Unwed Moms of Virtue

Saturday....

Well the next few weeks are going to be crazy. For one all the kids will be leaving on monday to go to Tennessee for there sebc trip with the youth group.They will be gone on monday, tuesday and wednesday.. Mom is going to be home by herself.. Oh the things i am going to do. Like NO COOKING, No cleaning up after everyone. MOM IS ON VAC. Oh the joy.. Oh how bored i am going to be....  Once they get back it will be a matter of me getting things all together for me to go to the hospital. I will be there for at least two days. My children will be staying with friends from church. I am so thankful i have them. When I get home I will be down for at least two weeks. And out of work for six or more weeks. I plan on planning a menu for the kids so that they can keep meals cooked up while i am not able to do much. It will make things so much easier for all of us.

So when they are out of town mom will be planning meals, buying what groceries we will need along with supplies we will need to cook those meals. Get all the last minute things done that i can so that when i come home the house is in order. I want things cleaned real well and what better time then when i am at home by myself with nothing to do. 

Tonight we are having such a simple meal. Meatloaf, potates and vegs along with bread. Cant get to much more simple than that.

I figure while i am out of commision i can have liz cook things like stew in the crock pot, chili and just simple things like that. Beans are always a staple in our home and well that is another things with rice and cornbread that will fill them up and yet does not make liz live in the kitchen.. ;-)

So that is what will be going on here in this house. As far as new years eve well we will sleep the new year in. And new years day will be a normal day of cooking and spending time as a family....

God bless all

glenda

Lessons I am learning...

You know it is funny no matter how old you are there is always lessons in life to learn. For me this happen in the past few days... We are now back online and i have had people after people tell me oh you need to set up a myspace account.... So I did. My sons told me mom i am not sure if you want to do this. Now rememeber he is 16.. Smart child i am finding... Mom not so much... Anyway off we went onto the internet highway with the help of my son.. Downloaded pics and set up the account and information.... Everything was great the first day.. Then the emails and pics started pouring in...................... NOT ones you would want to have............... Oh boy... I mean i told everyone that I am a christian.. CHRISTIAN... And you would not believe the stuff that came into my mail box.. i finally had enough after telling one person off and reporting many more.. That to say the least the myspace account is now longer there. I CANCELLED it.. They really got into MY space... I tell you I so much better love the blog land.. I mean i am sure there is times when there can be freaks but oh my you just dont know the freaks that are out there.. I have learned that  i am not ready for the big internet highway not that way....

On a better note i have updated my info here and have my new email address posted so that you all can email me now... It is so good to be here and to be around others that have some common sense about you... Because LORD knows that there is those out there on other sites who have NONE...

So no matter how old you are there is always lessons to learn..

God bless

glenda

Wow what a day!!!

Today has been a wonderful day. It has been a busy day but a good day... I wrote earier today that i felt like God has given me a second wind and it is funny but it is almost like he has given me a new vision a new veiw of my life and my childrens life..

My life has been so crazy as those of you who have followed my blog know all to well. For years I wrote about things as they were to some degree but yet not as they were all the way honestly.. I honestly kept alot of stuff off the blog as I am sure most of you do. I wrote about how i in some ways wish things were. I made excuses for why we did the things we did.. I learned a hard lesson with that. You have to be true to first God and then true to yourself if not you are only distroying yourself and everything you hold dear to you. Once the kids dad left I honestly did not know what to do. I mean i was alone for the first time in my life. And even worse i had five other people that depended on me.. ME... How was i going to do this... But you know what god is great he already knew what was going to happen and he had prepared me in ways that i did not even know at that time... I can now look back and I know that well things were not right from the start with my x and I.  I covered up things for him, I allowed things to happen that should have never happened all out of fear. Fear of being alone, fear of what others would think of me, fear of him even. How sad life is when you are driven out of fear. You do things and even write things that are not true just to keep up the view of what you think people what  to see...

No more.. Here I am world. I am what i am... I am a christian that Loves the Lord with all her heart. I am a single divorced mom of five wonderful teenagers. Yes you heard me right five teenagers that are wonderful. NOT perfect but wonderful., I am scared of what the furture is going to bring and yet at the same time i am so looking forward to what God has instored for me and for my children. Life is so full of wonderful possibilities... God has showed me that with him i have NO need to be scared.. He already knows what is going to happen. All I have to do is trust. If i trust him he will be there for me and the children. That just sets us free...

