Jonash .... Two of a Kind Working on a Full House

Tue-15-Jul-2008 - I feel . . . BLESSED!!! :)

Whatever was going on with me the last few weeks has shifted. The pity-party is over, the clouds are parting, the gloom is drifting away.

I probe the edges of my mind, trying to see how far away the doubt is lurking, and it’s very, very hard to reach. Remember how I said that the inner core of me was tiny and I had to search for it? It’s not so tiny anymore . . . .

I feel so deeply blessed . . . .

I have been pregnant 4 times in three years. Because of God’s great mercy towards us, we have two boys already and the hope of holding in our arms another precious baby early next year . . . . and I’m feeling richly blessed.

Samuel has a cold and an ear infection.

Elijah still nurses – a lot!

I accidentally bleached a big circle in the living room carpet which we noticed last night.

. . . all of this and I’m just very peacefully happy inside. I probably should bemoan something but I can’t think of what. I’m sure my life is vastly more difficult with a 2yo and a 9mo than it could be otherwise . . . but it’s simply my life. In a way I don’t know any better!

There is so much joy mixed up in the challenges of this life of mine that I wouldn’t trade it for anything. So many smiles and so much laughter. I love it that most of the time when Jonathan is tired, he comes home and plays with the boys instead of just sleeping like he would have when it was just the two of us.

Parenthood has shaped us with sacrifice. We don’t have the alone time or the rock-solid guarantee of sleep in the quantities we used to. I used to love being alone, and now I’m shocked to find that I love not being alone!

This is a season of my life I don’t want to cut short!