blessing that was.  I have not seen her in months.  Deej and her hubby Joesph live about an hour away.  They both work many hours, it is hard to get my hubbies hours to match theirs so we can see them.  

Deej told me that after a year of just her and Joesph time alone they are ready to start a family!!  We are so happy for them and us as well another grandchild !!!!  We can't wait.  God is so good.

They are on the right track.  The got married a year ago Sept, they bought a house , had time for just them and now are ready for a family.  We are verry proud of her.   I can't wait for the call saying mom we are having a baby....  God is so good.

Test Dummies

I have 2 free test dummies!  Yup, 2 of my husbands co-workers have been my test dummies.  I have been sending my husband to work with lunch made from home.  I normally do, but now he is sharing more with them.  They have loved my beef soup, navey bean soup, pork chops, steak sauce over rice.  One has even had their wife try to copy my soups, but can't get it right, yet.  I asked my hubby did you tell them???  He says no not yet, maybe in a few days.

Then he told them it is all wheat free.  One guy was shocked, he just loved my pork chops, he could not tell the difference.  He loved my country gravey too.  Tomorrows lunch is bacon, fried potatos and biscuts with gravey.  I hope they like it.   I am going to keep sending lunch for my husband and the test dummies.   I am testing foods that I am putting in my wheat free cook book.  I have about 300 meals.  I am not going to test all 300 meals, it would take way to long.

My family and hubbies loves my cooking. They ask for me to make them my wheat free items. Or for me to bring my wheat free stuff to family events.  They like some things better than the stuff that has wheat in it. 

When I was told no more wheat YEARS ago I cooked 2 meals at dinner.  One for hubby and the girls and then one for me.  I got tired of that fast and started making one meal, a wheat free meal.   I still make hubby his cake and cookies and other things that have wheat in them.  But I also will make the same items wheat free for me.

Blessing's Mj

Husband decide about grandma

Thank you for all your prayers and advice on the grandma living with us stuff.  Husband has decided that grandma will not live with us.  Hubby is thinking that this is our time, his and mine.  We have had babies from the start and now that our youngest will be 18 years old in March. She is the last one living at home, we have time for just us.  Some might say we are looking out for just us, but we are not, it is just to much for Kristi and I to do.  We run our dog breeding and training business and our ranch. Plus Kristi is a senior and a full time college student.  We are enjoying each other and being free of babysitters , pet sitters and so on.  Hubby says that his mom needs to take care of grandma (her mom).  My mom in law Darline, who does not work , nor does her husband,  they can care for grandma.   We will help out and visit grandma.  We were seeing her 4 times a week before she moved out on her own  with hubby cousin.  It was hard for us/he to decide this.  Part of it is also we do not know what the out come of my leg is yet.  My Dr. is thinking of a new ankle for me.  If that happens I am back to semi bed rest and recovery for months, as my leg is still not healed all the way 25 months latter!!  On my C.T sacn you can see all of my breaks, some healed , some not yet. I did a good job when I broke it.  My mom always said to use ALL your checks (butt) and do it right!  But now she tells me not to do such a good job!!  Thank you again for your advice.

Blessing's ,Mj

What to do??

Hubby , Kristi and I are at a loss as what to do.  I am hoping that you guys might offer some advice for us.   Hubbies grandma moved out of her hospital/home.  She needs 24 hour care.  She moved out of there and moved in with one of hubbies cousins.  That only lasted a few days due to grandma was to much for his cousin to care for.  Grandma would run around naked, not use the potty and so on.  Grandma was placed in the hopital again and then sent to a home waiting for a place in a different home or to be sent home with a family member.

Hubbies mom wants grandma to come live here with us as Kristi and I are home more than the other children.  We would have to care for her in shifts as some one has to be with her at all times.   But the hard part is we (kristi and I) have a life too.  We own and run service dog training company and breed goldens.  We own a ranch that we need to finish building, we home school and Kristi is also going to college, we are involved in our church, and so on.  