I have so much to be thankful for. To many things honestly to list. I mean i have a wonderful home, I have my children, I have dear friends that Love me and all my crazy moods. I have those I love to cry on when things are just not going right. My bills are paid and there is food in my home.. So much more than we had a year ago... God is so good he has restored to the children and I everything we had and more. And most of all he has restored my peace of mind..

Thank you God for sending your son to die for me... To save me from a pit of fire. So that i can be near you when i die to praise you and worhship you... Forgive me where i fall short.

God bless you all... I pray that your day has been a breath of fresh air for you also..

god bless

glenda

MERRY CHRISTMAS TO ALL!!!!

MERRY CHRISTMAS ALL. I PRAY THAT EACH OF YOU ARE HAVING A BLESSED DAY AND THAT GOD KEEPS HIS HANDS ON EACH OF YOU THRU THE COMING YEAR...

Dinner is cooking.. God is so good at providing us just what we need when we need it... He did it again this year..  We are listening to christmas music and oh how i so love the feel in my home... We are going to be fine. We have came around that bend in the road and i know in my heart that we will be ok...

God bless all. and again have a Blessed day...

love

glenda and children

God Is so good...

Have you ever felt like no matter what is going on around you that things are going to be ok... That things are going to get better. It is like for some reason today i have a second wind to me. I know that things are going to be just fine. We will be just fine. No matter what we have God and that is all we need... Everything else will work out...

People have asked me how i feel about my test results and how i feel about being cut  on again. At first i was honestly upset. It felt like Lord what have i done to have all this done to me and what have the children done....... But you know what it has nothing to do with me... Yes he is using me but it is to show his mighty work.. He has done a massive work with me in me and thru me.. My church family has grown, my children have grown, I have grown.. Our faith has grown.. And with that all of this is so worth it...

I feel as if i have a new wind today... I am still hurting, I still have much to go thru but I know that no matter what God is there and has gone there before me... What more could i want. Things will be ok..

I am so pleased to be back online with you all. I have so missed each of you... You all are like family to me.

Well i am going to go and rest as few and allow my children to open a few gifts from a dear friend.. Thank you Debra... And then it will be time for me to answer some much needed emails and send the kids off to bed... Mom also needs to get the ham in the oven in a few hours so it will be done tomorrow... You should see the size of this ham we were blessed with.. God is so great.. We will be able to eat off this thing for some time and have enough to put in beans.. Thank you God...

I pray that each of you have a blessed night and a merry christmas..

love

glenda

MERRY CHRISTMAS!!!!!

Merry Christmas All!!! I pray that all of you will have a blessed Christmas.

The children and I are all ready for the day... We have a ham and all the fixings thanks to a wonderful gift from the people at the bread store. They called me and asked me to come down there that they had a gift for me and the children. When we got there long and behold there was all the fixings for Christmas dinner.. PRAISE the LORD....

So I am looking forward to cooking it all up.....I have each one of the children a gift under the tree and one to put under the tree tonight when they go to bed... Again only because of the good LORD.. I in no way could have done this... It was only the Lord that did it..

We ended up getting rid of most of our animals. We are now down to three rabbits, a few ducks, a few chickens, one dog and one cat... And one turkey.. It breaks my heart that we have had to get rid of so many animals. But it is just a season and soon we will be able to get back on or feet and Lord i know that we will get everything back and then some and oh boy is it ever going to be better.. :-)

Well all i have cookies to get bagged up to share with the neighbors, and homemade candy to get bagged up to share also.. Plus i need to get the neighbors gifts of homemade ear rings and coffee cups bagged up to take to them also.. Oh how i love this season..

God bless all

glenda

Hard lessons to learn...

