Thunderwolf Ranch

From my heart, prayer needed and the 2 resuces.

Today I talked to my Dr. to see what else I can do to heal from my anaphylaxis. I do take 4 different allergy medicine , have acupuncture every other week for my allergies and I get allergy shots every week. I have started to see a counsler at church to help with my fear.

My fear of having a allergic reaction where there is no hospital around. See when I have a BAD allergic reaction I have to get the right medicine in a few minutes or I die. I do have a ( 5) epi pens and take my other emergency medicine , but I still have to go to the Er ( last time it was the trama room ) and get more shots , more medicine and some times many breathing treatments. So traviling far is like a BIG fear. My poor hubby has to put up with this and it is hard on him. At this time his mother is in a hospital out of state and he feels torn, he wants us to go visit his mom , but it scares me sooo much. We would have to travel 4 hours to get to her and there are many miles with nothing, no towns, no hospitals, nothing. Some people say fly , but due to my bad lungs ( from too many bad reactions) the presure would make it so hard to breath. Help, what do I do??  I am working so hard to get over my fear, but poor hubby, he has me scared to do this and that. He says he is trying to understand , as he sees me working hard to get over this fear. What is wierd I use to be fine , I would travel to see his mom at the river in AZ ,4 hours away, take my girls camping to pismo beach ( we had a house and rv trailer up in pismo) go to the zoo, us girls would go to disneyland every week, ( we had year around passes and we do not have to wait in lines due to my service dog , we  go up the exits and get on the rides right away) We have not been in 2 years ( not all due to my fear, we saved more animals instead ). I want that me back , the one who enjoyed life with my family , not liveing in fear . We had a speaker at last sunday and he said God gives us trials

to make lean on him and hopefully some time in our lives we can look back and see how we have grown, kinda like pruning us so we grow more fruit . No one is promised a easy life , Jesus said we would go through hard times because we believe in him.  I do want to fail this trail , I want to see the fruit of this hardship , I can say look where I was and look at what God did. So I am working on this big time , any and all prayer would be great and loved.

We are going to see if the old 4h leader will take less for the horses so we can save them.

I will post on both the rescues and how God is working in me to get over my fear and live in faith like I use to. God Bless, mj