We want to help , but we will need help too.  That is alot to put on just Kristi and I.  There are other family members who do not work or own a business or two, that could help , but wont.  Our whole life style will change again.  We wont be able to just escape to ride our horses or go out with out having a babysitter.  Hubby and I are enjoying this time ,as our baby is 17 years old, she'll be 18 in March, we have more time for each other now....  But, but, but!!   We rather grandma be with family, but we all need to pitch in for caring for her, not just leave it up to 2 people.  UUGGHHH, what to do??  Any ideas would be great!!  Blessing's Mj

P.s. This is for long care until grandma goes home to the Lord.

Rain , Rain Go away, puppies are coming soon

We are having so much rain come down!!  Our ranch has it's own lakes , yup lakes.  The ducks and Mr. McGoose are in hog heaven.  They are going from lake to lake swimming and just having fun.  Tommie, Shayna's pig is not having as much fun he plays in the water for a minute and then is done and it's turn the water off!!   The horses are doing ok, Cody is in the barn , stormy is in his pasture with his barn, the ponies are running and have shelter in the barn. 

The 2 wolves are trilling about the hippos and gaters in their water.  They stay in their houses and trill.   The other 5 dogs are in and out of the house all day long.   Our yard looks like a lake with a few rivers.  I could take a boat and flaot over to my mom's house 13 house away.  The water covers the whole street.  Ugghhh.  We have 2 more days of rain coming.

Kristi is in Texas visiting my best friend / sister Janet and her daughter Mya, Mya and kristi should be twins. Poor Janet.  Kristi was to come home today but due to our rain storms she will be home this weekend.  We miss her and need her.  

 Her dog gracie is about ready to pop!  She is so huge, we wonder how many puppies she will have??  We can't wait about another week to week in half left.

Blessing's Mj

1st lesson learned this year and #195

I leared a real good lesson this year already.  Yup, it even happened on New Years day.  We have a new rescue a bearded dragon named Bentley.  He is a mama's boy.  New Years day Bentley had sand in his nose , bad. So being a good mom I picked the sand out of his nose. He bit me!!  So I learned "do not pick your dragons nose"! .  When he had sand in it again we took him to the reptile store and asked how do we get the sand out his nose, they picked it out and did not get bit!  They told us to change his litter we did, it worked!

Number 195 and no it is not my weight.  I had another allergic reaction last week and ended up in the hospital again.  One of the ambulance men was our home school leader, he stayed with me at the hospital (even though my mom and Kristi were there) until my hubby got there.  Some of the parmedics were the same ones.  They were telling the new parmedics my history!!  I wonder if I get a prize if/when I hit 200. 

Blessing's Mj

My broken leg

I wish I had a good up date on my broken leg, but sorry, no.  It has been two years!  And it is still not fixed!!  As most of you know I broke my leg 12-27-07 cleaning up trash at out local park's creek.  It rained a few days before and we wanted to make sure the creek was clean out of trash. We get our tadpole and crawdads from this creek, so we like to make sure it stays clean and it is a good home school science day. The girls keep an eye on some type of plants, animals and such to see if there any changes in them, the good or the bad stuff.

I was just walking on the path and slipped 3 feet and broke my leg and ankle. I had to roll over to get my body to match the way my foot and leg was facing.  The ambulance take me to a different hospital than the one we go to because they have a bone Dr. on call.  The girls are in my truck behind the ambulance.  We get there and I do not remember much it seems like time just flew in the er.  One minute my lids are there and the next my hubby is.  I looked at him and said sorry, he laughed and said he was sorry!  The Dr.'s gave me a shot to put me to sleep so they could try and line it all up no luck, they woke me up and said you have to have surgery.  Both mu hubby and I were saying N O!!  I am to have surgery due to my lungs are damaged from have soooo many allergic reactions. They told us I have no choice.  I meet my bone Dr. and hubby and I gave him my medical history and the Dr. was so nice and made me feel good!! He said he was scared poopless to do surgery on me!  ThanksI feel REAL safe!  