Hello all. I have to say that being single is not all it is cut out to be.. I so loved being married things were so much easier. I mean I was out of reach.. I  did not have to worry if a man was interested in me.. It did not matter.. But now Oh boy here I am a single mom after 20 years of marriage... How does one take that.. I mean really... I have learned however that NOT all men are out for your best interest when you are a single women. Now mind you I understand there are women out there that are well just like some men are dogs... I mean they are out to get what they want or who they want at all cost.. But for me I am looking at this as a single women... I have learned that men seem to think that just because i was married for all those years that I can not live without a man to fill my life up... Do i want a man in my life at some point well yes but i do not want a man to think just because we go out one time that all the sudden he is due something... Gosh when did this whole dateing thing turn into this... Have i been out of the works for so long that I just am dumb... I honestly feel dumb... I have dear friends that tell me girl you need to find someone that will  love you and those children. And i am sure they are right but  there is always a but... i dont know i guess if i would have had a good experience with marriage maybe I would feel different.. But i didnt... Do I want someone to share my life with yes. But i want someone who will love to be outdoors, someone who loves the farm life, someone who is not all about the money and more about the standard of life. Maybe the honest problem is I AM NOT READY... Period. I have so much going on in my life that i am just not ready to date... I am not ready to have someone in my life the way that the whole dateing thing goes.. Maybe that is what the problem is...

It would have been so much easier on me if well honestly I had picked the right man with gods help all those years ago.. I would not be here. I would still be married.. I would still have the life that i so loved. I would have someone with me when i am sick. I would not be alone or for that matter feel lonely.. LIfe would be so much better. But i made that wrong choice. Now not only am i paying for it but so are the children..

Tomorrow we are doing something that i am so proud of my children for. They were all given 10dollars for christmas. They found out that another family in our church was having a hard time.. Now they took there total of 50dollars and we went to walmart and spent all there money plus 20dollars i was given and we bought christmas for this other family.. I was so proud of the children to see a need outside there owns and to use there money that they were given for christmas to help this other famiy out.. So tomorrow we will play santa and go and give these gifts to this family.. I have to say we had more fun shopping for those gifts than anything.. We all got into stepping out of our problems and helping someone else...

Well all i need to get a few things done before i go to bed.. I am having issues with sleeping more lately than ever... but i am going to at least go and try to sleep..

Have a blessed day all

glenda

Good Friday Morning all..

Hello all I pray that this finds each of you doing well. I have not slept at all last night I just could not get to sleep. But on a good note i got to think about a few things.. Sometimes i think that is a good thing. I normally do not sleep much anyway or at least since I got sick i have not slept well. I am normally lucky to get two to three hours sleep and that is on a good night. But last night NONE... I told the children that i will have to try to lay down and nap a little later on. I normally do not sleep when i do that but just the down time is good for mom.. ;-)

I have almost got all the laundry all washed up and dried. It is sprinkling again this am.. I am so tried of RAIN. Now mind you I am thankful for it but I am tried of it.. I SO WANT SOME SUN.......

We have a friend of the boys over today. It will be fun for my youngest son.. He is now 14 and loves to play with lego so today he has someone over that also loves to play with the legos. It always amazes me what they can build out of those things...

Elizabeth and I are going to work on getting last minute christmas gifts made up today. I also would like to get some of my baking to give out done today but i will have to wait and see how i am doing in a few hours..

As far as my health goes I am holding my own. I am down to under 100 lbs. Doctor does not like that but I am at least not as low as i was at one point. I am keeping my blood levels at a level number and my kidney is staying at or about the same level. So i am so thankful for that. We have it ordered when i have my surgery... I will be so glad when all this is over. I will be so glad when there is nothing left to take out and i can move on and do what i need to do to take care of my family.

On the issue of the children as you may have seen on the post before this one they are growing. Elizabeth and Jackie are looking into college. Oh my two of my children will be attending college next year.. HOW did i get that old???? I am so proud of them.. They are such a delight to call my children. The other three are doing great. Steven is our computer tec., Rebecca is my artist. and James is my  little builder. All the children are growing so much and changing. I love them all dearly... I am so thankful to have them. Without them i would have never made it. Never...

Well all i need to serve my children and there guest breakfast. And then start getting things cleaned up and ready for the day. All chores are done and they are hungry...

God bless all

glenda

thanksgiving pic two

Here is another pic of us on thanksgiving. It is of steven, james, me, rebecca and then jackie.. We had to change out so that we could get pics of all of us...

Here is a few picture of me and the kids

Well here is a pic of me and four of my kids. There is Steven, James, me in the back and then in the front there is Rebecca and Elizabeth. It is so hard to believe how big they are getting.