Today, I spent time pondering things in my heart.  I wrote a entry earlier about gardening and prospering where your planted.  I had a nice long talk with my best friend about these thoughts and recently read two blogs about the same thing.  My thoughts were on contentment.

"Contentment ~ the state, quality, or fact of being satisfied."

Well, I finally realized that I had to face myself in this area today or nothing would go right for the rest of my life.  Yes, I probably will have to face myself again in the future, for I am not perfect, but somehow today was different.  Today, I was in the backyard, watching for the dog and really taking a good look at the land.  As I said before, we live on a 3/4 of acre which most of it is in the back yard.  Its a rather large yard and there is so much that can be done if we knew how.  As I was standing there thinking about the coming year, and making sure the dog didn't get out the yard, I found myself thanking God for where I was right at this moment.  I hadn't done that in a very long time.  I was of late so frustrated w/our position that I forgot the incredible blessing I had been given.  No its not the home of my dreams, no its not even ours, no its not out in the country or anything that I would have chosen for myself.  It is the house that God chose for me for this season in my life.  I also realized that I no longer desired to move back home or to anywhere else unless it was God's divine direction.  I wanted out of here very badly.  I am not very found of some parts of OK and I truly miss the beach and the lighthouses.  However, these thoughts were creating discontentment in my heart.

Today, I decided that I was going to be just fine, even if it meant living in OK for the rest of my life.  Its really not that bad and you know, it has a tendancy to grow on you.  Now, there are somethings that I will have to do differently and we will need to find a home church ~ one of the hardest things about living out here.  However, I no longer worry about this either, God is in control.  Therefore, I will do what the scripture says "Be still and know that He is God."

My heart is satisfied with my Lord and all that He has prepared before me.  I know that He has prepared only good things for me and will reveal them to me in His time.  I even have scripture to back it.  This is my life scripture.

"For I know the thoughts that I think toward you, says the Lord, thoughts of peace and not of evil, to give you a future and a hope." Jer. 29:11 NKJV

You can read more on contentment at these blogs  Homestead Way of Life and  Country Life City Style.

~ Be Blessed ~