I was going into surgery I put my grandfathers (bubba) chain on Kristi and gave her my medicine bag that I never take off unless it is to shower. I told my family bye and how much I love them.  In to surgery I went, I asked them before they put me under for a flat belly, a firm chest or a new baby boy.  They looked at me and I told then every time before I went under I would get to wake up with a new baby. I wanted a baby this time or a firm body, they laughed.  I was in surgery  for longer than they said and hubby was getting real scared.

I come out and am out of it but I am happy to see my family.  The Dr. latter asked me REALLY how did you do this??  Are you sure you weren't in a motorcycle accident???  He just stopped asking this question about a month ago. 

I was on bed rest for almost 5 months. I could not run my house nor my ranch. My life has been on hold for so long even till this day.  I have not rode my pony in two years, I have not finished what I was building two years ago, my barn has stayed the same, I need to finish it, My life is still on hold kinda.  I can not move my ankle right yet and wont be able to.  When we go to places like Disneyland I can not walk long or right yet.  Some times I get stuck and will fall becaus emy leg gives out and the pain......  I lived in bad daily pain until my last surgery in Sept, now it is still painfull but some days not as bad.  Some days I want a new leg!! But I have learned a lot during this time, God made sure of that.   I had my ct scan done on my leg 2 weeks ago and I am waiting to go see my bone Dr.  He tells me I have 3 choices 1, is live in pain, 2, is fuse my ankle, 3, is get a new ankle.  I was going for number 1 but my Dr. thinks number 3 would be best so I can ride and rebuild my ranch.  Time will tell.

It is just that 2 years latter you would think that my leg would be fixed, but nope.  The last surgery made life easier and less pain but were not done yet.

Here are the pictures:

In the hospital

1st peak on one side:

Cast changing 1 side:

Cast changing other side:

A few months latter my pins peaking out :

So here I am 2 surgerys, 2 pins (removed) 8 screws, 1 plate later still waiting to be fixed, opps and 2 years later.

Blessings, Mj

A long time

I have not wrote in my blogg for a long time.  During that time life has had it's up and downs.

Lets start with the downs:

We lost Ee our loved pet 500 pound sow.  We knew she would not live past this winter. She was getting old. We hoped she would have lived longer.

Here is Ee:

Ee , was like a dog with us.  When we showed her we did not have to use a hog stick,cane or board.  We just talked to her and she did it. Ee loved and was verry protective of Kristi.  When Kristi was sick she went into Ee's pen to nap, Ee snuggled up around her and kept her warm.  Ee looked at us in the eyes, you were like looking into each other.  We are not going to get any more pigs. No one could ever come close to her.  Shayna our middle daughter has her son, Tommie. Tommie misses his mom so much.  When we found Ee, (she never woke up from a nap) we covered her up with a tarp and weights to keep the tarp down. We go out to dig a HUGE hole  for Ee.  When we got to the pig pen we found the tarp removed and her son Tommie sleeping with Ee.  Tommie kept trying to wake her up, it was heart breaking.

The Ups:, is we have a new family member. Bentley a 4 year old bearded dragon. He is sooo cute and sweet.  He falls asleep at night in hubbies or mine arms!  He loves to snuggle with us.  I will post some pictures of him soon.

Another up is hubbies grandma has moved down here and we we have been seeing her alot.  We had a blessing of all 5 generation seeing her in one day.

1. is grandma

2. is my mom in law

3. is my hubby

4. is our daughters

5. is our grand babies.

Here is the picture of that day:

Another blessing is that Cameron is getting better.  He is the boy who our horse Cody bit.

Yet another blessing is having a day with my hubby , Kristi and Michelles family at Disneyland, we had a blast.

Blessing to you al, Mj

Warning Kristi and Mya running free, summer 2010

My daughters Kristi and Mya (bff's daughter) want to go on a trip by them selfs this summer, no mommies around.  They both say Kristi will be 18 yrs and Mya will be 17 yrs, they are big enough to do it.  May I remind you girls what you guys did running free last time???

