It’s amazing how much perspectives can change over a short period of time. And how the things that you swore that you would never want nor have are the things that you long for the most. Several years ago I wanted a life that benefited me. I wanted a college education and a career. I have always wanted to get married, but only because that was what fit into my idealistic lifestyle. I wanted only a few children and having none didn’t sound to bad either. I wanted to see what I could get to please me. Now, however, I have changed from a selfish little girl only concerned for herself, to a girl who is trying to become the woman that God wants her to be. Last year, after only two college courses, God laid it on my heart that I shouldn’t go to college. I haven’t taken another class, and I don’t regret my decision. I still want to marry, but now I want to, not for just myself, but for the joy of having someone to love. And as for children, I want as many as God will give me. I am praying that He blesses me with many. I used to resent having a large family, but now I thrive on it.

When my parents uprooted us last year, I left everything that I knew and loved behind. What I loved was a life a convenience. I wanted to hate Texas upon hearing we were moving, and I did. However, moving here where you work for what you have and the nearest store is over eight miles away, life is far more convenient then it was in Las Vegas. Sometimes we have to let go of what we are comfortable with to receive what really want. God knows what we want and need even if we do not or at least think that we do.