Thunderwolf Ranch

prayer needed,scared,hospital,190,mad,worried,sad & up date

Yesterday started out so fun with the grand-babies, we had a blast.  Michelle let them stay later because Shannon (my hubby) had an employee (his driller) get something in his eye.  Hubby is an operations mangers for an environmental drilling company.  Thank you Michelle. Hubby and I had fun playing out side with the babies.  But later.

Scared:  After dinner I started to get an upset stomach and it felt like an allergic reaction one.  I waited a few minutes to see if it was or not, then took some of my medicine to see if that would stop it, NO.   After a few minutes it got worse so I called 911 and gave my self a shot.  By the time help got here I was red and trowing up.  The give me an i.v. and get started taking me in.  Hubby was talking to them.   The girls left to take the babies back to Michelle.  So off I go , scared because I/they never know if it is going to be a mild hospital visit or an i.c.u hospital visit.   I was crying because I was upset at having another and I wanted my husband!! 

Hospital: As soon as the ambulance gets me in the parking lot it hit worse.  The hospital advised the ambulance to not give me more medicine I had enough, ugh wrong.  The run me in and I get a bunch of shots because what I did not take was enough.  The hospital brought up my records and said she has a BIG record here she needs this.  Thank God I asked for my usual hospital because of that reason.    I let early because I got better and was back to normal, ok normal, for me after a reaction!  They wanted to admit me for 3 hours!  Hello no.  So I did an AMA.  I know my body and if I was not feeling normal and did not wait to see if it would come back again after the medicine wore off.

190: This hospital visit was my 190th one!!  I have had more reactions than that a ton more.  That number is just my hospital visits in 16 years.

Mad:  because it happened again!  It has been almost a year.  And they wanted me to be admitted for 3 hours.  The hospital can NOT feed me at all and it is verry hard for them because I am sooo allergic to all of the cleaners they use.  I scare most of the dr.'s and nurses.  When I broke my leg my dr. kept telling me how scared he was to operate on me. He told me I scared him **** less. He told me so many times how much I scare him because of my allergies.  What a good feeling know you have to go under when you are suppose to and having the dr. tell you he does not want to operate because he is so scared.  Thank God for the anasteseologist he made me feel good about it and told me not to worry.

Worried:  because I do not like these , I hate them, I am scared I will have more.  I am always afraid I am going to die and leave my family.  I know I have no control of when God calls me home, but I still worry about leaving my hubby and babies.  Shayna's 1st horse show is in the morning I want to go , but am a little bit worried about it after last night.

Sad:  I missed our adopted daughter wedding .  That hurt me so bad.  We sent the girls to watch their sister get married , they sent me pictures while it was going on.

We never know what sets me off like that.  It could be a build up of my allergies and then I am exposed to a thing I am allergic to and off we go.  Or being exposed to one of my HIGH allergies and off we go.  My dr. who treated me for 10 years believes it is the 1st one.

I would like to ask for prayer.  For strength  to go one with out fear, for me to recover , for me not to worry like I do and play it over and over in my mind.  And for my family as they take over again as I recover.

God Bless and thank you so much, mj

P.S. Update:  Michelle texted Kristi my youngest daughter. Michelle asked if I was doing better ?.  Kristi said yes.  Michelle wrote back ****! . How rude .  Is it ok to love your child but to not like them from time to time?????  Because I love Michelle , but sometimes I just do not like her.   She is not the woman we brought up!!!

I know what you mean.....

{ 04:44, 2008-Sep-20 } { Posted by patintenn }

I too have very life-threatening reactions to a lot of food. I also find it so very hard to eat out. I pretty much can't any more. I can not have any MSG (or other names that they call it) or preservations of any kind. I have to cook from scratch. I also have reactions to smells. Really anything that smells like flowers and such. ANd cleaners, forget it. I can not get around bleach either.

I know how to pray for you. I have had many reactions also. My throat starts to close if I do not get medicines in me in time.

God is incontrol and He will protect us !!

Thanks for stopping by my place.
Pat

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{ 06:58, 2008-Sep-20 } { Posted by gabbie427 }

I had no idea you had such life threatening allergies dear MJ!!! *HUGS* Thank goodness you were able to get to your normal hospital and they were able to get your records in time to realize you needed more meds.

I am so sorry you missed her wedding. I know from the previous post how excited you were that she is marrying such a wonderful man!!!

Glad you are ok and still alive tonight dear. I will be praying.

God's Blessings,
Amy Jo

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{ 02:04, 2008-Sep-22 } { Posted by chimicole }

MJ~
I had no idea about your allergies! And here I am complaining about minor things in my life...
You are a blessing to me, and I think you for your kind words on my blog.
(And yes, it is ok to not like your children sometimes. I have one that isn't in my highest graces right now for comments such as the one you described...)
God bless~
Julie