The Start of a Homesteader Mom

hmmmm

I am starting to get paronoid that noone likes me anymore. I guess I am just not posting anything interesting .

Today is my last day at work.... well until Tuesday when I stop in to get paperwork. But officially I am a SAHM tomorrow!

I am so nervous but also excited beyond belief! Last night Alyssa and I were jumping on the trampoline. Then we went inside and we glued together craft sticks I got at micheals and were making things with them.  At bedtime I was telling her tomorrow is the last morning I will make you get up at 6 am. She got a huge smile and said "and then we can jump on the trampoline and craft ALL the time!" I am SOOOOOOOO glad I am coming into SAHMing when it is Spring and not winter.

My mom keeps making me feel like I will never be able to do it... I know she means well. But am I the only person in history that has worked and then quit to stay at home with their babies? I am sure other moms do it so I can too. She was really bumming when I told her what Justin and I talked about last night.

Justin had Tristan on the porch playing while Alyssa and I were jumping. He was grilling out. Then I took Tristan in to go to bed and Justin ate some hotdogs with Alyssa and spent time with her. Winters are hard on us but something about the awesome air and warm weather puts everyone in a good mood. When he came inside I still had Tristan up. I had put on Diego for him because he was getting diaper change and he loves to watch tv. (I know bad me but not something I worry about yet) He was talking back to him and clapping and dancing so I let him stay up till it was over (it was a tape because we dont have tv reception or anything but videos and dvds at our house - much nicer that way!).

Well Justin said "I am ready to try for another baby!" I looked at him like he was insane of course! Sure I want more but NOW? I have so much adjusting to do. I figured this was a feel good moment and he would reconsider later. But he says "I already told my mom (  ) and I told her I wanted to wait 1-3 months to see how you adjust to homelife and then I am ready for another kid" I have mixed emotions about this. I am soooooooo loving my kids and wanting another. But I am soooo tired too. I still dont have Tristan sleeping through the night. 4 times up last night but he was just sick so now we have to work on sleeping again.

And then there is mom. I told her what he said and of course I get the - you are going to make a mistake. You wont be able to give your other kids the love and attention they deserve. etc etc. She did say that the advantage I have over what she had was I have family around to help me out. But she wants me to wait until tristan is like 2-3 to ttc. I understand but this is our decision and I have PCOS. I cant afford to wait to ttc. I have to try now and pray for the best.

So here I am. I am worried. I dont know what I want. I am scared of failing... But yet... I am soooooo excited about the new stage of my life. Please pray that the best happens for us. And that I have more kids if and when it is Gods timing.

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09:11, March 31, 2006 .. Posted by MicheleC11

You can do it!! I'm currently working to pay off my debt so that I can also be a SAHM. I understand where you're coming from, though. My mom says stuf like that to me, too. But I know you can do it.

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09:15, March 31, 2006 .. Posted by crewchief

(((HUGS))) Congrats on becoming a SAHM! No, you are NOT the only to person to make that switch. I\'ve been there, done that. It will be great! $$ gets tight, you get stressed and tired, but it is *so* much better than the alternative!

As for ttc again, how many children does your mother have? You will have plenty of love to go around, I assure you.

I, too, have PCOS. Are you treating it?

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PCOS

09:28, March 31, 2006 .. Posted by LindaI

I WAS treating it until I went off met when I got pregnant with my daughter. AT the time they took you off when you got pregnant. Now they let you stay but I never got back into using it... I hate it! Blah. I know that the day will come when I have to face it and work harder on controling it... but I dont want too... (((little girl kicking and screaming))) For the sake of wanting to see my kids grow up I better though. Just putting it off for the moment.

oh and my mom has 3 and had another baby that died at 2 days old. (her first kid). But her issue was she had 3 under 3. And lived far away from her family. My issue is I was one of the 3 under 3 and as a kid growing up and now adult. I would not have made it any other way. We were all so close!

PCOS

10:17, March 31, 2006 .. Posted by borderling

What is PCOS?
As for not having enough time or love for more children? The only way you recieve more love is to give what you have away. I pray God's will for your life. You are so blessed.
Rhonda

Hey!

10:19, March 31, 2006 .. Posted by matsmom97

I read here!LOL WOW! I can't believe your mom is saying that to yoU! That's just not nice at all. It sounds like a great day at your house tho! I wouldn't mind a trampoline,b ut we had a big wind storm here not to long ago and almost everyone's got trashed. Made me glad I didn' thave one then!LOL

PCOS

10:55, March 31, 2006 .. Posted by LindaI

PolyCysticOvarianSyndrom... maybe Dana (matsmom) will blog on it sometime! Hint hint...

Yeah... I think mom is just plain worried. And rightfully so. From birth to this point I have relyed on her heavily and pretty much not shown her what I can do. I have it in me to be a good wife and mom. It is just hard working full time with a husband working full time and never being home as it is.

I just wish she would not make me so worried and doubtful.

I like you

02:05, March 31, 2006 .. Posted by southernbelle

Don\'t be parnoid....what am I saying??? I feel the same way about my own blog!! Seems as if no one out there is reading....Well, obviously by all the comments here, people are reading you! xoxox

Congratulations!

12:53, April 1, 2006 .. Posted by jenna

I just saw your blog for the first time today. Congratulations on your last day of work and your new adventure being a SAHM!!! I'm sooooo excited for you!!!! I am working FT and have two little ones also, so I always love to hear of other moms who've made it home. It gives me hope! :)

Again, Congratulations and I look forward to hearing more about the days ahead! :)

jenna :)

GO LINDA!

09:42, April 1, 2006 .. Posted by Dini

Linda, I KNOW you can do this! Don't let relatives discourage you. I had four babies in 6 1/2 years, and my family told me more than once that I was crazy, I couldn't handle it, etc. But I have. And I know you will be able to, too. You have a different kind of support network than your mom did, and that makes a big difference. Plus, you know the Lord, and He will not give you more than you can handle!

Hi

09:07, April 4, 2006 .. Posted by MyThreeDaughters

I wish I knew your blog well to make a good comment on having another baby. I have 5 and have been a sahm for the whole time. How old are your children?