Lets start off with POOR Mya.  She discovered a cow:

Then POOR Mya gets the shock of her life , This is where milk comes from??????

Just look at her, shes so shocked!!!

Next we have Mya making friend with pine cones:

Then the girls are making "new" friends:

Lets start on dear Kristi.  She is walking in the street thinking she is a car....

Oh wait car ride low to the ground, so I think I'll sit in the road:

Wait, wait , I got it I'll be a speed bump:

Here is a close up of the "speed bump"...

Back to Mya she discover pine cones:

 These girl want us to let them go to the beach for a weekend. We wonder what they will do.  Dig holes in the sand and put their heads in , cover up with sand the leave their feet out???   Will they go make friends with the sharks???  We have no clue. But these two sisters together is a funny thing.  Here are more pictures of these two nuts:

Blessing's  Mj

Prayer need and it happened again

Tigger, Krist has pneumonia

Well Saturday was not a good day.  We took Tigger in to the vets.  Tigger had bone cancer in his jaw.  We were given a choice of putting a feeding tube in him or feeding him by hand to make him live longer.  Kristi and I talked, she felt bad like we were playing God by putting him down, but understood why we were going to put him down.  I told Kristi it was right to let him go.  He did not need to live in pain and have tubes put in him just for us to have him longer.

So we let Tigger go home.  He went home in my arms.  It was/is very hard.  We had Tigger for 11 years.  We found him in the street with his mom and litter mates dead.  Tiggers eyes were just starting to open.

We left the vets office and went to the urgent care for Kristi because her lung were hurting her so bad she had a hard time talking!  We knew that her flu went into her left lung a week ago.  So I took her in, the Dr. said she needs and x-ray, ok I say who is going to do it Raymond or Barb?   That shocked him that we know them by their 1st name.   Barb come in the room about 30 minutes after he called her.  She walks in hi Kristi , he is still shocked.   So Kristi goes off and has her x-ray, she comes back when she is done.  We sit for about 20 more minutes.  The Dr. comes back and says her x-rays are ok.  I ask to see them if I could she them and he grouns.  I look and ask what are the white spots??  Oh there normal. Then why doesn't the lung that is NOT bothering her have them??? 

We go back in the room and he says he has no clue what to do!!!  Uumm excuse me??   He says it again.  He tells me to call her Dr. Monday morining.  Well that was a waste of 3 hours!!    I call Loura this morining (her Dr.) and she is out of town all week!!   Uugghhh..... So it looks like Kristi has pneumonia again.   What a Saturday.

Blessings Mj

An up date on life

The past week or so has been crazzzyyy.  Danny is doing ok, after his mom nearly drowning him.  She left him alone in the tub while it was filling up. Danny is only 11 months old and slow for his age.  The police and child protective unit are checking on him still.    His mother says she is the person most  hurt by this.

Lets see Kristi is still sick. She had the flu and it settled in her left lung. We have to watch to make sure that it does not get worse.  Tigger one of our cats has a dr. appt at 3:30 tomorrow to check the growth in hisjaw.  If it is a tumorhe willbe going home. We have had him for 11-12 years.  Hubby is home so I am off for tonight.

Blessing's, Mj

Prayer Needed Very Badly, emergency

We need prayer very badly. Please help.  Michelle's friend  (who she lives with) 10 month old baby, Danny drowned.  He is in the hospital barley alive.  He has a 4 year old sister.  His mom left Danny in the tub by his self the tub was filling up, she went to get the phone.  Yes, I know the mother was not doing her job, but this sweet baby boy needs all of our prayers.

This is Danny:

Please lift up Danny in prayer.

p.s. Michelle is moving out!!

So much going on and sad news

It has been awhile from my last posting.  Things have been nuts , good and sad, and way mad (worse than a wet hen).   The nuts part has been finishing up doing SOOO much work for Michelle's wedding. She gets married tomorrow.  The good part is my bone Dr. put steroids in my ankle and after a little over a week latter my pain is less.  I go back Monday to do it again.  Hubby took me out to a very nice dinner for my 40th birthday. I asked Kristi and Shayna to come. But unknown to me, my hubby asked them to come.  He also gave an shout out to my parents and Michelle that they are welcome to come too.  My parents did. 

