My Private Farm off the Farm
• Monday, October 20, 2008 - Goin' Homeschool...
| Okay.. we are in.
I just CAN NOT TAKE the drive anymore.
I really feel that God put me in a ciderpress (hey, it's the harvest season, lol)... and is prrrrrrrreeeeesssssssssing me to do the homeschool thing. Everyone is on board.. everyone is all about us homeschooling. My anxiety is to a new level about leaving the house... and I truely believe my "anxiety" is actually God removing some type of grace that before now was for me driving the crazy distance to our Waldorf school. That lifting of grace is the ciderpress I am talking about. No harm is coming of it.. it just is the last way He is using to really guide me towards something that I know He wants...at least for this school year.
I have so many kids lol. Two are still learning English after only getting here from Guatemala 4months ago. But I think I am capable of being the best teacher for everyones individual needs. I just wish I could sit down with another mom to a big family.. one with such diverse needs as mine.. but really, lol.. what are the chances. Oh right and that mom would have to be homeschooling her kids, lol.
On a really intersting note that I don't want to forget.... So my daughter (one of 2 from Guate) is 5 years old and has lived with me 4months. Her last fostermom had her for 4 months... and they say there is some "muscle memory" to that... as in .. after 4months she gets shipped off... So although my dd has been a bit off for the week.. I have just tried to support her without putting her in a spotlight of sorts. And of course I have been praying for her... Then the night of her 4month anniversary she dreams... up till now I have never heard her speak of dreams.... But her dream was that birds came and picked her up with their beaks and took her to "norma's casa" (fostermoms house)... the birds who took her were light blue and the ones who took her sister were white....
How crazy is that... so anyway .. I told her the next morning that "Momma would be so sad... and I will take .....this hanger and beat those birds... muerto!" To which she told me it was "up up up"...as in too high to reach....Well I told her that her whole family (naming all grandparents and aunts and family) will get in "tio Ben's la avion and we will grab you and hug you .. and we will beat those birds muerto"... She laughed and gave me a hug.. and then we all told her ways that we would be sad if she was gone... but no matter what we will come for her.. and we willnever let anyone snatch her away, because we are her family and we love her so much.
I just think that is awesome that God gave her that dream to articulate to us what was going on in her mind... and then in turn we could really validate her security in our family.... I know we will do it again in other ways.... but isn't it amazing how He works?!
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