The nuts part is doing all this filming for the "bridzilla show".  I am very mad/upset that Michelle spoke bad about my mom.   My mom has worked her but off doing Michelles flowers.  Kristi and I have helped her out.  Michelle told said that my mom made these flowers for someone elses wedding!!  I am so mad at her.  No one I mean NO ONE says that or any thing about my mom!

The sad part is we will be sending to of our furry children home to the Lord this month.  Our dog Freckles who we call Weasle ( she used to be able to get in and out of things you would never think she could fit in or out of)  Weasle is 16 years old, she is a queensland heeler.  She is in pain (her medicine is not working as it used too) , she can not hold her bladder for even two hours.  She walks to stiff , she'll fall, get up and walk then fall again.   Tonight my adopted daughter Jessie (Kristi's best friend) found a tummor on our 12 year old cat Tigger.  It is in Tiggers mouth.  So Tigger will be going home too. We found tiger in the street when his eyes were not even open and his mom and litter mates were dead. This is all tooooo much at this time.  Prayer is needed for us all, please.

Blessings, Mj

Worry 2 children kidnapped, prayer need

The wedding is getting closer!  They start taping the show "Bridezilla's" on Sunday.   Michelle informed Kristi that Kristi must stay the night before at the hotel with all the other "wedding girls".  They are having a "girls night" party and the show is taping it.  Shannon and I are not very happy about Kristi being there for that party.  There will be stuff she does not need to know, nor does she need to be around that stuff.  So hubby, Kristi and I talked. 

Becuase she does need to be there for the "party" she will go due to the show.  But when it gets to the point where Krsiti feels that is is time to come home she will.  Kristi does not like to be around people who are drinking or smoke , talk perverted and so on.  Kristi has very high morals and values for a young woman of 17 years old.  We are wondering if we should take bets with my family to see how long Kristi will last ????  

Kidnapped girls:

Last week right in front of my mom's house a 15 year old girl was kidnapped walking to school, the man let her go when he was done with her.   Then also Kristis youth ministers niece was kidnapped at the movies, she made it home last night.  Due to all of this Kristi is on driving, walking, shopping  restriction.   Kristi used to say "what can happen walking to Nana's??"  Well , you see what can happed.  My mom lives 14 houses away.  Kristi is a small young woman.  I have told hubby that I am buying her a rottie puppy and training it to be a service dog for Kristi.  She has the goldens for service dogs, but no one is scared of goldens.  A rottie will keep the wrong people from her.  But with it being trained for service it will have a job and be friendly, the bad guys do not need to know that.

   For those of you who know me I am VERY pickey when it comes to my dogs or animals. There will be a ton of line checking, temperment, health and so much more for the rottie.   Rottie can and do make wonderful service dogs.  I have found a breeder I love and have been thinking  about one for me to help with my leg issues.  I need a large dog to help lean on and to help me get my balence.  But with this breeder I think the rotties will be to big for Kristi.  I am looking at another service dog breeder whos specialty is rotties.

Some might think this is too much.  But for those who do not know me, I have had Michelle kidnapped as a small child. I know that pain and fear to well.  I never want to feel that again.

The wedding. A curse and a blessing at the same time

Michelles wedding is getting closer and closer.  Kristi and I have been helping my mom with making the flowers for the wedding.  I found a nice shirt and a cute pair of pants.  Now I need to find some shoes.  The hard part is Michelle keeps changing things.  She was going to have her father walk her down the asile and have his wife be the mother of the bride too.  But now it has all changed, yet again I should say.  But I also say do not look a gift horse in the mouth!

The new change is a blessing and a curse.  Lets start with the CURSE. UUUmmmm Michelle is now having her wedding on the t.v. show bridezilla's.  UUUggghhh.  She is going to make the best out of this, meaning she will be a big B on this show and play it up good.  Kristi and my mom and I have an idea , we will make signs saying like, save us, we do not know her, shoot us and so on and so on, we like it!! The blessing in this t.v show, is that her father (the child molester) will not be walking her down the asile. He doesn not want his church, and other daughter to know he is a convicted child molester, nor his work.  That is the never look a gift horse in the mouth part.

But now tonight she decided that she wants my husband her step dad who has raised her for 21 years to do it.  He does not want to and yet he does at the same time.  He most likely will do it.  But Michelle wants him to get a tux in a few days.  That is a big NO.  We can not get one that fast.  He will wear his nice slacks and shrit to match the color of mine and a nice tie.  Heck, I keep asking my mom if I could just wear jeans and a t-shirt??  She smiles at me and says NO, I have to go and be good and so does she.

We can not wait for this wedding to be over.  Just like 2 weeks left. Save us please   .  Blessing's Mj

Advice need, Poor Kristi

My baby Kristi wrote this about her volley ball game on her face book page. "had a volleyball game we did good. But i didnt have any fun"   Why did she not have fun, well she did not even play one game and played maybe 20 minutes out of the next 5 games.

I see nothing wrong with what she wrote , it was/is how she feels.  But then she receives this message from a so called friend and team member:

I want a redo button!!!

I want a redo button for the trouble with Michelle.  As most of you know her bio father molested her and took her gift that should have been given to her husband.  Michelle is getting married again (the wedding is back on) on Nov 7th.  She is having her father walk her down.  My husband and I fought for 14 years to protect her from this found guilty child molester. We spent close to 500 thousand doing it.  Then dear sweet Michelle rights this :

I have a HUGE family, and yes as other people may like to point out, i'm not perfect. But what i do know is in my eyes i have two DADDYS not a step or a blood related just my daddys.
I have two Moms which i love both as well, but i am closer to my tech (step-mom) robbin. The relationships i have with my family are all different, but i love everyone the same, My dad shannon and i have a good relationship and i will never change that, the only reason we are not closer i believe is due to past issues growing up, i had a very troubled childhood and alot of it got pinned onto my dad mike which is lets face fact's not the whole truth.
My dads and i are close as are my mom robbin and i, i can call them to talk or ask advice and i love that. My mom , i do not have that realtionship with because for the small fact of no matter what i do in life i am wrong i love her as my mother but thats all we have really, i try hard to please everyone and i can't. i appreciate the people in my life that support me no matter what i do, especially my wonderful aunt's tracy and buffy, they listen and advice me but never judge me. I am getting married in november to gilbert and can't wait to watch our family grow we have high hopes and always put the kids first as it should be. i have learned alot from all my parents, and the thing i learned the most is i am will give my kids a better life and relationship with their mother that i never had.

 As For Michelle doing what is best for the kids uuummm, she shipped them to Jeffies dad.  There are to be gone a week, but now she does not want them back until after 10-31!!!  Oh she kept the baby , who is Gills.

My reply is (Bubba is my grandfather):

Have you ever wish there was a redo button for things you would change is the past???
Some times I do.  I would like to smack the redo button at this moment, hard.  I would go back and stop the good hard fight I fought many years ago.  Fighting that good , hard, long, EXPENSIVE fight ended up not being worth it in the end.  My Bubba would be very upset at the way it turned out.  I know he would ad voided so and so, because they are doing wrong.   Of course  after he gave them his 2 cents worth!  Heck, I know my Bubba he would give $100's worth forget the 2 cents!!!!!.  He would not be happy that the money he gave to help in this good hard fight went to waste. Others feel it was a waste also. I put to much time in the good fight and my husband worked WAY TOO HARD for WAY TOO LONG to pay for this good hard fight.

I do not understand things.  How could some one do such terrible things, take away some ones gift that should go to their husband and then get to pretend it never happened and become the role they should have be all along.

I would like a redo button!!!!!!

Help prayer needed!, Mj